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| The next day.... Blah...I'm still tired as hell. I don't know what's wrong with me.... OK Back to the story... John and I had an "odd" relationship. It reminds me of When Harry Met Sally in a way. Well, we were friends forever. He told me that nothing would ever come between us. As a matter of fact...at his college graduation, I left my boyfriend, traveled to SC to spend a week with him. He told his girlfriend to stay away because I was going to be in town!! Then he got engaged. Everything changed. His "woman" wouldn't ALLOW him to associate with me any longer >:( So, I tore up all his pics and letters (and likewise my hubby did the same with old gfriends) and deleted his phone numbers from my cell and email address from my address book. Then I mourned. I mourned the ending of that friendship like my best friend had died...and in a way, he did. He was my best friend (along with Jen of course), and he was no more. I cried and pouted and moped. It took me a year to come to the realization that I had truly lost him. Now, two years later I see him at the funeral. I see him looking at me out of the corner of my eye. I see him wanting to speak to me, and I walk away. I see the daggers in the eyes of his wife. The green dragon had raised it's head... My husband actually fussed at me for avoiding him. He told me it was time to reconcile. I was not interested. This was a person who was supposed to be my friend! And he just threw me away! Like I was NOTHING! Finally he cornered me. I didn't have anywhere to go, I had to acknowledge him and his wife. He introduced me, we smiled our fake smiles and shook hands. Neither one truly happy to meet the other. I quickly wondered away. A few hours later we were all out to eat and before I left he gave me a hug and whispered in my ear that he was so so sorry for what he did, that it was wrong. He said he'd call me to explain. I breathed a sigh of relief. My eyes teared and I whispered "Thank you..." Now I'm waiting, waiting for that phone call. It will never be like it was though. It has changed. I'm not sure I can be his friend again, not sure I want to. I can be civil however...for the sake of our other friends. They were all watching too at the funeral. Everyone said they thought John and I'd get married some day, so I wonder what they were thinking at the funeral...me with my hubby, he with his wife...My hubby enjoyed us wives looking "around" each other all day. I find his taste in amusment POOR. It matters not however. I am happy with my husband (most of the time anyway!). I do want to be able to get along though..we have so many friends in common. I wonder what will happen at the get together for Monk,whenever we have it that is....I hope Stu can come down to that. I'd really like to see him again. Stu. Stu hated me for awhile. We went through a phase where he was nice to me when everyone was around, but then treated me like shit when we were alone together. Then it REVERSED! It was fun trying to figure it all out. John said it was because they both liked me and came to the agrement that whoever asked me out first "got" me. John asked, in FRONT of Stu while I was doing tarot card readings for them. I really wanted to go out with Stu, but he never asked :( I've never asked Stu about whether or not what John said was true. His version was just simply that I "annoyed" him most of the time. But it was only because I thought he was cute and I didn't know how to act around him!!! And I still think he's cute.... I just hope everyone can be friends agian. Over and out~ )0( |
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