| Disclaimer: I don�t own these characters, I don�t pretend to know all the ins and outs of Law & Order � I�ve just started watching it & I�m picking it up as I go. But the story & ideas are mine� please don�t sue! I W a n t L o v e A Jack/Nora story by Rhonda* "Is it over? Yeah it's over and I'm blowing out the flame. Take a walk outside your mind; tell me how it feels to be - the one who turns the knife inside of me. Take a look and you will find - there's nothing there girl yeah I swear. I'm telling you girl, yeah, 'cause there's a hole in my soul that's been killing me forever. It's a place where a garden never grows. There's a hole in my soul, yeah, I should have known better 'Cause your love's like a thorn without a rose." Part Seventeen � Hole in my Soul Friday 12th October For autumn the weather was wonderful, warm but with a slight breeze and a blue sky to remind you of summer. Nora felt good, the day had gone well, it was only 6p.m and she was making her way home. She�d walked to work with Jack grabbing coffee from the deli on the way, and hoped they�d return together but she hadn�t seen him all afternoon. She didn�t blame him; he�d won a difficult case that morning that he�d been working on for months so she could overlook him sneaking an afternoon off to celebrate. Although she�d hoped they would go out for dinner tonight, just the two of them, she always seemed so tired at the moment it would be good to relax with him. She climbed the steps to their apartment, let herself in and took the elevator to their floor. "Hey honey I�m home." She called hanging up her coat. "Where have you been all afternoon? Hope I don�t have to give you a warning for taking liberties and wasting time!" She found him sitting him on the couch with his head cradled in his hands. "What�s wrong? I thought you�d be celebrating." "Couldn�t face it." He looked up at her for the first and she could tell he�d been crying. "Hell Jack what�s wrong, is it Lita, is she ok?" "She�s fine." He swallowed and rubbed his forehead, trying to calm himself. "It�s you." "I don�t understand." Jack stood up and began pacing. "I went to see Laura today, about the dating and how it affects Lita and well we began to argue, pretty bad. And she took great pleasure in telling me I had no right judge her when my partner was getting groped in some sleazy alleyway." "O god." Nora slipped down into the chair she�d been leaning on. "Like some cheap slut." "Don�t say that." "Why not? God Nora, in a neighbourhood like that with a stranger �what�s wrong, is this not exciting enough for you?!" "No, that wasn�t it � it had nothing to do with excitement, it was just a kiss." "Just a kiss, how the hell would you feel if you found out I�d been feeling up some younger woman in a dark alleyway behind a bar. For gods sake Nora you could have been attacked, raped." "I never thought of that." She whispered. "And I�m supposed to feel grateful it was just a kiss. He had his hand up your top according to Laura." Nora�s head was swimming; what had happened that night � the reasons for it, how sorry she was, how guilty. She felt dizzy and leant forward resting her head on her knees. "So that�s it, no more excuses, apologies. How many other men have you fucked since you�ve been with me?" Her head shot up again. "I would never." "Oh you wouldn�t, and I�m supposed to believe you right cos you�re the god damn honest as they come DA. If I�d known it was an open relationship I could have been screwing around too." Nora crossed the room to him. "Jack please, nothing like that happened, I wouldn�t let it." "Oh come on, how do you think I feel finding out I�ve been living with a whore?!" She slapped his face hard. "Don�t ever speak to me like that. I made a mistake, we all do, hell you certainly have." "So that gives you the right to cheat on me, because I made mistakes before. Or is this revenge for what happened the first time around." "That was years ago, I�ve never held that against you, not now." "Then why Nora, for fuck�s sake why, why, why?" She had never seen him like this, so angry and upset at the same time, kicking furniture as he stomped round the room. She went to him and tried to grab his arms and for a second she thought he might hit her. "Calm down Jack and let me explain what actually happened." He shrugged her off. "Don�t touch me." He looked at her disgusted and went into the bedroom. She followed but he�d locked the door. She sunk down to the floor leaning against it, listening to him slamming draws in the other room. * * * * * It was over an hour before Jack emerged, and when he did he was carrying a suitcase and an overnight bag. Nora hadn�t cried yet but when she saw this the tears came. "Where are you going?" "To see if I can crash at Lennie�s, until I get a place." "You�re leaving me?" "What do you think." He grabbed his coat and went to the door, but Nora pushed in front of him. "Jack you just can�t walk out, we haven�t even talked about it, you haven�t listened to me." "Why should I?" "Because you�re being irrational." "And if I have time to think I�ll change my mind � I don�t think so. I trusted you." "You can trust me, I would never mean to hurt you." "Then why have you?" She tried to control her crying but only resulted in gasping for breath. "Please don�t leave, I need you." "No you don�t, not really." And with that he slammed the door and was gone. * * * * * Part 16 Stories Part 18 |