HISTORY
oct.13.2oo2 The first thing he said to me online was, "hey bozo" haha...Then I thought I knew him and he thought I already knew
him because he was on his friend's sn. For some reason I was on his friend's buddy list...But he finally switched to
his sn and we started to talk a little more and I made him make a xanga :]...I had to leave and I don't know why, but
I saved that convo...maybe because it made me happy inside...
part of the first convo:
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: wutcha doing now
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: ?
Jill1021: im jus writing
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: oh
Jill1021: wat about u
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: talking to this cute girl
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: and watchin football
Jill1021: lol =)
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: lolZ
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: your parents home?
Jill1021: yea
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: so bascially you just hang out
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: in the city?
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: nething else?
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: no drinking no bars
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: no parties
Jill1021: long island 2
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: no clubs?
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: oh
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: you take the LIR?
Jill1021: nah
Jill1021: get driven there hehe
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: hehe
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: you get a ride ?
Jill1021: yea
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: from dad?
Jill1021: my aunt or friends
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: oh
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: you dun have a ride?
Jill1021: she pays for my stuff so i dont mind =x lol
Jill1021: they drive me there
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: i would give you a ride too
Jill1021: aww
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: yup
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: u with the hat reminds me of aaliyah
Jill1021: loL
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: lolZ
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: u do
Jill1021: haha no1 told me that b4
Jill1021: ppl say i look like a chinese brandy
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: yup
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: it's a compliment by the way
Jill1021: =)
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: :)
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: tell me more bout u>
Jill1021: wat would u like 2 kno
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: dunno
Jill1021: lol
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: wut else you like?
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: tell me more about u
Jill1021: hmm..i play handball
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: werd
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: me sucky though
Jill1021: me 2 haha
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: haha
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: you have doggies?
Jill1021: nah
Jill1021: do u?
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: i want one
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: i want a Yorkie
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: cause it's soo cute
Jill1021: hehe =)
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: you like those?
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: you know wut is a yorkie?
Jill1021: yea they're cute
Jill1021: yea
Jill1021: i like small dogs
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: yeah
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: i want 1
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: i want a pomeranian too
Jill1021: o i c
Jill1021: i dunno wat that looks like hehe
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: it's a puffy looking brown one
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: some white ones too
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: they soo cute
Jill1021: hehe
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: hehe
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: i like Pugs too
Jill1021: =)
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: from MIB
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: haha
Jill1021: lolz
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: yup yup
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: i love doggies
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: they sooo cute
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: but cosrt too mucho
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: :(
Jill1021: aww yep
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: moomy dun let me get one
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: :(
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: u?
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: why dun you get 1
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: u seem like the cutey type girl that should have a doggie
Jill1021: i used to have 2 but they were big
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: yuck
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: haha
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: wut kind
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: ?
Jill1021: lollz
Jill1021: pitbull n rotweiler
Jill1021: haha
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: meanie doggies
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: grrr...
Jill1021: yep
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: they good police doggies
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: but they still cute too
Jill1021: lolz
Jill1021: yea mines were nice
Jill1021: they didnt kill ppl hehe
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: just dun bite me it's allg ood
Jill1021: lol
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: yu-p
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: hehee
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: wut happened ?
Jill1021: o nuttin
Jill1021: y?
Jill1021: o the dogs?
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: yup
Jill1021: my dad gave them away cuz he couldnt take care of them :T
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: hehe
Jill1021: ahh i feel sleepy already
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: go to sleep
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: i dun wanna botehr u
Jill1021: no itz ok
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: just leave if you tired
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: i dun mind okie?
Jill1021: ok
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: hehe
Jill1021: hmm..i'll stay till 10:30
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: ok
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: good girls are sooo atrractive yo
Jill1021: lollz
Jill1021: but y
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: i like good girls
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: just me
Jill1021: o alrite
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: u kinda quiet?
Jill1021: yep sorry =(
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: it's okie
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: dun say sorry
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: u didn't do anything wrong
Jill1021: i wish i was more talkative tho..i onno
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: hehe
Jill1021: like itz a disease or sumthin lollz..
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: yeah me the same
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: i understand
Jill1021: ok :p
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: no school tommroow?
Jill1021: nope
Jill1021: lol u got skool
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: :(
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: yes
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: i have test
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: :(
Jill1021: damn
Jill1021: good luck
Jill1021: go study!! hehe
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: and tuesday
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: nah
Jill1021: u got midterms?
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: i rather talk to you
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: yup
Jill1021: noo im goin 2 feel bad
Jill1021: i dun want u 2 fail
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: i know my stuff
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: how are you doing nin school??
Jill1021: pretty good
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: wut major?
Jill1021: nursing
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: oh nice
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: that's cute
Jill1021: lolz
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: my friend is a nurse too
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: she graduated
Jill1021: oo
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: she is going to grad school at NYU for nursing too
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: it's soo cute
Jill1021: lol
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: yup i think it's soo cute
Jill1021: hahaha
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: yup
Jill1021: everything is cute 2 u hehe =)
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: u know your nice girl
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: hehehe
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: not everything
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: im picky yo
Jill1021: lolz
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: yup
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: how do i use xanga?
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: u knoe Jill is such a cool name
Jill1021: use the xtools to write an entry
Jill1021: it is? hehe
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: yup i like it
Jill1021: thanx
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: np
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: how do i change the stuff?
Jill1021: go to look & feel
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: hey
Jill1021: u can change the colors n stuff
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: how do i meet people?
Jill1021: join blogrings..make ur xanga hot so they hit on u..lolz
Jill1021: or u can comment other ppl
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: i dunno how
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: i dun got the tym
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: hehe
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: school
Jill1021: lol bum
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: no
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: schoool yo
Jill1021: hehe
Jill1021: i got skool 2 ;]
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: i got mad shiet yo
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: im a junior
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: cl;asses are hard
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: dun got tym to edit it
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: haha
KiDW0NDeRZzZ: ask my sister about it
Jill1021: o lolz
lol...wow that's long but I think AOL cut the rest of it out :(...He's such a macker~! jkjk...Well, I already started to like this guy after we
just immed each other for the first time ^^;; The next day came and I felt odd imming him because I didn't know if he
wanted to talk to me or not, so I just waited for him to im me...and he did...I forgot when was the first time we talked
on the phone but I remember what happened...I was actually kinda scared to call him too, but I did want to talk to him...
I never wanted to talk to anyone on the phone before :\...I remember he text messaged me a kazillion times telling me he was
nervous and stuff until I finally called him...After that we talked so much to each other...Calling each other everyday...
And this is how we started :)...
MEMORIES
july.22.o3 It rained like a mofo last night...I went to my apartment after talking to my boyfriend on the phone...
When I was lying in bed I just heard the rain pouring down and it reminded me of that day.
It was around the end of May, the day me and my aunt were fighting...She was complaining about me
sleeping late and said I was good for nothing...something like that...I was trying to talk to her, but she wouldn't
listen to me...I got so frustrated that I just walked out of her apartment with my cell phone and went into the one next door...The place
was a mess because it was being renovated and everything...So there was debris on the floor...and it was crazy dark
...the lights weren't working...I just wanted to die, because of all the stuff my aunt said...It was like around
4am and I just sat there on the porch...It was raining that night and even though there's a roof above the porch, I
still felt the rain pour down on me and I was just wearing a t-shirt and shorts...I just sat there thinking and
crying...and then I called John...I felt bad for calling him at such an early time, but he answered me and we talked...
After that, I wasn't as sad anymore and it was something that touched me deeply...
If everything was going wrong, I
could always turn to John...He's always been there for me...and that's just one of the reason why I love him so much...
This just came into my head again last night...and it's something that I'll never forget...it may seem like a little
task to him, but to me it meant so much...Just to know that he'll always be there for me means a lot...
