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| 2:41am 26-2-2003 After times and times that you hurted me,somehow it also made me see...that the perfect love which i had been dreaming of..it didn't exist..and it would never...ever...come to see me.... We ain't just begin but i said i would not stop loving you.... I tried and tried to make you see that we belonged together...i tried and i cried when you said "Please wait for me...Soon i'll be coming right back to you" You told me "Just 3months ,baby... Can you wait for me just 3 months? " I cried at night when i kept thinking that it's not me who're holding you tight...So i gotta take so many pills to make me fall asleep... |
| A week after then,we got a chance to go out at night together..we went to the place that we first met...And in that night...i asked him "Please let me hold you as i used to" he said "No" but when there was someone came to see me and asked for my telephone number..He took my hands and he held me tight...Then i knew that he was afraid of losing me,too...He told me "I will dump him if you still want me for sure" --- "Hey,Darling...Don't you see that i'm waiting for you to say this word..." Since then he has tried hard to treat me good...he saw that i was the best for him....Although i still loved him most but he's not the best for me anymore...he broke my heart and now he tried to ease that kinda pains by kissing me goodnight..but believe me,it still exists,that kinda pains still exist in me....baby..... |
| And now,Unexpectedly,i find someone that make me crazy of him....(lol)....He is so right... i don't know why...i just wanna be with him..But deep inside,i really feel guilty... My friends say "You don't have to feel guilty...You have been hurted and now is your turn to pay back" But my sister say to me "The new thing is always much fresher than the old one .But,Remember! There's nothing new forever...Now you're only seeing his good side,but one day you'll also see his bad side...So,ask yourself,Are you readey to take a risk in love once again? Are you ready to stop and start? Are you sure? Don't you tried? Or Will you be able to forgive and forget someone else once again?" I'm not sure...But for all i know is i don't want to start because i'm tried enough ,i hate to pretend because it's really not my incident,And i can not forgive anyone anymore,baby... |
| I and boy.... we belonged together...And i will never ever forget the way i feel when we first met ,boy...As i said in that night when you had someone new "We belong together...Pick me...I'm your real" and you chose me... Now is my turn to make things right,Hey..dude,it's really easy to start but it's extremely hard to make it last...The more i start,the more i stop...oh,i don't need to walk that way...My memory's already full... |
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