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| 5/9/2006 "Trust in the Lord with ALL of your heart and lean NOT on your OWN understanding...in all your ways, acknowledge Him, and He will direct your paths." Proverbs 3:5-6 Well, we have made it (we think...we really don't know for sure) to the part of the adoption journey that we will rely on God the most for...PGN. As many have attested on the adoption boards, you hope to get there, can't wait to get there, and then once you do, you pray like crazy to get out! And before, I always had that comfort of knowing I could contact my Congressman if I needed to. Not that it would necessarily change anything, but it was like having a backup plan. With PGN, there is no backup plan. There is only God and that reviewer who is going to review every bit of our paperwork. And that new director who hasn't been eagerly signing off on cases recently. The cases I have seen exiting lately are cases that entered in March. And there are several who have been waiting even longer. But again, I cannot trust in PGN. That isn't what the verse says. It is that I will have to trust in God for His perfect timing. Whenever that is. (He hasn't told us yet ;) I do know it is not in my understanding. My understanding thinks Maria should be home right now, sleeping in her bed. But I have to again trust that God sees a bigger picture than I do... We get asked alot when we mention our upcoming visit..."Will you get to bring her home?" We, of course, had really hoped at one time that we would. But it just isn't likely. In fact, the only way it would happen would be a complete miracle from God. PGN is taking time, then we still have to get a new birth certificate. And an appointment with the Embassy (the famous pink slip). And the last time we had to get a birth certificate for her, it took over six weeks. (We do hope next time will be quicker, but it will still take a while). While we would LOVE for God to grant us that, Maria's coming home at the beginning of the summer, it just isn't likely. So we just keep praying it will happen at the right time for all of us. Whenever that may be. However difficult that might be. (And it is...) We are hoping for new pictures soon. My heart is aching to see her and hold her again. And in some ways, Maria almost seems like a dream. It has been over five months since we last held her. And it has been a few months since we received our video tidbit. Sometimes I wonder if we are imagining her. (I think the kids wonder that often too :) Still waiting... |
| 5/10/2006 Wow...there are only 13 day of school left (not counting nonschool days). That just blows me away. I am already beginning to feel the pressure and unending work associated with the end of school...in fact, I feeel like I am drowning. And I am tired, and there is NOT enough time...Hmmm, is there a verse for that???
Ahh, the tried and true, Isaiah 40:31 "but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." I am pretty sure that I am going to be relying on that verse alot in the next couple of weeks. (I say that as I type knowing I still need a bath and to make two egg/sausage casseroles, plus get teacher gifts together...sigh....) Speaking of...it is Teacher Appreciation Week! Have you appreciated one lately? :) There was an incredible article in today's paper about the family of the young man who was tragically killed this week. What a testimony even in the darkest hours. Here is the link: Daniel's story I would encourage you to read it... Of course no news. But I do have a little poem to end with...pretty much sums us up right now. Song of the Waiting Mother by Christine Futia I'm pregnant but my tummy isn't showing, And no one ever calls me "little mom". My neighbours simply aren't overflowing With questions that I'd handle with aplomb. There are no special clothes to mark my waiting. Nobody stops and smile as I pass by. The absence of a due date is frustrating, And looking at the nursery makes me cry. When I'm "overdue", no one will worry. The phone won't ring and ring as friends check in. I can't induce my labor in a hurry, My new life as a parent to begin. Adoption is a wearisome endeavour, And waiting all alone is not much fun. To be "with child" a year seems like forever � Dear God, we're ready: please send us our son! (Or in some cases our DAUGHTER!!!) |
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