Once I hang up with Nick of course I have to call Chris,
"Hello?" I'm kind of surprised she's home,
"Hey, I'm coming to Atlanta." I hear her squeal,
"Hey, you'll get to meet Quinn, she's coming to Atlanta!" I strain to listen and hear another voice,
"Cool, maybe we can meet Nick." I roll my eyes, that must be Marnie,
"So, when do you fly in?" I'm don't want to tell her Nick is paying for my ticket with Marnie there,
"I haven't got the ticket yet, I don't know."
"Hold on." A couple of minutes go by and she makes it back to the phone,
"Marnie just left, so what changed your mind?" Now I have to tell her I wouldn't go when she asked but when Nick asked I was more than ready,
"Nick asked me to come out." There was silence and I know that isn't good, normally Nick's name gets some type of reaction from her. I sigh,
"And..." I might as well tell it all,
"...he's flying me out." Some type of noise, a mixture of a laugh and a groan came through the phone,
"Guess it's a good thing Marnie is coming, I'll have someone to hang out with." I shake my head,
"I'm not going to ditch you or anything." She sighs heavily, this is not good,
"Sure, he's flying you out. So he definitely wants to hang out with you. It's your lucky day Quinn, he's not going to fly you out to not spend time with you, guess you'll be doing more than sleeping in his bed this time." I think back to my flirting comments, maybe she's right. Is that why he asked me to visit him? I'm such an idiot,
"Chris I've never ditched you to hang out with Nick. The only time we've been apart is...is Charlotte and I told you I wouldn't go if you didn't want me to and in Orlando you hung out with Howie." She sighs,
"It's fine Quinn, really. Look, I gotta go, I need to take care of some stuff, see you later." I barely get out my good-bye before I heard the click of the phone hanging up in my ear. I don't want this, I don't want to lose my friendship over this. I shake my head as I dial her number again,
"Hello?"
"Are you mad at me?" My stomach is in a knot, my heart is in my throat, I hate confrontation and I hate for people to be mad at me,
"I'm not mad, I don't know what it is. Maybe a little jealous. I dunno Quinn, I'm happy for you, it's like I'm gonna be left behind." I want to cry,
"You know why I didn't want to go to Atlanta? Because I thought I would feel left out with you and Marnie." I didn't want her thinking I would rather spend time with Nick instead of her, that wasn't the case,
"Quinn, I wouldn't do that." I stand up and walk into the bathroom, looking at myself in the mirror,
"I would never mean to make you feel left out and you felt that way...or you thought I would do that to you. Besides, it's like a ride. It won't last long, Nick has a short attention span, he'll move on to someone else soon enough and we won't even talk anymore." She laughed lightly,
"Well, his loss."
"Are we ok?"
"Yeah, we're fine. So what's Nick up to?" I smile,
"Nothing much, about to get kicked out of his hotel room." She laughs loudly and shrieks in my ear,
"What?!" I tell her about our conversation including the flirting,
"You two should have sex and get it over with." I groan,
"I feel like a groupie Chris...be honest am I?"
"What?! You haven't slept with Nick, and HE'S flying you out to see him, which proves he wants to see you." I shake my head,
"Yeah but he didnt invite me to Charlotte and Orlando and Boston." I feel worse the more I talk,
"And if he didn't want to spend time with you he wouldn't have."
"Maybe he did it because he felt trapped, like he had to do it to be nice. I mean, I know Eric so he knew I would be around."
"Quinn do you really think Nick didn't want to spend time with you? He could have dodged you if he wanted to...again...he INVITED you to Atlanta. HELLO you spent the weekend at his house and you didn't just show up there, he asked you to come. Don't worry about this." I sigh as I turn on the shower then walk out of the bathroom,
"I don't even know what we are. I mean, are we friends? I know we aren't more than that. It's so weird."
"Quinn, just chill and go with the flow, stop thinking so much. You know I had a friend in college and we had the kind of thing you and Nick have. We were just buddies but we would flirt all the time, he would always talk shit about how he could make me scream and how good he was in bed."
"What happened?" She laughs,
"Absolutely nothing, it was all in fun. So stop stressing."
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