I followed him to one of the vans and we settled inside. I don�t know if it were the alcohol, the fact that he invited me or I was losing my mind but I lay my head on his shoulder as we rode along. His arm was on the back of my seat and it eventually slid down and he started to rub my arm. It was like a baby�s back was being rubbed as I sighed, closed my eyes and before I know it I could feel someone shaking me. I looked up to see Nick smiling at me and slurred,
�Hey wake up�we�re here.� I made my way out of the van and followed the group inside. I walked away from Nick and closer to everyone else. I didn't want to be seen as being with Nick. He stopped and looked over at me as he signed a few autographs. I noticed him give a look to someone standing near me then felt a hand on my arm,
�Come on I�ll take you up to Nick�s floor.� I smiled blankly and he laughed a little,
�I�m Don�I�m with management.� I could feel my eyes widen,
�Its ok�I�m not watching out over Nick�s image or anything we were all just hanging out.� I nodded and looked over at Nick before the elevator door closed. There was no way he could have been watching out for Nick�s image because he was wasted and standing down there with fans. Don and I stood there for a few minutes waiting for Nick with small talk when he stepped off the elevator. He turned, said something to his security and he nodded before he left. I watched him walk towards us and my stomach dropped. He smiled at Don and shook his hand before he opened the door and walked in,
�Sorry�my room is always a mess.� I shrugged my shoulders and shook my head,
�No problem.� He flopped down on the couch and I followed as I watched his fingers press the buttons on the remote control to the TV. I looked up and we seemed to look at each other at the same time and I smiled weakly as I returned my gaze to the TV and noticed it was on ESPN. He was about to flip the station when I reached over and tried to take the remote from his hand but I was a little too slow. I stopped reaching when I realized I was stretched over his lap and he seemed to notice the same thing as his laughter stopped. I sat up and looked around the room,
�Can I use your phone and call Chris?� He nodded and I went over to the phone and watched as he picked up a pair of shorts and made his way to the bathroom. I giggled as I watched him maneuver over a pair of shoes that I was sure were going to take him out. Just as I hung up the phone he sat on the bed and his cell phone rang,
�Hello�no�I don�t know�what do you want me to say�I don�t know ok�maybe�yeah well I tried�I never told you that�I never promised�whatever, whatever�well, I�ll see you around�yeah�when I get back whenever that is, I�ll have to check my schedule�bye.� I figured it was a girl he was talking to. I looked around as I tried not to listen to his conversation but he didn't seem to care if I could hear him or not.
�Come on.� I turned to see him lying underneath the sheets. My eyes stretched and I stammered,
�Uh, I can call Chris again�she can come get me�I-� His looked at me,
�No, stay. I mean�can you just sta-� His eyes closed and he sighed,
�I mean, if you want�it�s late.� I don�t know why but I nodded my head and I could see a slight smile on his face,
�I�can I get something to sleep in?� He sat up and looked around before he went over to his suitcase and pulled out a shirt,
�This should be big enough�do you need shorts?� I shook my head and took the shirt and headed into the bathroom. When I came out I slid in the bed and looked over to see his eyes were closed and figured he was asleep. I closed my eyes and jumped when I felt his fingers on my face. He stared at me for what seemed to be forever as I held my breath and waited for his next move. He shook his head slightly and bit his lip then closed his eyes briefly sighing heavily. His eyes were glazed over and he looked like he could barely keep them open,
�What�s wrong?� He traced his finger over my eyebrow and whispered,
�Whatever you do�no matter what I say�don�t sleep with me.� I watched as he licked his lips and his eyes closed and he was asleep.
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