Buffy was waiting in Restfield cemetery for Angel, lately he had been distant, aggitated and she was getting the feeling that something had changed between them, and it was not of the good! So when he had called and said that they needed to talk, little butterlfies had started doing an unhappy dance across her stomach,
<what could he want to talk about?, I mean I`m getting worried, he`s so distant with me, oh god what does he want to say!>
She sat on a gravestone, swinging her legs and fiddling with Mr.Pointy trying to keep her mind off of the conversation to come.She saw him walking towards her, an unreadable expression on his face,
<there go those butterflies again>
He walked up to her, took and un-needed breath, and began,
"Buffy Im ummm, Ive got something to tell you & i need you to listen to me,,,Kay?"
"yea, I spose so"
"Right, ummm, I dont think I can be with you anymore, Im sorry, Im not in love with you anymore, I love you, and always will but Im not in love with you"
His words washed over her and she was surprised at her own reaction, she expected pain, hurt, a feeling of not being able to breath, but she just felt calm, she realised she was releived.
He gave her a moment to gather her thoughts and then carried on...
" You are, unfortunately everything Im supposed to despise, I dont despise or hate you, the soul couldnt ever, but my demon rages against me, against the very idea of you and I being together"
"In the beginning I could ignore it, but as my feelings changed it got harder for me to do so, I was attracted to the forbiddan love aspect I think and then my feelings changed and I couldnt go on lieing to you, it wouldnt have been fair to either of us"
She took a moment and then spoke...
"I understand, I mean it hurts, but i understand.I love you too but I need to move on with my life, I still want you in it, but we will have to move on, and try to be friends..."
He almost fell over...< she excepted it, She understands, and she still wants me in her life, as a friend> that thought comforted him and soothed his guilt a little. He hadnt wanted to hurt her.
They carried on talking for a few minutes and then went thier seperate ways, With one final hug it was officially over!
Part 4
The next day in school Willow was hidden behind the computer terminal in the library as usual when Buffy walked in looking sad and rumpled around the edges, Willow went into friend mode automatically....
"Buffy whats wrong, What happened?"
"Im fine Wills, just a little down is all"
"What happened, why are you feeling down?"
"Well last night i met Angel in Restfeild cem..."
Willow tuned out at that, just the mention of his name made her physically stiffen and take a mental nose dive, she didnt think Buffy had noticed because she carried on regardless..
"Broke up with me and...."
That made her tune back in straight away...
<Goddess he broke up with her>
"oh Buffy Im so sorry...I dont know what to say...But maybe it was for the best...I mean if you both feel like that then why carry on and hurt each other, Im really sorry though"
"I know Wills, I mean it hurts, but i inderstand, things havent been the same since he came back from hell, it was my fault he was there in the first place, and I knew he had his soul when i sent him, Im just sad that its over I do love him, but like he say`s, Im not in love with him anymore"
"Im off to class, are you going willow?"
"No ive got a free first thing, Im gonna stay here and catch up research"
"Oh, kay, well I will see you at lunch then"
Yea, lunch see ya"
"k, bye"
With that she was gone leaving Willow to her own thoughts...
<wow, he`s not in love with her anymore, and she isnt in love with him,wow>
As happy as she was that she didnt have to see Angel makeing goo goo doll eyes at Buffy anymore, she still couldnt bring herself to hang with them out of school, she had gotten to used to her own company, and it still hurt to be around him wether he and buff were together or not,It seemed that she had beened sentenced to eternity in her room with only her computer for company, after all.
