so impressed with all you do
tried so hard to be like you
flew too high and burnt the wing
lost my faith in everything
lick around divine debris
taste the wealth of hate in me
shedding skin succumb defeat
this machine is obsolete
made the choice to go away
drink the fountain of decay
fear a hole ezquisite red
fuck the rest and stab it dead
broken bruised forgotten sore
too fucked up to care anymore
poisoned to my rotten core
too fucked up to care anymore
in the back off the side far away is a place where i hide where i
stay tried to say tried to ask i needed to all alone by myself where
were you?
how could i ever think it's funny how everything that
swore it wouldn't change is different now just like you
would always say we'll make it through then my head fell apart
and where were you?
how could i ever think it's funny how everything you swore would
never change is different now like you said and me make it
through didn't quite fell apart
where the fuck were you?
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The Day The World Went Away
i'd listen to the words he'd say
but in his voice i heard decay
the plastic face forced to portray
all the insides left cold and gray
there is a place that still remains
it eats the fear it eats the pain
the sweetest price he'll have to pay
the day the whole world went away
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The Frail
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The Wretched
just a reflection
just a glimpse
just a little reminder
of all the way abouts
and all the might have
could have beens
another day
some other way
but not another reason to continue
and now you're one of us
the wretched
the hopes and prays
the better days
the far aways
forget it
it didn't turn out the way you wanted it to
it didn't turn out the way you wanted it did it?
it didn't turn out the way you wanted it to
it didn't turn out the way you wanted it did it?
now you know
this is what it feels like
now you know
this is what it feels like
the clouds will part and the sky cracks open
and god himself will reach his fucking arm
through
just to push you down
just to hold you down
stuck in this hole with the shit and the piss
and it's hard to believe it could come down to this
back at the beginning
sinking
spinning
and in the end
we still pretend
the time we spend
not knowing when
you're finally free
and you could be
but it didn't turn out the way you wanted it to
it didn't turn out quite the way that you wanted it
now you know
this is what it feels like
now you know
this is what if feels like
you can try to stop it but it keeps on coming
you can try to stop it but
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we're in this together
i've become impossible
holding on to when
when everything seemed to matter more
the two of us
all used and beaten up
watching fate as it flows down the path we have chose
you and me
we're in this together now
none of them can stop us now
we will make it through somehow
you and me
if the world should break in two
until the very end of me
until the very end of you
awake to the sound
as they peel apart the skin
they pick and they pull
trying to get their fingers in
well they've got to kill what we've found
well they've got to hate what they fear
well they've got to make it go away
well they've got to make it disappear
the farther i fall i'm beside you
as lost as i get i will find you
the deeper the wound i'm inside you
forever and ever i am a part of
you and me
we're in this together now
none of them can stop us now
we will make it through somehow
you and me
if the world should break in two
until the very end of me
until the very end of you
all that we were is gone we have to hold on
all that we were is gone we have to hold on
when all our hope is gone we have to hold on
all that we were is gone but we can hold on
you and me
we're in this together now
none of them can stop us now
we will make it through somehow
you and me
even after everything
you're the queen and i'm the king
nothing else means anything
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the fragile
she shines
in a world full of ugliness
she matters
when everthing is meaningless
fragile
she doesn't see her beauty
she tries to get away
sometimes
it's just that nothing seems worth saying
i can't watch her slip away
i won't let you fall apart
she reads the minds of all the people that pass her by
hoping someone can see
if i could fix myself i'd -
but it's too late for me
i won't let you fall apart
we'll find the perfect place to go where we can run and hide
i'll build a wall and we can keep them on the other side
...but they keep waiting
...and picking
it's something i have to do
i was there too
before everything else
i was like you
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just like you imagined
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even deeper
i woke up today
to find myself in the other place
with a trail of my footprints
from where i ran away
it seems everything i've heard
just might be true
and you know me
(well you think you do)
sometimes, i have everthing-
yet i wish i felt something
do you know how far this has gone?
just how damaged have i become?
when i think i can overcome
it runs even deeper
and in a dream i'm a different me
with a perfect you
we fit perfectly
and for once in my life i feel complete-
and i still want to ruin it
afraid to look
as clear as day
this plan has long been underway
i hear them call
i cannot stay
the voice inviting me away
do you know how far this has gone?
just how damaged have i become?
when i think i can overcome
it runs even deeper
everything that matters is gone
all the hands of hope have withdrawn
could you try to help me hang on?
it runs...
i'm straight
i won't crack
on my way
and i can't turn back
i'm okay
i'm on track
on my way
and i can't turn back
i stayed
on this track
gone too far
and i can't come back
i stayed
on this track
lost my way
can't come back
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pilgrimage
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no, you don't
smiling in their faces
while filing up the hole
so many dirty little places
in your filthy little worn out
broken down see through soul
bab's got a problem
tries so hard to hide
got to keep it on the surface
because everything else is dead on the other side
teeth in the necks of everyone you know
you can keep on sucking until the blood won't flow
when it starts to hurt it only helps it grow
taking all you need
(but not this time)
no, you don't
and just for the record
just so you know
i did not believe
that you could sink so low
you think that you can beat them
i know that you won't
you think you have everything
but no, you don't
no, you don't
no, you don't
no, you don't
no, you don't
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La Mer
and when the day arrives
i'll become the sky
and i'll become the sea
and the sea will come to kiss me
for i am going
home
nothing can stop me now
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the great below
staring at the sea
will she come?
is there hope for me
after all is said and done
anything at any price
all of this for you
all the spoils of a wasted life
all of this for you
all the world has closed her eyes
tired faith all worn and thin
for all we could have done
and all that could have been
ocean pulls me close
and whispers in my ear
the destiny i've chose
all becoming clear
the currents have their say
the time is drawing near
washes me away
makes me disappear
i descend from grace
in arms of undertow
i will take my place
in the great below
i can still feel you
even so far away
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DISC 2
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the way out is through
all i've undergone
i will keep on
underneath it all
we feel so small
the heavens fall
but still we crawl
all i've undergone
i will keep on
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into the void
tried to save myself but myself keeps slipping away
talking to myself all the way to the station
pictures in my head of the final destination
all lined up
(all the ones that aren't allowed to stay)
tried to save myself but myself keeps slipping away
tried to save a place from the cuts and the scratches
tried to overcome the complications and the catches
nothing ever grows and the sun doesn't shine all day
tried to save myself but myself keeps slipping away
tried to save myself but myself keeps slipping away
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where is everybody
did you happen to catch
or did it happen so fast
what you thought would always last
has passed you by
is everything speeding up
or am i slowing down
just spinning around
and i don't know why
all the pieces don't fit
thought i really didn't give a shit
i never wanted to be like you
but for all i aspire
i am really a liar
and i'm running out of things i can do
i'd like to stay
but every day
everything pushes me further away
if you could show
help me to know
how it's supposed to be
where did it go?
pleading and
needing and
bleeding and
breeding and
feeding
exceeding
where is everybody
trying and
lying
defying
denying
crying and
dying
where is everybody
well okay, enough
you've had your fun
but come on there has got to be someone
that hasn't yet become
so numb
and succumb
and
god damn i am so tired of pretending
of wishing i was ending
when all i'm really doing is trying to hide
and keep it inside
and fill it with lies
open my eyes?
maybe i wish i could try
pleading and
needing and
bleeding and
breeding and
feeding
exceeding
where is everybody
trying and
lying
defying
denying
crying and
dying
where is everybody
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the mark has been made
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please
this is how
it begins
push it away but it all comes back again
all the flesh
all the sin
there was a time when it used to mean just about everything
just like now
breathe, echoing the sound
time starts slowing down
sink until i drown
(please) i don't ever want to make it stop
and it keeps repeating
will you please complete me?
never be enough
to fill me up
watch the white
turn to red
it fills up the hole but it grows somewhere else instead
all my life
yeah yeah yeah yeah, but it just left me dead
(well guess what?)
the world is over and i realize it was all in my head
now everything is clear
i erase the fear
i can disappear
(please) i don't ever want to make it stop
you can never leave me
will you please complete me
never be enough
to fill me up
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starfuckers, inc.
my god sits in the back of the limousine
my god comes in a wrapper of cellophane
my god pouts on the cover of one magazine
my god's a shallow little bitch trying to make the scene
i have arrived and this time you should believe the hype
i listened to everyone now i know that everyone was right
i'll be there for you as long as it works for me
i play a game it's called insincerity
starfuckers
starfuckers
starfuckers incorporated
i am every fucking thing and just a little more
i sold my soul but don't you dare call me a whore
and, when i suck you off not a drop not a drop will go to waste
it's really not so bad you know once you get past the taste
(ass kisser)
starfuckers
starfuckers
starfuckers incorporated
all the pain
how did you think we'd get by without you?
you're so vain
i'll bet you think this song is about you
don't you?
now i belong i'm one of the chosen ones
now i belong i'm one of the beautiful ones
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complication
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i'm looking forward to joining you finally
as black as the night can get
everything is safer now
there's always a way to forget
once you learn to find a way how
in the blur of serenity
where did everything get lost?
the flowers of naivete
buried in a layer of frost
the smell of sunshine
i remember sometimes
thought he had it all before they call his bluff
found out that his skin just wasn't thick enough
wanted to go back to how it was before
thought he lost everything
then he lost a whole lot more
a fool's devotion
swallowed up in empty space
the tears of regret
frozen to the side of his face
the smell of sunshine
i remember sometimes
i've done all i can do
could i please come with you?
sweet smell of sunshine
i remember sometimes
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the big comedown
there is a game i play
try to make myself okay
try so hard to make the pieces all fit
smash it apart
just for the fuck of it
bye bye ooh
got to get back to the bottom
bye bye ooh
the big come down isn't that what you wanted
bye bye ooh
find a place with the failed and forgotten
bye bye ooh
isn't that really what you wanted now?
there is no place i can go there is no way i can hide
it feels like it keeps coming from the inside
there is a hate that burns within
the most desperate place i have ever been
try to get back to where i'm from
the closer i get the worse it becomes
the closer i get the worse it becomes
there is no place i can go there is no place i can hide
is feels like i keeps coming from the inside
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underneath it all
all i do
i can still feel you
numb all through
i can still feel you
hear your call
underneath it all
kill my brain
yet you still remain
crucified
after all i've died
after all i've tried
you are still inside
all i do
i can still feel you
you remain
i am stained
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ripe (with decay)
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Only On Vinyl
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10 miles high
I'm going to get so high
you'll never get inside
I swore I'd never turn into you
I'm closer all the time
I made it 10 miles high
can't tell my truth from my lies
I swore to god I would never turn into you
I'm getting closer... all the time
tear it all down tear it all down tear it all down tear it all down
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the new flesh
1
I can take it
sideways
sometimes
some things
feel like
I'm on the other side
waves
of every feeling ever felt
...screaming
2
hold it close
(so) I can taste it
3
I've watched this scene a thousand times
and in my head
this is how it all begins
yes, i am becoming
and this is how it all begins
what did you expect?
this is not an exit
this has begun
4
i can almost see
the blackest eyes
the new flesh
a new disguise
...welcoming...
please
5
give it to me
i can take it
give it to me
i can take it