diary16

Well its been almost a month since I wrote in here.. My life is starting to get back together again.. I feel like myself a little more.. Im being social.. Calling people and hangin out with them.. Its been a crazy year which im glad is almost over.. Ive given up on finding a b/f because if its meant to be then it will but I dont see anything being meant to be for me.. Im to cursed or something.. Everytime I meet someone I like there is too much bullshit.. :( Men are just liars who just want one thing.. Maybe thats what I should just do? I dunno.. But aint going to have any expectations anymore... But the last couple of weeks have gone pretty good.. Ive been really happy.. not for any specific reasons but i do find it weird that I am happy.. cuz normally need a reason to be happy.. But have gone thru alot of shit in past few weeks and most of the shit is just bouncing off of me like it used too.. Need to become more of a happy go lucky guy like i was when I was younger.. But this year I have learned alot.. Alot more then any year in my life.. I know not to trust people until i get to know them... I know not to have such high expectations of other people.. I know to let things bounce off me more then i did before.. I know that there are going to be alot of people who might not like me but i know for a fact there are alot more that care about me and that ive had an impact on there life in a positive way.. Ive got to not care when people say bad stuff about me behind my back.. But I do this because im a person if i have something to say about someone I will say it to there face and i would expect the same in return.. So life? Hmmmmm Well 2 weeks ago I got my eyebrow pierced... I love it even though it got a little infected.. :) But my mom had a cow when she saw it.. She took it worse then when I told her I was gay.. *shrug* but thats mothers for you.. I know she still loves me even though she wants to rip it out.. But then again i didnt get it to impress anyone except myself.. and i think i look cute with it.. Ive actually wanted to get it for like 7 years but didnt have the guts until I got my nipple pierced in the summer.. :) So im excited me and my friend Dylan will be going to Montreal for the weekend and to watch the Mapleleafs play Canadiens.. We went to Montreal last february and they lost hopefully they'll win this time but even if they dont I know we'll have fun because Montreal is an amazing fun place and there are so many cute boys .. :) But it will just be great to get away from Toronto because the last couple times ive tried to go my plans we're screwed up.. :( But other then that.. Been working too much.. But thats life.. Anyways i'll end this babble for now.. catch ya later..