| Saturday, Oct. 4, 2003 I was very tired and ill with the world today. I still went to "tailgate" with the gang. It was kind of sad seeing everyone else drink and smoke and have a rippin' good time. I felt like a doofus. But I knew it would be absurd and stupid to do anything to harm the embryo inside---I don't think I can call it a fetus for several more weeks. I'm about to jump out of my skin to see a real doctor who can tell me for sure if I'm pregnant or not, even though the sticks said I was....I took another test this morning---remember the digital one that said, "SEE LEAFLET" yesterday? Today it said PREGNANT. So that was cool. See, this is the pregnancy test for dumb people---at least dumb people who can READ. :) I'm surprised it didn't say, press one for Espanol, like an ATM. I think I may have freaked my husband out a bit by shedding some tears today---it was just out of being scared and tired... Anyway. That was today. I think it's all "hitting home" that our lives are about to change, and no matter how much we dearly dearly want this child, it's FRIGHTENING! last next |