I was sitting at the computer when the phone rang,
"Hello?"
"Are you avoiding me?" I shake my head and my heart races at the idea of a heart to heart talk,
"No Elliott, how are you?" He called me Friday night and apologized and left a message on my home phone on Sunday but I have been avoiding him a little,
"I'm ok, I called you a couple of times. I'm sorry for being a jerk that night, I was just afraid you'd fall for him all over again." I sigh,
"There's no need to apologize, not only did I sleep with him, I went to Marathon with him that night. I just got back last night. So, you were right." He sighs,
"I didn't want to be right. So, what about John?" I shake my head and roll my eyes at myself,
"He doesn't know. I lied to him. I lied to Nick, he doesn't know about John. He tried to call me when he got back from Japan and couldn't get through because I had changed my number. He likes me and wanted to be with me."
"So what are you going to do?" I bite my lip as I think about it, what AM I going to do? I haven't thought about it. I can't keep sneaking around,
"I don't know." I click on a link of pictures and a Nick encounter story from LA. As Elliott talks I barely pay attention as I begin to read the story. Nick took one of the girls from the lobby up to his room and they were there for hours. The fans waited around and he finally came downstairs with Mike and the girl. He told the fans he was going to get something to eat and when they came back the girl was still with them and went back upstairs with him and Mike. She was with him the next day too. It was like a punch in the stomach and I couldn't stay on the phone anymore,
"Uh Elliott I have to go. I'll talk to you later." Hanging up I click and look at the pictures, there are a few with her in the shot and she was the usual, he always goes back to what he really loves; blonde and thin as a rail. I don't know what I was expecting from him, we didn't make any promises to each other and I have a boyfriend.
Nick and Mike are coming over tonight from the airport and I lay on the couch in a pair of short shorts and a baby tee, his bag sitting next to me waiting to be returned to it's owner. The phone rings and it's Nick, I buzz them through the gate and try to settle my stomach. The knock on the door makes me jump and I walk over and open it,
"Hey." I can tell my outfit catches his attention and I feel acceptance as he hugs me and runs his hands down my hips,
"Hey Mike." He nods and smiles and I lead them in,
"Want something to eat or drink?" They both shake their heads no,
"We had something on the way." I nod, thats what took them so long after I gave them the directions,
"Here's your bag." Nick smiles,
"Oh thanks, let me talk to you for a minute." I nod and stand there and he rolls his eyes and laughs,
"Alone, where's your room?" Jeez, I'm stupid,
"Oh, ok." I lead the way and he closes the door and turns the alarm clock radio on,
"What's up?" He walks over and I moan at the feel of his tongue as he kisses me deep and fast. I can tell he's ready to go as he presses up against me,
"I been thinking about you since I left for LA." LA puts a sour taste in my mouth as I think back to his LA girl but who am I to get pissed about that, I have a boyfriend.
"Oh Nick." His hair is tangled in my fingers as I ride him. His hands run up my stomach and grab my breasts,
"You're so hot." My head falls back and suddenly I hear the door slam open. I turn and my eyes stretch and my heart stops,
"What the fuck?" I cover myself with the sheet and look over at Nick,
"Man, what the hell is going on?" Mike was standing in the background shaking his head,
"He knocked and I opened the door." Oh my God,
"Who are you?" Nick looks from him to me and I can tell he's very nervous,
"I'm Nick. Who...who are you?" John looks at me and sneers,
"I'm her boyfriend." he shakes his head and walks out, I want to call out to him and beg him not to leave but that would be a shitty thing to do in front of Nick. Mike closes the door and Nick jumps up,
"I don't believe this, you're gonna get my ass kicked. You got a fucking boyfriend?!" I sit in the middle of the bed, tears flowing, as he gets dressed and walks out of the room. I quickly wrap myself in a sheet to see him putting on his shoes,
"Nick, I'm sorry." He ties his shoes, not bothering to look at me,
"Save it. Come on man, let's go." They walk out, not looking back and not bothering to get the bag either. I go to the bathroom and sit on the floor of the shower until the water was cold.
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