I think everything�s ready.
I flopped into a cushioned chair in the �VIP area�, watching the teenaged and young twenty-something crowd stream in. A group of girls waved at me, probably recognizing me from other shows even though I wouldn�t be able to pull them out of a lineup if I�d tried. Ryan�s got groupies.
�What�s up sexy?�
And here is my favorite part of the show� Ryan�s younger brother.
�Hey Marc. What�s up?�
He sat next to me, leaning over to whisper to me even though no one was around to hear him.
�You and I should go out after this. I�m eighteen now� We could� ya know� have��
A large hand landed on his shoulder, pushing him into the floor.
�Stop using sexual innuendos on my little sister.�
I laughed, jumping up to give Xander a hug before noticing his hair.
�Aah! It�s blue! How cool!�
He grinned.
�It�s for the concert tonight. Think I�ll be able to get A.J.�s attention after we sneak backstage?�
Backstage? Un uh. That wasn�t in the deal. I pulled away, going over to help Marc from the floor.
��I see where your loyalties lie. You love the gay guy more than me. I�m hurt Kara.�
I rolled my eyes at the younger boy. Choosing to ignore him, I turned back to Xander.
�Why would we be backstage?�
��Cause you�re gonna get it on with your luuuuuuver boy.�
Both guys started laughing as my face flamed red.
�I�m not sneaking backstage. You can if you want, but I have to tell you A.J., despite the once bright hair colors, is straight and about to get married.�
Xander shrugged as I sat back in my chair, curling my legs underneath me.
Leave me alone.
�That�s just his cover-up so he doesn�t become the token �gay Backstreet Boy�. That�s Howie title. He�s cute, but��
I rolled my eyes again as he continued on a diatribe I�d heard many times on why A.J. was better than Howie, while they were both obviously gay. I zoned out until I heard him say Nick�s name.
�Now Nick, if it wasn�t for his rendezvous with you, I�d believe he was gay as well. He�s too pretty to be straight, and his lisp� all he�s��
�Shut up.�
��is the token gay hand��
�Shut up.�
��gestures and��
�Shut up.�
��he can�t dan��
�SHUT UP!�
I love Xander, really I do, but� he manages to really irritate me at times. Standing up, I exited the blocked off area fuming. I heard Xander call after me before Marc shut him up. Saying hi to a couple of people, I made my way backstage before the tears pricking my eyes began to fall.
I�m so retarded.
Finding a secluded corner, I slid down the wall, burying my head in my knees.
Someone else had done this� but he didn�t cry And I still didn�t know what his reasoning had been. He�d seemed so happy, excited most of the time� I miss him.
I know, I know. It was half a day, but� he wanted me to go on tour with him! But I couldn�t� too young. Hiding too much. He didn�t even try to tell me who he was. They kept hiding things, �correcting� themselves.
Who am I kidding? He�s a Backstreet Boy. He probably doesn�t even remember me. Why should he?
Someone, probably Marc, started talking over the sound system, announcing Ryan�s entrance to this �special� daytime show. Then Ryan went straight into �Blindside�. I should be out there even if I do just want to curl up and die.
*
�Hey, this kid is pretty good!�
Yeah, and his female fans don�t create ear piercing screams.
�Yeah, he�s Kara�s friend.�
The music was good, but I really didn�t care. My eyes darted back and forth, all over the room in search of my girl. For Brian�s sake! She�s got RED hair. How can I not find her?
Unless she�s not here?
No. She�s here. I wouldn�t be so damn nervous if she wasn�t close.
�Hey, guys. Thanks for coming out. I know a lot of you probably had to skip school for this, and thank you for making that sacrifice. This song is for my girl Kara. It�s her favorite and it�s called �All My Life�.�
My head shot up to the blonde spiky haired boy in the Abercrombie clothes playing an acoustic guitar. That�s the song she�d asked him to play that night!
How the hell do I remember every word of every conversation I had with her? I don�t even remember which city I was in yesterday.
Or maybe it was because I could remember every single moment of our kiss� both of them. How surprised I was. How soft her lips were�
How innocent she looked when her eyes fluttered opened and looked into mine.
I want to corrupt her.
�
Where IS she??!
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