| 11 th of August 2006, 23:00 (The Netherlands) DAY 1 Yup, I'm writing this while I'm on vacation. I don't have any connection to the internet and I'm bored, but that won't stop me from writing. I'm a great fan of some series of games. I have a small collection around the 'Jak and Daxter trilogy', go nuts when somebody mentions Kingdom Hearts, consider buying the PS3 just so I could play Tekken 6... But nowadays, I even grow insane when I see a small 'Shin Megami Tensei' flash. I'm the proud owner of Shin Megami Tensei's: Lucifer's Call (or Nocturne to you Americans) and I would SO DAMN WANNA OWN DEMON BUTT!! (read: buy the Digital Devil Saga) Problem? Shin Megami Tensei's hard to find... Then suddenly we go to the Netherlands, make pit stop in Turnhout (still Belgium) and BAM! This small game shop HAS IT ALL!!!! My curse? That I'm not allowed to buy games when we are GOING on vacation. So this crazy girl has to wait until we return home and maybe, just maybe, we'll stop in Turnhout again. *Prays* --- Oxedeli |
| 12 th of August 2006, 22:50 (The Netherlands) DAY 2 Nothing really happened today, but I wasn't this bored as I was yesterday. I still miss my conection and my friends. I don't even know how the home base is doing and I'm SOOOO WAITING for amessage of Keith. I know he told me he would send me one around the middle of my short vacation so that we wouldn't drown in SMS-costs. But hy, in my case, it's already too late for that! Today is DAY 2, this would mean I still have to wait, like, two extra days or so! I know he wrote me this sweet letter and I read it every day, but... You know... Just that little feeling... He gave me one of his bears he still had since he was little and told me to hug it when I missed him. I named him Robear. I'm not really a bear hugger, but I do like to watch him. Okay. You know what? I promise I'll take a picture of Rob and place them right here in Hinhout. I don't really know yet where I'm gonna place my shots, but I'm thinking of making a 'Pics and Contact' page on the Axel side, parallel to the Guestbook link. This page would contain y personal Email Address AND my photo's, so don't miss it! Peace out y'all!! --- Oxedeli |
| 13 th of August 2006, 23:06 (The Netherlands) DAY 3 We went hiking today in 'The Green Hills'. Man, I really needed the woods... We saw a lot of white mushrooms. Some were bovists, others looked like umbrellas =D. The smell of the moistly ground, the sight of all the green, the energy you feel arund you... Forest, me woves... Then suddenly mom spotted something small on the ground. It was a tiny brown coloured frog. I caught it and watched it carefully. Last time I caught one, the poor fellow jumped right out of my hands and landed on his back... Death came too soon for him... I didn't wanna kill another one by curiosity, so I gently let the little one go. Yes, I sure do love th forest... But I hate horse crap! Those darn herbivores just leave their dung everywhere! They're worse than dogs!! O well, the green kinda healed me. I hope we'll gonna go hinking again soon! ^_^ --- Oxedeli |
| 14 th of August 2006, 23:26 (The Netherlands) DAY 4 A crying sky reaches out Your silent heart is breaking You wish to feel the fire's out Just to stop the shaking I always heard them cry I almost wished to die But then again, you made me see How lovely life can be Every choice we make is just a bet And all my money's set On you and me Kneeling before the warming light Entering a free zone Nothing can block this sight Never-ending, always known Eternal love is a right The essence of our might Hearts we voluntarily give in loan... I always heard them cry I almost wished to die Then I heard you for a while And the only thing I could was... Smile =) And again you made me see How lovely life can be --- Oxedeli |
| 15 th of August 2006, 21:49 (The Netherlands) DAY 5 Nijmegen... A city build on sacred land where it doesn't matter whether it's God or the Devil who leads us. A city with a fake tower you can visit to watch over the real one. A city where we managed to park right next to the hookers without even knowing O_-". Anyway, we liked it there because of the great shops (while others were more interested in the naked meat that was hanging in front of the windows on the 3rd floor of an apartment...) We got lucky with almost everything: the weather, the shops... And yip, I so own demon butt now! *proud + end of curse* I don't know what it is, but I really love demons and I tend to sympathise with Satan. You know, to me Satan isn't pure evil and he's definitely not ne and the same as Beelzebub or Lucifer. I have my own thoughts about 'Evil' and 'Darkness'. I don't want to kick the 'normal' Christians against their shins and i'm NOT a Satanist. I don't know what I am. That's just being me, I guess. We can all believe whatever we want, as long as we don't hurt others! I see Lucifer as the Fallen Angel of Light. He wanted to be seen as an equal to God, but God did not want that. Satan ha to watch over us. He got jealous of us when he saw God was using his Angels as servants while he liked us the most. Satan knew we were a stupid breed and that this was why Man grew out to be God's favourite. So basically, we were kicked out of Eden because Satan gave us the gift of knowledge! A smal group had more freedom than the other... Jealousy... It all sounds so familliar, doesn't it? Sure it does! And that's why we have to learn out of it! We have to stop discrimination although it is carved in our program. Man aren't better than Angels and whites aren't better than coloured folk and you shouldn't like others because they are easy to manipulate, but because they mean something to you! Everything we don't like is always seen as 'Evil', although there is always the possibility that our wishes are actually drownin in Darkness. Everybody's always blaming the Devil. Well f*ck that! Demons have their own problems too! One of them is iscrimination, another one is emotion... And just admit it, we all like some Shadow when it's 40�C outside. Just don't blame the Devil --- Oxedeli |
| 17 th of August 2006, 00:21 (The Netherlands) ABOUT DAY 6 I'm sitting in bed, typing. You should know that, because there wouldn't have been a text to read if I hadn't actually written one. Anyway, it's damn late. Mom wanted to see 'In Her Shoes' before 'The Island' and that's basically why it got this late this evening... Or do I have to say early this morning? I had almost forgotten to take my pill (anti-conception... or are ladies not allowed to talk about thos things?), but that is not what I wanted to talk about. Today we visited the 'Chapel Mountain'. It's just a hill actually, bu it had something special. Probably because my dad and I suddenly found ourselves taking pictures of one's home while standing in their back yard. Well, why did they have to live in a windmill anyways? =) Next to it there WAS the chapel. It actually looked like an open air church and behind it, between the bushes, there was a rosarium. Pater Noster... On the road in the woods you could follow the Way of the Cross, but all we followed were the frogs. We managed to take a picture of one of them this time! (Sooo cute! =3) --- Oxedeli |
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| 17 th of August 2006, 23:36 (The Netherlands) DAY 7 Tomorrow I'll have to say goodbye. It will be the day in which we will leave the Green Hills for Wervik. Yip, today was the very last day of this little week and I'm glad I' came (although I had to miss my friends). Now my vacation is over, new problems will get to me and nobody knows how I will react or solve them... but there is one thing I know for sure: I'm gonna finish Lucifer's Call when I get home ; ). --- Oxedeli |
| 21 st of August 2006, 20:54 (Belgium) The day I got home everything was just fucked up. Just everything. I thought I was going to have a great day after we went to an Italian in Lokeren, but noooooo... Like I said: new problems, but how to solve them? Saturday was a day full of laughter. We FINALLY celebrated Briek's birthday!!!! He's soooo cute, my little cousin!!! Sunday I went over to Keith. Bit of paper work, bit of Douwe Egberts. (Insiders) Today, well... I simply miss tv... --- Oxedeli |
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| ID Oxedeli: Real Name: Elodie Adam Country: Belgium Roxas is...: Cool cuz' he's Axel's best bud Why a doublesite? Many things in life are linked... like friends! Boyfriend? Yes, Kenneth (a.k.a. Keith) since 22nd May 2006 How crazy am I? I'm Spitch, the Spoiling Bitch! |
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| 10 th of August 2006, 23:38 (Belgium) Love is a weird thing. I don't even know if we can truely understand the full meaning of this word. Love is everything. Friendship, family, respect maybe, maybe just freakin' helping too, just feelin' a damn bond, falling or being in love... Some say love is a game and we all have to play it. Love is a feeling of being close. Love is more than just being there or dada-sjamalamadingdong. It's pretty nutty. Keith and I were having this HUGE row, we both believed the other would just say 'Toodles!', but neither of us did! AND LOOK AT US NOW!!!!!!! So don't you dare dumping your boy/girlfriend because of one fight!!!! Don't even kill your best friend if she calls you a bitch once in a while. That's all fucking normal!!! Just forgive eachother and smile =). And I personaly will hang all of the sluts and bastards who only think about horns and bells. There is more to a human being than just flesh and bones. There is also... A heart. Don't lose yours. (I'll be in Holland for like a week!!!! So please don't shoot me if you see there are no updates!!) --- Oxedeli |
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| 7 th of August 2006, 21:20 (Belgium) *draws a line* See? *points at line* This is the line. *points at the leftside* That's my past. *points at the right* That's my future. *points back at line* And this is the line. Today I'll cross it... --- Oxedeli |
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| 6 th of August 2006, 19:08 (Belgium) Is there a possibility that people only help eachother so they would feel better theirselves? Me and a friend of mine were thinkin' about it and we believe this might be it. You ain't gonna help some one if you don't want to. It's a choice you make. Don't you ever have this feeling that, when you see a person in trouble, you would wanna help but not really? And then, when you DO help this person, you feel great... What IS helping anyway? Is it something we should ALWAYS do or just sometimes? Are we happier when we do it all the time then if we only think about our own little self? Or is helping actually an act of egoism? (Considering it will make YOU happy.) What IS egoism? Is it thinking about yourself or about your own happiness? And if helping others is a selfish act, shouldn't selfishness be seen as a virtue rather than a sin? Arg, these are things nobody ever dares to think of... --- Oxedeli |
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| 4 th of August 2006, 21:12 (Belgium) I feel much better than the first day of this lill' month. It seems that cleaning out your messy room CAN bring a smile upon your blue face (that and ya boyfriend... ^ ^) Anyway, today I wanna talk about the dearest and nicest people of all... Those damn charityworkers ^_^". You know? They are supposed to LOVE and CARE about other people, WANTING to HELP everybody... Then why do they always pick on me when I say: "Okay, I'm in"? <_<' I'm 18 and I've never been a babysitter, so I thought -Why not?- My best friend told me I had to go to some holy terror of the Bond. That woman almost bit my nose off. Man! "Don't do this, don't do that!" C'mon! I am at the voting age!!! I know boyfriends aren't allowed in other people's houses and that he kids are prior to everything. There was no need to rub it in!!! Guess all these socalles goodie-people hate their own life. Get a grip or go to church <_<. *wanna clean my rrrroom : D*, --- Oxedeli |
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| 1st of August 2006, 18:56 (Belgium) ONE COLOUR!!!!! Yellow... I'M SOOOOO SEEING yellow. No, really, My black eye... has turned yellow... Anyway, cousin is like 2 today. (All dance!!) Yup, a little Leo. Hmmm... Nope, don't have anything else to tell about today, so... Well, I have this empty feeling since the moment I got out of my bed... *sigh* That's the only BAD thing I come up with today. I wrote a poem about it: Empty Today I felt unworthy Today I felt just lame As if every hour Was just one and the same Today there was no need to smile Or chuckle or dance or laugh 'cuz every little thought of pain Got to me with the draft Is there a spell that shuts me up Or downs this state of mind I just wanna feel whole again And smile and dance, be kind Today I felt unworthy Today I felt ust lame As if every hour Was just one ...and ... ... the same. Let us all SING and DANCE (roflol), --- Oxedeli |
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