A Series of Quetions By Miss Angela Brown
Have you ever wanted to open a can of whoop ass? Have you ever yellow screamed and uttered hurtful but witty expressions? Have you ever come out with a diss so good that everyone around you was amased/bewildered and your comedic timing and the cruel honesty of your burn? Well. The answer is probably no. But for me, the answer is yes, yes I have. It's been a long and winding road... the Comeback Queen... yes... The art of dissing... I am giving it all most of it up, for the sake of peace of mind, and the fealings of others (unless u deserve it u attention whore you)
That being said. I can honestly say I'm on the road to enlightenment and hapiness. Honestly though, after writing two painfully emo poems... Im kinda getting sick of the whole, "it's not my fault my life sucks but it really doesn't its complicated..." scene. It's hard to feal tired and sorry for yourself all the time. I mean really, it's hard. TRUST ME. Well, the tired part came on it's own. But the rest of it was hard. And then it was hard, so you kinda- EMO! ok stopping. enough with the phylosophy on acid. ENOUGH I SAY. Enough. Time for... WOOTWOOT
SMILING and... happyness? Yes happyness my friends. I am a happy loud person. I Isss who I is PUNK BETTER RECONISE.
I've got tons of history homework and math homework that i never do, 2 huge projects Ironiclyboth history and math... AND I NEVER DO IT. I am layzie au bout CAULISS. Language laws are dumb and hypocritical to quebecs BS claims about their culture. I know Im gonna get a few attacks at my life with that statement so I'm going to stop there so it doesn't increase to ppl stalking me and slowly driving me to insanity. Crazy yes i know but the sad a painfull truth, one i must get over Pppprrrooonntttoooo.
(pronto in slow motion is an oxymoron? or just weird... hmmm something to ponder).
Hey!!! Another Question!!! Have you ever absoloutly loved being single and wished to god that no one would change that? (at this present time of course....) Have you ever hoped that someone who you would under normal circumstances probably go out with didn't want to speak to you? no? or if you did you were probably just saying that so no one thought u were deperate and lonely... sorry bout that kid... *awwww* Well, I FEAL THAT WAY. Not because of anything you may be thinking of. But cuz, i just don't think i want that right now. I'm in a good space with my social life, and a bad space with stress (which i create... honestly.. i've perfected the art aka waste of time.) So why would i want to hurt those two things? NO! that's the WRONG ANSWER. I wouldn't. But more on that later... When people aren't threatening to unplug the computer if I don't go off and clean my room.
Tata for now, Cheerio! <---- ( never say that. EVER. It's gay and will be gay for a very long time.... unless ur from the UK or possibly Australian. Even that's a stretch)
See you next time (or else.... daduhDAAAAA!)
I stand by the theorie that life sucks and then you die. I had put one fire amasing post but didn't save it and my bro came on and now it's gone. You'll sadly never be able to read it. It was beautifull. Verbal candy. Lengendary. I'm mourn the love you never had. I'm sorry
I"VE ALSO RUINED MY BEST CHANCE AT GETTING A JOB! I RUINED IT AND I'M A LOSER FOR RUINING IT. AHHHH!
And the worst part is having a job has slowly become more of a nessesity and less of an option. I would write more but I have school tomorrow and it's 11:09. Toodles (oh gosh not that again)
Hey gorgeous and loyal subjects. Welcome to gg's spot! *enter trumpet intro music*
Sorry, I just felt the need to do that. Actualy... New intro.
*enter matrix music here* -----------------------------------> *enters* *matrix music fades*
Ok now I feel like I've had my own teencampesque intro.
BACK ON TRACK even though there was no initial track to get back on. As you can see I'm in a very random mood. Work with me though k?
updates --> More pics of rekka's party
ya that's it. I'm trying to upload this thing to my server so we can have comments. That would be insaine. I'm also getting a guestbook. The site is slowly but surely coming up.
So orientation day at school is on thursday, real school starts friday. An I still haven't applied for my job (stupid) I swear I'm doing it tomorrow when I go to get my school shoes. Honestly... So ya. The makeover plan is still on!! It shall be mine. I just need to raise money first. Sopport the cause! I've actualy made a banner.
Come on! You know you want to! I should prob put a paypal thing up here. DONATE TO THE CAUSE, DON"T BE STINGY!
Sup ppls! I have to make this quick because I want to go to bed to get my clock by on time for school (internal clock)
I made the "I want to wear it" section. It doen't actually have my favs but some of them are defenently there. I went downtown today, got some cute converse, then SAW MY DREAM SHOES AND COULDN'T HAVE THEM CUZ I GOT THE CONVERSE ALREADY. I was really upset. My dream shoes. gone....
Hopefully they will still be there by the time
Come on! You know you want to! I should prob put a paypal thing up here. DONATE TO THE CAUSE, DON"T BE STINGY!
So. I've got some pictures. I saw alot of them. I'm not smilling in any of them. In fact, I'm not grining, not even smirking. It's very sad. You see, I hate the way my smile looks in pictures. It's terrible. Honestly though, I also noticed my hair is always the same (BLEH!) and The clothes I'm wearing are boring (and usually dont cover me up, there was one unfourtunate shot of my Booty crack (sad) crack spackle aisle 3, rojer that. Other then that though (and if your still on that, no i didn't put it up here :P) So ya. As I pined for about 1 000 000 years over the late lived embarassement. I hate it when that happends, your embarasses about something you did a day later and you can't stop being embarassed about it. annoying
BACK ON TRACK. so pics here ---> rekka's party and here ---> camping trip and here random pics and here ---> teen camp
there's not alot of pics in each section (sorry) but yea.
So... All these pictures have made me realise... I nEED A fICkEN mAkEOvER!!! *grunts, gnashes teeth*. Really though. Well, how shall we finance such things like... a new wardrobe? hair cut/dye/do/stuff/products/ukno? how to pay for all that good stuff? Is that was you ask? *enter heavenly music here* A JOB. A job the coveted. The admired. The payed. The cash. Yes my friends a job. Disposible income. Something I haven't had in basicly a year. Well my friends, the answer has been staring at me straight in the face. SO! as soon as I'm done updating this. I'm going to go apply at places where I can get a reference (hookups baby!) Annnnnnd I gotta go pic out some shoes for my mami to buy for me. I also have to pic out some lingerie. And guess what? My sis has a Victoria's Secret Angel Card so she can order stuff! So if I give her the cash she'll order it for me! I LOVE VS. Here's a link
So yes, that's the news, Mo Money LESS PROBLEMS. gosh. Who's the idiot who said mo money mo problems? well u kno what? MORE PROBLEMS FOR YOU. stop trying to make us broke folk happy cuz were broke. Don't sugar coat the truth. We all know money = freedom (in many ways not all) SO! don't hate me when Im rolling in da queens (cuz i canada, Bejamin Franklin is not on our cash. That old chick with a crown is)
In other news, Black theater workshop auditions September 10th baby! Haha. it's basicly this acting workshop and it's also black history stuffnessfull. They have everything from like... Capoeira n Music n all sorts of stuff! What's capoeira... ok have you seen that "THE ROCK" movie called the Rundown? You know that brazilian guys n he's fighting but it looks like he's dancing, and there's all these drums going babuhbuh babuhbuh? no? oh well that's too bad.
So ya... Pictures up, I look like crap! My stomach makes me look like I'm 3 months pregnant in those pics... OH WELL. I need to gain weight and take care of my fricken LACTOS INTOLERANCE. bloating is no fun my friends, especially when ur estomach is the only thing u hav goin for ya... well actually... ah nvm. Bah humbug. the point is i look like crap in the pics so be mercifull. And the ones I posted are the nice ones (imagine that!).
Hey ppls! Yes. alot has happened since the last post
My friends from church who came to visit me brought me those heart cinnamon candies you know? well those, they brought a ton of them in this really cute dispenser (it doesn't really work) but that's irrelevent because they thought of me. Apparently, I didn't demonstrate my gratitude enough nor was I hospitible enough for certain folks liking and when we got into a little spat, Mr. Man stormed out of the house. All probably could have ben reconsiled had I come to church today (expectations, here we go again) but... there is a story attached to why I wasn't there as well...
So me and Rag go to this party at Rebecca's house and so half the people there are WASTED. They're GONE just gone. The rest of them are a little tipsy but enjoying themselves. I survived the night with my food still in my stomach , SURVIVA Sadly, Rag was #3 out of 5 of the people who vomited (the moment you blew chunks your name was replaced with a number and you where sent into the "sick room" we survivors dreaded this fate.) Anyway so ya, Rag got sick, so we stayed the night. The silver lining is... The Kiotito tradition lives ON! (as long as keala forgets certain events...) For those who don't know what I'm talking about, you probably never will. N-E-WAYS, yea, it was chillin, guitar playing, song singing, taking some pictures that numbers 1-5 would pay good money to have delete I'll get those up here as soon as I can but ya. I mean I didn't have the best time, because the second I got there my head starting hurting and my stomach went kamakazi, and then Rag started twitching (not not immediatly after we got there...) gosh! what the flip? So ya, I had fun though
I love it when I meet people I can be myself around, it's so hard because the moment people meet me they expect me to act a certain way (depending on who introduced us or wtv) I wish people wouldn't feal the need to brand and steriotype and catergorise people based on how they dress, how they speak, where they're from or what music they lissend too. It's really frustrating. So yes, the odd child has dileamas *shock* and ideas *gasp* but that's how it is.
So once again I was talking to some people from Villa. I've gotten recent news that Annie, Desire and Julie-M are leaving the Jap factory. *applause* See what happends when you set an example? you Save lives. Co-Ed FOR LIFE! CORRECTION: they never left the jap factory cuz they weren't a part of it. Only the english side is a jap factory. The french side is survivor. Few make it out Alive *enter survivor theme here*. MOVING ON!
But someone (who shall remane nameless... no credit for you missy! :P) Asked me the il and often avoided question... why don't you have a boyfriend? No. no. NO! I do not ok? for the millionth time no. Why? Because it's hard to find someone who's a)your actual friend b) cute c) that you like d) that likes you back (and you know they do) e) that's your age. Sadly no one has actualy met all these requierments and if they did... well, I didn't know about it (sorray)! I will say this once and for all, STOP WITH THE HOOKUPS. Gosh, introductions, set ups blablbla. Why does everyone these days think they need to be dating someone? Argh. I mean dating someone essentially means you like them inside out (regardless of their faults) and you want to be with them and only them (for now) but honestly. I mean, shouldn't people be secure enough to not need that kind of reassurance, and even then, why can't it be platonic? Honestly when I like someone and I'm sure I really do (as in when it comes as in not now) *looks around paranoide wondering who is reading this* then I'll go out with with them (if they like me back). It's not like I mind or I'm avoiding it, but it's not neccesary (I can't spell). I wouldn't do it not because it looks good or because it's a confidence boost or for a excuse to fool around. SO, for future reference, I'm single... and GOSHDARNIT *enter insparational music here*, I don't mind! *preach!* No more pity smiles and no more hook up offers thank you very much. *cheers* *flowers being thrown*... (I could go on all day.)
BACK ON TRACK. So ya, I didn't make it to church this morning. I feal bad, like I'm being a hipocrit, and I'm gonna catch censored for it but well, you know. This whole teen camp/getting my head on straight/figuring out my values things is really hard *pouts*. Well I have to figure it out soon, because if I don't consciously decide what I want to do I'll do what everyone else does and I don't want that. Well, enough insight and blablablaness, my brother wants the computer. Thank you for those who actually read this intimidating post (as in it was big).
P.S. I saw phamtom of the opera, loved it, (love her hair) and it was so sweet and the songs and singing, makes me want to take voice lessons (gotta ask my sister) And now that's I think of it, if i didn't before (i did), I really want a corset, In fact I want more then one... Ahhh! somday... I think I'll post ten billion of the in the [I want to wear it] section. Oh ya, before I forget, my goals section is up!
I want to do it... (click)
Some people start cejep today, other's have gone out, dont things, someone had their birthday... I cleaned. I scrubed, I dusted, I moped I swept I washed I dried and most importantly I disinfected. Yup, On the days where I should have been in Toronto with my friends and family, I'm at home cleaning and sick. How did this happend you ask? Well, you didn't ask so :P.
For the first time in forever, my room is clean and fresh *breaths deep* So is the downstairs room, the kitchem, the bathroom and the living room all at the same time while my parents are away for the week. Yup, my rents are away ALL WEEK. I was gonna be alone but I'm here with my brothers and sisters (except lianne, she's married) so what was once home alone has now become full house without mama. aka no parties or sleepovers. aka hell. This "hell" consists of chris having his friends over and me and stephen cleaning up after chris while wannabe crunk music blares in the background.
On a lighter note, school starts in a week. Can't believe it. A week. A WEEK. i had a great summer (excluding this unfourtunate week) but other then that it was hype (minus summer school) but other then that really it was hype. Not cuz i stayed out late everynight but because I got off my but n did stuff.
In other news, I love ed the sock
I thought I'd just let ya'll in on that... Honestly though, ed is THE sock. This guy is just... wow. so blunt so sarcastic...
I have to get ready know, my teen ministry (two twins and a boy I've known forever) from church are coming over to encourage me because I've become an OCD germaphobe and a Hermit.
Hey ppls. this is my blog. Yup, took me about 10 million years to set it up, but there she is. After 2 years of on and of makeing layouts i don't like, i finnaly settled on this one. So ya, here they are. Uh huh. Yup.
So I'm back from Teen Camp and I learnt alot. It didn't change my point of views, it changed my perspective. And it didn't change my ideas it gave me the tools to make my own.
I don't wanna be one of those people who does things because they're diffrent, who does things because that's what they want to do. I have to figure out a list of morals and live by them. literally write down a list of goals, how to do them and then everyday go about reaching those goals, everyday doing at least one thing to get closer to at least one of those goals.
Have a set of values, have a convictions whether it's on my work ethic, my religion all of it. Basicly, I realised that I have to give life direction and to decide which direction I want my life to go. Because if I don't consciously work and decide which direction I want to go into, I'll go into the same one everyone else is. And, that's not where I want to go... ever. Then again, complete opposite direction (not matter what the point of view) isn't the right answer either because it's still not me, it's the opposite of what i dont want. Nothing in life in 2 dimensional which is why that never works.
Either way, I'm turning over a new leaf. I'm starting out with basic things like, keeping my room clean, watching my tone whenever I speak to people, to not complain, to not be a hypocrit. It sounds simple but actually I kind of suck at doing all of these things. So ya. that's the beginning. So from now on posts are mostly how my days going, what's going on, ramdom stuff I've been thinking about. So yup. There ya go. Gonna stop typing now. Anytime now. yup. ...ok im done. LESS DEEP THOUGHT, MORE RANDOMESS SOON. I don't know wether this is a good thing or a bad thing...
Angela, is 15 years old and lives in Canada. She loves art, running track and eating cake. She dreams of sewing the designs she draws up and speaking spanish. She has been a webdisigner for two years. She likes Gangsta and kung-fu movies. She loves singing and dancing and writing music. She likes going out as much as she does being a homebody. Want to know more?
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