I am the voice inside your head
and I control you
I am the lover in your bed
and I control you
I am the sex that you provide
and i control you
i am the hate you try to hide
and i control you
i take you where you want to go
i give you all you need to know
i drag you down i use you up
mr. self destruct
i speak religion's message clear
and i control you
i am denial, guilt, and fear
and i control you
i am the prayers of the naive
and i control you
i am the lie that you believe
and i control you
i take you where you want to go
i give you all you need to know
i drag you down i use you up
mr. self destruct
i am the needle in your vein
and i control you
i am the high you can't sustain
and i control you
i am the pusher i'm a whore
and i control you
i am the need you in you for more
and i control you
i am the bullet in the gun
and i control you
i am the truth from which you run
and i control you
i am the silencing machine
and i control you
i am the end of all your dreams
and i control you
i take you where you want to go
i give you all you need to know
i drag you down i use you up
mr. self destruct
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Piggy
hey pig
yeah you
hey pig piggy pig pig pig
all of my fears came true
black and blue and broken bones you've left me here i'm all alone
my little piggy needed something new
nothing can stop me now
cause i don't care anymore
nothing can stop me now
cause i just don't care
hey pig
nothing's turning out the way i planned
hey pig there's a lot of things i hoped you could help me understand
what am i supposed to do i lost my shit because of you
nothing can stop me now
cause i don't care anymore
nothing can stop me now
cause i just don't care
nothing can stop me now
you don't need me anymore
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heresy
he sewed his eyes shut because he is afraid to see
he tries to tell me what i put inside of me
he's got the answers to ease my curiosity
he dreamed a god up and called it christianity
god is dead
and no one cares
if there is a hell
i will see you there
he flexed his muscles to keep his flock of sheep in line
he made a virus that would kill off all the swine
his perfect kingdom of killing suffering and pain
demands devotion atrocities done in his name
god is dead
and no one cares
drowning in his own hypocrisy
if there is a hell
i will see you there
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march of the pigs
step right up, march, push
crawl right up on your knees
please, greed, feed (no time to hesitate)
i want a little bit
i want a piece of it
i think he's losing it
i wanna watch it come down
don't like the look of it
don't like the taste of it
don't like the smell of it
i wanna watch it come down
all the pigs are all lined up
i give you all that you want
take the skin and peel it back
now doesn't it make you feel better
shove it up inside, surprise, lies
stains like the blood on your teeth
bite, chew, suck (away the tender parts)
i want to break it up
i want to smash it up
i want to fuck it up
i wanna watch it come down
maybe afraid of it
let's discredit it
let's pick away at it
i wanna watch it come down
all the pigs are all lined up
i give you all that you want
take the skin and peel it back
now doesn't it make you feel better
the pigs have won tonight
now they can all sleep soundly
and everything is alright
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closer
you let me violate you
you let me desecrate you
you let me penetrate you
you let me complicate you
help me i broke apart my insides
help me i've got no soul to sell
help me the only thing that works for me
help me get away from myself
i wanna fuck you like an animal
i wanna feel you from the inside
i wanna fuck you like and animal
my whole existence is flawed
you get me closer to god
you can have my isolation
you can have the hate that it brings
you can have my absence of faith
you can have my everything
help me, tear down my reason
help me, it's your sex i can smell
help me, you make me perfect
help me, become somebody else
i wanna fuck you like an animal
i wanna feel you from the inside
i wanna fuck you like and animal
my whole existence is flawed
you won't get me closer to god
through every forest, above the trees
within my stomach, scraped off my knees
i drink the honey inside your hive
you are the reason i stay alive
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ruiner
you had all of them on your side, didn't you, didn't you
you believed in all your lies, didn't you, didn't you
the ruiner's got a lot to prove
he's got nothing to lose
and now he's made you believe
the ruiner's your only friend
well he's the living end to the cattle he deceives
the raping of the innocent
you know the ruiner ruins everything he sees
now the only pure thing left in my fucking world i wearing your disease
how'd you get so big
how'd you get so strong
how'd you get so hard
how'd it get so long
you had to give them all a sign, didn't you, didn't you
you had to covet what was mine, didn't you, didn't you
the ruiner's a collector
he's an infector serving his shit to his flies
maybe there will come a day when those that you keep blind will suddenly realize
maybe it's a part of me you took to a place i hoped it would never go
and maybe that fucked me up much more than you'll ever know
how'd you get so big
how'd you get so strong
how'd you get so hard
how'd it get so long
what you gave to me
my perfect ring of scars
you know i can see what you really are
you didn't hurt me, nothing can hurt me
you didn't hurt me, nothing can stop me now
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the becoming
i beat my machine
it's a part of me it's inside of me
i'm stuck in this dream
it's changing me
i am becoming
the me that you know he had some second thoughts
he's covered with scabs he is broken and sore
the me that you know he doesn't come around much
that part of me isn't here anymore
all pain disappears
it's the nature of, of my circuitry
drowns out all i hear
no escape from this my new consciousness
the me that you know he used to have feelings
but the blood has stopped pumping and he is left to decay
the me that you know is now made up of wires
and even when i'm right with you i'm so far away
i can try to get away, but i've strapped myself in
i can try to scratch away the sound in my ears
i can see it killing away all of my bad parts
i don't want to listen, but it's all too clear
i lean backwards and sideaways i feel so unafraid
annie, hold me a little tighter, i might just slip away
it won't give up it wants me dead
goddamn this noise inside my head
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I do not want this
i'm losing ground
you know how this world can beat you down
i'm made of clay
i fear i'm the only one who thinks this way
i'm always falling down the same hill
bamboo puncturing the skin
and nothing comes bleeding out of me just like the waterfall i'm drowning in
two feet below the surface i can still make out your wavy face
and if i could just reach you maybe i could leave this place
i do not want this
i do not want this
i do not want this
i do not want this
don't you tell me how i feel
don't you tell me how i feel
don't you tell me how i feel
you don't know just how i feel
i stay inside my bed
i have live so many lives all in my head
don't tell me that you care
there really isn't anything now is there
you would know wouldn't you
you extend your hand to those who suffer
to those who know what it really feels like
to those who've had a chance
like that means something
and oh so sick i am
and maybe i don't have a choice
and maybe that is all i have
and maybe this is a cry for help
i do not want this
i do not want this
i do not want this
i do not want this
don't you tell me how i feel
don't you tell me how i feel
don't you tell me how i feel
you don't know just how i feel
i want to know everything
i want to be everywhere
i want to fuck everyone in the world
i want to do something that matters
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big man with gun
i am a big man yes i am
and i've got a big gun
got me a big old dick and i
i like to have fun
held against your forehead
well i'll make you suck it
maybe i'll put a hole in your head
you know just for the fuck of it
well i can reduce you if i want
i can devour
i'm hard as fucking steel
i've got the power
i'm every inch of man
and i'll show you somehow
me and my fucking gun
nothing can stop me now
shoot shoot shoot shoot
i'm going to come all over you
me and my fucking gun
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eraser
need you
dream you
find you
taste you
fuck you
use you
scar you
break you
lose me
hate me
smash me
erase me
kill me
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reptile
she spreads herself wide open to let the insects in
she leaves a trail of honey to show me where she's been
she has the blood of reptile just underneath her skin
seeds from a thousand others drip down from within
oh my beautiful liar
oh my precious whore
my disease my infection
i am so impure
devils speak of the way in which she'll manifest
angels bleed from the tainted touch of my caress
need to contaminate to alleviate this lonliness
i now know the depths i reach are limitless
oh my beautiful liar
oh my precious whore
my disease my infection
i am so impure
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the downward spiral
he couldn't believe how easy it was
he put the gun into his face
bang
so much blood for such a tiny little hole
problems do have solutions you know
a lifetime of fucking things up fixed in one determined flash
everything's blue in this world
the deepest shade of mushroom blue
all fuzzy
spilling out of my head
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hurt
i hurt myself today
to see if i still feel
i focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but i remember everything
what have i become
my sweetest friend
everyone i know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
i will let you down
i will make you hurt
I wear this crown of shit
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feeling disappears
you are someone else
I am still right here
what have I become
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way