Okie.. Venting diary #203... Why is it people talk shit about me behind my back? Fuck people if you have a problem with me say it too my fucking face.. Im a sex fiend i heard this time.. Funny how so many people know SO much about me even though my phone doesnt ring anymore. I go out alone and do things by myself.. Nobody chats with me when im on the net.. Like whatever.. I have hated all these years that i meet someone i like and they know people who know me who say shit behind my back.. saying to watch out for me and shit.. Like whatever thats a load of fucking bullshit if you ask me.. Ask some of my ex's what kind of person I am.. Fuck i have a few ex's on my friends page.. email them.. My ex Joey in Halifax? Well we never even had sex and the night he slept in the same bed as me i didnt even try to do anything other then cuddling.. I dont understand why i have so many critics? I know ive burned a few bridges but if there is one thing i hate its people who have a problem with me and wont bring it up.. its because of people like this that i have a temper which i never had before i came out.. its because of people like this that im sure im going to die alone.. Its because of people like this that i hate being gay and sometimes wish i was dead instead of being gay.. Why cant people just mind there own fucking business? Why do people want to see me depressed, sad, lonely so much? Does it give them a cheep thrill.from it? Why critize me and my life? Why because your probably just as guilty have having a one nite stand from time to time? Or is it the fact your a loser and or your too fucking old or ugly to even get anyone? Im not saying im anything special or i would think a hell of alot better about myself then what i do.. but if i have a problem with someone i say it too them.. not behind there back.. its like a couple of friends have met guys who i didnt think very highly of.. I could have said shit about this person.. But im a man.. I dont do that sort of FUCKING CRAP... People learn on there own.. If im such an asshole as everyone thinks I am then people will learn on there own.. All i know is the past few years i have gone outta my way for so many people and for the most part all ive gotten is shit in return.. If you dont like me? Thats your problem.. I give everyone a chance but nobody seems to do the same with me.. so fuck everyone.. maybe i will just die alone.. But i rather be alone and have piece of mind knowing these assholes will get their own in the long run.. All i know is if something good actually happened to me in this year that has been the worst in my life i wouldnt know what to do
and that i hope all this people who dont like me have a nice party when they find out im dead.
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