What are your dreams? Some people don't even dream. I don't mean when you close your eyes at night. I mean the dreams you think when you are bored at work, or having a bad day and dream of escape. Or you have a free moment and time to think about your life and where it is going and where you want it to go. If you don't, I suggest you start. No one can force you to dream, that would defeat the point. I think some people think that dreams are silly or even overwhelming. I say start small. You like to paint, but you haven't in years or maybe NEVER have...Take a class. I don't think there is such a thing as a silly dream or a dream too big or too small. We have to have goals in life; something to work toward, even if it is not for yourself. Maybe your dream is to make others happy, it's still a dream started by you. I think the old saying "you can't be truly happy until you are happy with yourself" is very true. Think about it!
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02/24/06 - Wow, I pretty much feel exaclty the same way now as I did when I wrote this! I need to update this more though, I will work on that!  And I think I am doing this for me because only a hand full of people even look at this site! If any! And I appreciate those that do take the time to read through it! I know it's a lot of reading!! :-)
April 2006 - Been thinking a lot...about life and what is precious and friends and love, and life's plan. Trying to get a grip on it all...so far I think I'm doing pretty good, but wow A lot of thoughts running through my head! About me and questioning what my purpose is, etc. You know those 'life questions", but it's not a 'drepressing' feeling or anything, it actually feels quite good; awakening. Sure there is change in the air, but I think I like who I am and what I am doing, so really I am quite thankful for my life. I am thankful and happy with all the things I have been able to do in my life and look forward to a long life ahead! :-)
Ramblings - I think this website is a lot like me, it wanders from thought to thought. I don't think I have anything or say anything  that flows (or has proper punctuation or grammar, but thoughts should not be spell checked should they?!). But that is me...Random Thoughts. That should have been my name, random thoughts. If Demi and Bruce can name a kid Rumor..I could be Random.
I have discovered that I a true people watcher, people fascinate me. Some suck, but most are fascinating! Like the couple i wrote about on the park bench, they are still stuck in my head! Too bad a few bad apples made stalker laws so stricked. I'm kidding, oh great now you all think I am a stalker! I just enjoy observing, then I can create stories and let my imagination flow! It's like being at the zoo and observing the animals. Only better. I think most writer's would agree that true life makes the best stories, or at least starting from a 'true moment'. I love telling stories, I think stroy telling is all we have left at times. If you think about it, everything in life is a story of some sort.
Imagine if we all took our own advice...We would all be stress free and carefree! For me it would be a big help in my life if I got rid of some clutter. I am a pack rat! But sometimes your habits run over into your lifestyle, into your life.
Do you think that we all really have a soul mate? ONE person in the entire world that we are to be matched with? I think there are a few....and you're lucky to find just one of them. I have discussed this with a few others and they seem to think the same. Some think it is all a bunch of crap, and that fate and things like fate do not exist.
I think a soul mate can even just be a friend, same sex even. I mean we do not pick where we are born or even where we grow up, yet we seem to fit into that location, make freinds, etc. Do you think you were born in the place you were intended to be your whole life? Does fate and God play a part of your life from the very beginning. Then how much free will do you really have? I think we have free will and we make our own decisions but God's plan works out one way or another, I think we are given a beginning and an ending, it's your free will that gets you there though. I think some people want love in their lives so bad that they settle. And others I think are not even capable of truly loving. Not to the degree that I feel I can. But does that make them unloving? I don't think so. It makes them different, and that makes the world go around. Some people love too much. Love is funny. That pretty much sums it up.
It can make you insane, it can hurt, it can make you happier than anything ever has before, it can also be the worst pain you have ever felt. That is why I really think it is important to love yourself, to do things you enjoy, to have dreams, etc. So if you never find one of your "soul mates" (Twin Flames) you don't feel lost. Life is about living is it not? Whether you have a partner or not. Whether you have kids or not. But of course friends and partners make life a little better at times, a lot better at other times.
I think one of my biggest fears is being all alone. I love my alone time, but not being lonely! I wonder how much of our lives we truly decide and how much we let others choose for us! Are you living in the place you want to live, are living with the person you want to live with?! Are your freinds good for you? Do you enjoy your job? Questions that are not easy to answer, not for me anyway, not all the time. I am happy overall and I think even on off days I am exactly where I am supose to be!
Why are we all scared of change (me being one!!) Change is scary, but also exciting! Think of the feeling and pure rush you get from thinking about changing your life! OR just adding to it. There's a big world out there...and we only have so much time to occupy it!
Just thinking about things, gets you no where! You have to put some effort behind the thinking!
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