These are just a few of the things I have written in recent years. This is my story. This is My Damage.......

 

 

           

 

I want to drive out

Into the scarlet moon

Over the horror show

That bridges the dark mirror

Of shit below us

 

Take my hand

Come with me

Into this furnace

Inferno night

 

Taste my lips

With poisons pleasure

I take you

I make you

I break you

 

As we deceive

Believe

Achieve

Achieve our own death

 

Reach higher

Over this concrete nightmare

Reach higher with me

 

Lets get deep

Real down deep

To where secrets lye

And make love

With past indiscretion

 

And they will call it

Sin

Call it

Lust

 

But as I touch you

In silence

You will know it

As freedom

For we are freedoms slaves

 

We are lost lives

Running scared

 

This desert

That swallows us

And we find

That nowhere is all around

And what was sure

Is once again

No more

 

So come with me

Fly through this night

Of color

All done

Red

White

And blue

 

Lets get down

Way down deep

To the sun

Oceans breeze

And beyond

 

Flesh

Yours and mine

Pale with colors

Of masquerade

Imagery of hate’s fear

And inequality

 

Down deep

In this

Hotbox city night

My hands

Between your legs

Fills me

With lost feelings

Of delight

 

We are strangers

In the wind

Of the inferno

 

Live with me

Sin with me

Come with me

Die with me

Fly with me

 

I am not yours

To have

And you

Are never mine

But tonight

I drive out

To nowhere

Where you will never

Be waiting

 

*  *  *

 

James called me today and told me what you did. What a weak ass way out man. What the fuck were you thinking? Shit I can’t believe it. I feel bad now that we didn’t keep in touch over the past couple of years.

            So what was up with this girl? You had a kid with her huh? So what is that kid suppose to do now. With no father. I mean that is exactly what is wrong these days. Kids growing up with out a father. So this chic was bagging on your shit I heard. Making fun of you because you were broke all the time. Said you weren’t shit. Man you didn’t need to take that shit from some girl. She was not worth your time brother. Hardly worth doing what you did.

            Out of all the stupid shit you have done since I known you, this has to be the one thing that tops the list.

            I remember when Me and you and T-spoon went to the mall and we met that crazy chic. The one who you took home and banged while she was deigning she was married and all that shit. Man I can’t believe you went UA for that broad. She was a real piece of work. She had a cool place. I remember going through her closet and finding all her husbands gear and thinking bingo. While she claimed it was there when she moved in. But when I told her I would take it because I needed it, she wouldn’t let me.

            You were one hell of a good Marine too. I mean like I said you did and said some off the wall shit but you knew your shit about the Gun and you were one of the most squared away guys in the unit. Why did you do something so dumb like ditch a field op for that girl.

            I remembered you ironed your uniform up until the day they kicked you out. The night before the gave you the boot, you even field dayed the room! Shit if it was me getting a Other Then Honorable, I would have shit on the floor.

            The one thing I have to complain about though, why the hell were you late every time I went to pick you up after a weekend? Not once can I remember you were on time. I mean you were always good about chipping in gas money, and the stories you would tell me and Kim on the ride back were great. Telling high School girls you were 18. That shit was funny as hell.

            Hey you never made me that Funk Dubiest tape you promised me. And I still have your Wu Tang album. But what the fuck, it was the edited one with no curses. Why the hell did you buy that one? I guess it was just more “Mad Dog Logic”. Man that shit was like poetry.

            I tried to call Dan today to tell him the news. I don’t know if I had the right number though. I still remember you two punching each other while I was trying to drive. He was out of control whenever he found the Mag Lite, Or my knife in the car. I really thought he was going to kill you a few times. You used to piss him off so bad.

            Man, why did you put me in this spot. I guess now tomorrow I have to call your Mom and try to find out where they buried your stupid ass. I have too tell her how sorry I am and talk about how you were such a good guy and all that shit. Not that it isn’t true, but I just don’t want to have to do it.

            Me and V are going to come and visit you as soon as we can find you and get the time to drive there. I don’t drink anymore, but I guess I will have to have a 40 for you. I always said I would if this was to happen. I just thought it would be like bullets and gun smoke, like some Ice-T album or some shit like that. The fact you hung yourself fucks me up. You were the one always telling me “Not to sweat the bitches”. You used to sing that song, “Bitches aint shit”.

            So why did you do it then? Like I said that was some weak ass shit. I mean things didn’t work out for me. Not back when at least. Now I have somebody, but you remember how twisted up I used to get over chics. I never expected this kinda shit from you. But then again, your Mad Dog. When did you ever really make sense?

            Well man, I guess this is it. I am going to send this out into the world wide web of eternity and it might reach you where ever you are. I am not one to believe in God or that shit, but I guess your energy is somewhere. I hope where ever that is, you got my back still. I‘ll meet you when I get there, oh and Mad Dog? Don’t be late this time, ok? I’ll talk to you then. Later.

 

Always and Forever

Glenn

 

*  *  *           

 

 

 

All of this

For what

Who are they

Who am I

So much time

So little to show

Day by day

They claw at me

Hit and kick me

Bite me with their jagged teeth

Smile at me

With their crooked smile

They praise me to my face

Then scoff at me

Behind my back

They stab me

With their rusty blade

But never

Never once

Do I surrender

What little I have

My pride

My respect

Both for who I am

And what I stand for

 

*  *  *

 

 

Tell me about all the ways you commit suicide

Tell me

How you hang yourself in your basement

About the way you pull the trigger on yourself

Braver then me

I’m too afraid

Tell me about

How you drink yourself to death

What’s it like on the bottom of that bottle

That’s it

Take it slow

Why spare yourself the pain

No need to hurry

What’s it like

To die night after night

In solitude

Alone

No one can help you

They can only hurt you

Who would want to

Another Friday night

More work to do

Just you and Jack

He will help you

You and him

You can rot together

Put up with this shit for so long

Too long

I think your doing the right thing

 

*  *  *

 

Thousand eyes watching me

That’s how I felt

Dark and alone

But still feeling like they were all around

I looked back and forth

I bet if anyone was watching

I must have looked pretty stupid

That’s what you get

Everyone is always staring at me

Curious

Hate

Indifference

But still looking

So now

Even alone

I feel eyes on me

From the dark

I know no ones there

But all the same

Someone’s always watching

 

*  *  *

 

This night holds it’s knife to my throat

Drinking coffee

Staring at the empty highway

Tonight’s hollowed look stares me in the eyes

It digs in deep

Early

Going to be a long hard trip

Went looking for it tonight

Went to find my loneliness

Found it just fine

The one certain

In a vast voyage of uncertainty

She sent me walking

Always happens this way

But she did

I know how it is

How she tares up hearts

But I thought I would beat it

I felt I could stay one step ahead

Got too close

Should have never let it happen

Fuck it

Got a better chance at winning the lottery

Then finding love

When she told me she had a boyfriend

I wanted her more

I don’t know why I ever thought

She would choose me over him

Some got the luck I guess

At least I have this nothing

At least I have this screaming quiet exile

One more

One more night alone

One more broken heart

One more love sick story of woe

I drove by her house

I have this letter you see

This message to give her

She was not home

One more lie

So I drove

I thought all that silly shit

You know

She’s confused

She will realize I’m her man

Yeah right

I’m so used to being lied to

I lie to myself

I thought for so long it would happen

Love would fall in my lap

Whatever

I went to see her yesterday at work

She was so happy to see me

Now that’s what fucks me up

The way they can fool you with a smile

Make you feel so special

Then toss you away like common trash

She kissed me

Her touch

I waited all day for her touch

It all meant shit

I was sitting home

The rage was unsettling

I couldn’t sit still

I thought I would explode

So I ran into the embrace of the night

Now I sit here

I wonder where she is

I think of her with him

As he kisses her

Like I did

Give me one reason not to hate her

Yeah, yeah

It’s not her fault

She is young

What did I expect?

To tell you the truth

I’ve come to expect just what has happened

 

*  *  *

 

Love child

Hate machine

Destroy me with your smile

Dismantle me with your touch

Incinerate me with your kiss

All that I covert

Such unholy passion

The poison of your lips

To feel your body

Under mine

To feel your breath

The angles close their eyes

The demons howl at the moon

I plunge headlong into this night

The fire of Hell at my heels

Cutting through the dark

Like a switchblade knife

Drinking my feelings

Black

No cream or sugar

Raw

Like me

Like my stare

When I look at you

Love

Lust

Fine line between the two

But still you remain

Taboo taste

Fine as scotch

No ice

No time

Walking in the sunshine

Knowing I wait in the night

To bring you to the edge

Daring you to jump head first

With me

Into what we do

What must be

Because after all it was the night

That brought us forward

 To each of our own decisions

No looking back

No regret

Even if that is what is expected

You are the slayer of my sanity

Burning my innocent self

Ha

Like there is any of that left

I am dark

 I scorn the world with my smile

I laugh in spite of all that is miserable

As the sun goes down

You call on me

I lay waiting

Out there

Smoke filled pool hall

Eight balls and snake eyes

Your touch

Those eyes that show me your soul

I want to take you tonight

Body’s entwined

Devil snake

Serpent sex

Tasting your sweat

As you kiss my cold lips

We burn in each other’s arms

Together

Inside you

Feel the fire

One hundred cities burning

No more fear

Anger in the past

No one can hurt you

Not here

Not in the apocalypse

Not with me

On the edge

Edge of the world

We rise above the ashes

Cast from Heaven

Far from Hell

Nowhere in between

Just standing here

Wind in our face

The timeless face

That has stood here all along

Seen many sunrises

Sunset to it’s back

Only you can see it

No one else

Oh and then there is me

From the minute I saw you

I kissed you in my mind

And it is there

That you are mine

Nowhere else

On the edge of the world

It is me you will hold onto

No one has ever shown you the edge

Where the night ends

Where the day begins

I have

Sickboy

Rockabilly fool

Fear me

But fear not

I can do nothing

Only you

You can destroy me

My hands are tied

You kiss my lips

As I close my eyes

And there you are

Tattooed on my mind

Waiting in the night

You can cast me away

But you can’t

I stand statue still

Until all is clear

Then I come to you

My hand at your breast

Tongue at your neck

Killing you

Taking you to the river Stix

Smiling the whole time

They spit and they scratch

Can’t touch you

Leather clad monster man

You see

My eyes

Opened

Cold

Watching every move

All hands go with a watchful eye

I’m waiting

On the edge

In the night

Waiting for your call

Kiss me

Touch me

I am yours

I wait

*  *  *

 

Speeding through your Gothem City Skyway

Looking in your cold empty alleys

Searching for your touch

Where do you lay tonight?

The smell of urine essence hallways

The taste of your milky white flesh

Feel your body

Feel me as I touch you

 Silently in the darkness

Of your cold bedroom

Hear your breathing

As you whimper under my finger tips

As I kiss at your breasts

Biting your neck

Running blind through your city streets

Lined with glass and steel

Stretching toward the sky

Gothic canyon of wind and rain

Dirty dim bar light

Leather boys and women bound by latex

Smoke fills the air

The taste of alcohol on our breath

Our bodies rub together

Hand between your legs

Feeling the heat

Million miles from home

Sleep in my arms tonight

Empty thoughts of lust

Or the lost longing

 For that that seems impossible

Make me a slave to your Windy City

Captive to your touch

Whisper those lies in my ear

Never love me

Just destroy me with your flesh

Rock star fame and fortune

Laughing at the fools

We rule this city of nothing

We keep them in their place

My arms around you

Feel my heart

It echoes empty in my chest

Take me to your everything

Open yourself to me

Make believe in something once again

Speeding though nowhere to your touch

Kiss my lips

As we bid farewell

Never again will I look at this city the same

It will always be yours….

 

*  *  *

                                                                                           

 

 

Back/Top