I knew Nick was going to be in New York with the rest of the Boys and I made the decision to go. I made my reservation at their hotel and sat in my room listening to Larry's phone ring,
"Hello?" I sigh,
"Hey, it's Quinn." I hadn't talked to him in a month,
"Hi girl." I pray Nick hasn't told him anything,
"Hey, I'm in your hotel. What room is Nick in? I want to surprise him." He laughs,
"He's in 1411, I just took him there so go ahead. And don't forget to come see me, I haven't seen you since Mexico a year ago." I agree to drop by and see him before I leave.
Knocking on Nick's door I want to run and hide, I don't know how he's going to react to me. He was so mad, and with good reason, when he left my apartment. He opens the door and shakes his head when he sees me. He's on his cell phone and I whisper,
"Nick, please." He shakes his head, rolls his eyes and walks back into the room, I follow him in and stand in the middle of the room. Five or six minutes later, after talking about everything from movies to video games he hangs up and looks at me,
"What do you want?" This is like something out of a soap opera and I never thought I'd find myself in this type of situation,
"I don't know what to say." He rolls his eyes,
"You know, when I first saw you I wanted to sleep with you. But I knew how I was...I knew I wouldn't do you right and there was just something about you, I didn't want to hurt you. Too bad you didn't think about MY fucking feelings." I shake my head,
"I don't know what to say." He snorted,
"You said that." I place my hands on my hips,
"What about you? That girl you were with in LA."
"What does that have to do with anything? You had a boyfriend and didn't tell me. I don't have a girlfriend." I don't have a boyfriend anymore,
"All the things you said to me, how you wanted to be with me, you cared about me and then first time we're apart you go and sleep with some chick. Actions speak louder than words." Here he was saying all these things to me, telling me his so called feelings and my neck is in the noose,
"You had a BOYFRIEND!" I shake my head,
"You didn't know that when you said all that stuff then went off and slept with her the next day."
"I thought you was different. I know girls have cheated on their boyfriends to be with me and it's like whatever, not my relationship so if you wanna fuck it up go ahead. I probably wouldn't see them again anyway so I didn't care, but I liked you." I've never felt so awful,
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean for it...any of it to happen. I liked you for so long and what happened in Mexico...then I didn't hear from you...I thought you didn't... and then I met John. To find out you liked me too, it was like a dream, I just didn't want it to end." He begins to yell,
"What the FUCK does that have to do with you not telling me when you were at my house or when I came to see you?" He sighs and throws things around looking for God knows what,
"I have to go, I have an interview." I pull his arm as he walks by me,
"Nick, please." He pulls away from me and sighs when I step in front of his escape route,
"Look, move." I lean against the door,
"No, you need to stay and talk about this with me." There was a knock on the door and when I don't make an attempt to move he pushes me aside,
"Hey, man you gotta go." He nods his head at me,
"Soon as she leaves." Larry comes around the corner and the tears fall down my face,
"Are you ok?" I shrug and the tears fall faster,
"Man, gimme a minute." He nods and closes the door as Nick turns and faces me,
"Look, you gotta go. I need to leave." I look down at the floor,
"Please give me a chance, I really like you. It's more than like, I'm not going to say it's love." I look up and catch his eyes,
"YET...but I'm falling for you." He shakes his head,
"You cheated on him, you'll cheat on me. I wouldn't trust you." I shake my head fast,
"No, no I won't. You are the ONLY person I really want to be with. There is no one else I want." I hold my breath as he begins to talk,
"I have gone through a lot of fucked up relationships and shit with girls and it's funny, being around you made me decide I don't want to go through that drama. We didn't have any...until now...and it was so damn cool, not having to worry about stupid bullshit and annoying girls. Even if I don't marry someone or be in a relationship with them I want it to be chill like you and me was, you know." I shake my head slowly,
"I guess you're growing up." He nods his head,
"Guess so." He opens the door,
"I gotta go." I nod and smile weakly at Larry who is standing in the hallway, he gives a 'call me' sign with his hand up to his ear as I walk by and he pats me on the back. I never meant to make Nick so angry, I never meant for any of it to happen.
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