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| TO MY SON WITH ALL MY LOVE |
| It seems like only yesterday that my world came crashing down. No one will ever know how lost and helpless I felt that night, hoping you knew that I was there in the hospital, I tried to get there as fast as I could when they let me know they were transfering you to the I.C.U, knowing that you needed me now more than any other time in your life, but I was unable to get there in time, to hold you close and tell you how much I loved you. I tried my darling but, you were gone before I could get to you. I kept praying and hoping that you heard me and knew that you were not alone. Ian, you are always on my mind and in my heart. There are so many things I want to say to you, there is so much in my heart, I try to put it all down on paper, hoping it will help me and hoping you can see it all, I think I do it as a memorial to you...to show what a great person you were and how much you meant to me and all your family. IAN MICHAEL LYNES....what a beautiful person. You made my life worth the living, along with your two brothers and your little sis, you all are my world and I love you all so very much, but you Ian came into my life when I needed you the most, so why then were you taken from me???.It was so sudden, with no time for good-byes!!! I know that I will never get the answer to that question, but I do know that I owe God so much for bringing you into my life..I know that one day we will be together again. Ian you are my soul mate and an extraordinary person. I get angry because you were taken from us way to soon, but I think about all the memories that we made as a family and how they have become treasures to us and I give thanks for the time we had you here with us, only wish we could have had more time together. We had you here for thirty wonderful years, so many memories as a family, some beautiful ones, some not quite as good. We had some really good laughs as you, your brothers and little sis were always so full of mischief. There were school days, family parties, Christmas was always great, we never had much money but we had each other and our family was a strong one. There was never a dull moment, so much laughter, so much fun. You became a daddy yourself in 2001. I know that was something that was very important to you, something you had always wanted. You were the perfect dad, you enjoyed being a daddy, you loved Connor so very much. Connor is now three years old and he is so much like you in every way. He knows who you are and kisses your photos. Emily misses her Uncle Boo, so very much, you were the daddy she never had. You were a big part of their lives and still are. You shared with them, you were one of them when you played with them. Connor and Emily say they are going to come to heaven and get you back when they get older and stronger because everyone misses you so and needs you. You loved life and lived it to the fullest. I know my darling that I`m looking forward to the time that we are together again. I love you with all my heart and I`m trying to go on as best I can. It is so very hard without you, there is no one day that you aren`t on my mind and in my heart in everything that I do. There are days when I feel you so close to me that I turn and look for you, I can`t see you but I know you are there. Until we meet again my love....I LOVE YOU. Remember I promised to love you forever and I always will. Mam xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx |
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