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| I think about Matt every day.For me life has changed completely.Matt was such a big part of my life and it is very hard to do the everyday things that has to be done.They just don't seem all that important anymore.Little things that he did just pops into my head and I am right back to the day he died. Sometimes I can hear his voice or smell cigarette smoke.Thank God I still have Evan, If I didn't I don"t think I could go on.Matt and Evan were one word for me.It was hardly ever Matt or Evan, they were one and now half of the one is gone. Don't ever let anyone tell you that you hurt the same no matter which loved one you lose because that is just not true.I know from experience,as I have lost a lot of loved ones. Gran |
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| When you think about all the years that has gone by and all the things that will never be that could have been,and you start to wonder why things went the way they did.I just can't figure out why events happened the way they did.I keep thinking if the first accident had not have happened Matt would still be here. (We had him two whole years longer).He would have finished collage in the top of his class and gone on to bigger and better things. He would not have had the motorcycle that took his life. Then I think how life really sucks. Why do people lose the things that mean the most to them? You are here one second and gone the next.What makes people believe bad things only happen to other people, not them? |
| If you are thinking of making any comments about Matt to Evan that is not good"DON'T". Evan will not take it well and his actions speak louder than words. He doesn't talk much but you don't want to get him mad. Trust me. |
| Matt's birthday is September 12th and I always make his cake. Now I make a flower cake and use his favorite color red is the main color. |