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You may not understand this..I don't even really understand this myself. You might not even believe me, but I swear to you this is all true. I am not leaving you, not in the way you must be thinking, please believe that. If I had my choice, I would never leave you. And please believe that I love you with all my heart. I had better start at the beginning. It may explain some of my behaviour over this past weekend.
Thursday night, my mother came for me. She told me it was my "time". My time to go. She didn't want me to join her yet, but she was not given a choice. I guess you could say that fate was stronger than my mother. She begged and pleaded and was finally allowed only to tell me before time.
Mum wanted to give me this gift as she had not recieved this herself. She was left with regrets when her time came, things she should have said and didn't. She did not want the same to happen to me, so she gave me the best possible gift she could.
She told me to live out my last days as happily as I could. She wanted my last few days to be filled with love, happiness and the "stuff dreams are made of". She wanted me to leave with happy memories. She also knew how much I love you and that I would cherish this time with you.
That is the reason I spoke to my father. I did not want this to go on any longer. It can't be carried over and I didn't want to leave any ill~feeling.
I know this is going to hurt you, and that is the only thing that fills me with regret. But there was no other way to do this. I considered breaking it all off~but that would have hurt you immensely and I don't think you would have accepted it easily. So I decided to make this last weekend a weekend to remember and to let you know how much I adore you, heart, body, mind and soul. I hope my decision did not cause you more pain.
I did not want to be here when..it..happened, so I have gone home. Please don't try to come and get me, you will be too late~I have ensured you will be. Mum told me the day and time, and I do not want you to be there.
Please never forget that I love you with all my heart and always will. We will meet again. Please don't mourn for me. Remember our last weekend.
I love you.
Forever~
Kait.
You have read the story..what would YOU do? Would you want to know before time? Or would you rather go through your life oblivious to what fate has in store?
"If Tomorrow Never Comes" is the title. There are no guarantees on tomorrow. You can never be certain. If tomorrow didn't come for you, would you be left with any regrets, things you should have said or done, but didn't? Or have you lived your life to the fullest, doing everything you want to?
Most of us would be left with regrets. Life is all about taking it, and making the most of it. We won't get the second chance Kait did. So we have to do the best we can while here.
Live your life to the fullest, don't ever let fear stop you from getting what you want. Live a life filled with good memories and no regrets.
Just in case..Tomorrow never comes..
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"Iris".