"Winds of Change" Chapter One "

In the Beginning" "I asked God for all things, that I might enjoy Life, Instead, he gave me Life, that I may enjoy all things": (Author Unknown).

After my visitation in October 1999, at my home in Victoria, British Columbia, I found myself thrust into a three and a half year epic journey towards the discovery of my spirituality. It would be full of hardships and tests yet from those, endless rewards. One's view of the world changes immensely, it becomes the stage it is, the school it was designed for. my trips took me from Canada to England, the USA, I am about to begin my speaking tour of the USA. After traveling for the last two years I am in Eastern Canada for a limted period of time holding a few seminars prior to going to the USA. I arrived here in September 2002 and set up my first seminar which happily sold out. It was one of my most memorable seminars. My vision is my focus, this is what I chose to come back from my Near Death Experience (NDE) for. I'll start by sharing how I became who I am today, I can guarantee you that i'm not who I was three years ago, today i'm whole.Finding your purpose in life changes you,. My changes had even greater ramifications beyond the usual journey one would take, I was given not only the trip with the ensuing changes neccessary but also a purpose that i'd accepted at the age of eighteen, to take the message of who we are, why we are and how to get to where we're going to the world. Let me take you back to the beginning, to my youth, to where my journey began. At the age of four, in England, I was playing in a tree, I fell, impaling myself through the groin, this was my first experince with Angels I can remember people in white, doctors, nurses that surrounded me, with a white sheet underneath me. The family doctor, had rushed to our home, stitching me up right on the living room floor with no freezing at all. When talking about this event years later,I was told the medical staff and white sheet I had so vividly seen weren't present that day, just my mother, the doctor and myself. As I grew up I kept seeing spirits that no one else seemed to be able to. It was usually put aside as being an over active imagination. This went on for years but as I grew older it became very apparrent that it wasn't wise to epect others to relate to what I saw, so I spoke less of it. At the age of 18, I joined the Canadian Navy, I was told I'd see the world, they weren't kidding but they didn't say which world. This experience changed my life. Albeit a traumatic experience it was really a wonderful one at the same time, with far reaching implications than were realized at that time. I was in a deep swimming pool fully clothed, shoes and all with forty other people all treading water, I wasn't about to appear stupid by admitting that I couldn't swim, I mean who would join the navy without being able to swim. I lasted about two minutes and after climbing over people to stay afloat it was apparrent I was fighting a losing battle, I took a deep breath and proceeded to sink. All I could see above me was a mass of legs. It seemed the harder I tried to reach the surface the faster I sank. I held my breath till it felt like my lungs would explode. Eventually I had to take a deep breath of water, your brain tells you, "breathe or your dead anyway"..There is no choking, no discomfort, no panic once you reach this stage, your'e simply substituting one commodity for another, water for air. Once this happened, I immediately relaxed as I was functioning. The most beautiful peace came over me as I sank deeper no longer wanting to fight.. Next, I was out of my body and looking down at myself from above yet still under the water level, I remember saying so clearly yet calmly, "that's my body, I guess i'm finished with it now". a totally unemotional detachment, like parking an old car you won't see again, it's then that you seee how much you aren't your body. It is more like a deep sea diving suit one would put on to enter another world. With that I was suddenly surrounded by a white light, I found myself in the presence of the most loving, compassionate being one could imagine.. I was shown home, Heaven, I was suddenly able to understand all things and everything I was shown i've retained as clearly as if it were yesterday. I was given the opportunity to return to earth or stay, I very much wanted to stay but after being shown what I would achieve if I decided to return I decided to come back.What that purpose was, is vield over and yet at a very deep level I knew I had a great purpose to achieve. Sometimes the wait to realize that purpose is long, I wasn't shown mine until October 1999 thirty three years later when I had the visitation. What I receiverd would be a turning point in my life, my world would and did change forever beyond my wildest imagination. I had begun a new path in a new and wonderful direction. Within. Three years and a lot of hardships later, there are times when I fondly look back at my "normal life" as afixed by society and although the lessons and miles have been hard on me, I look forward to taking what i've learned to others.I do know I would find it far too hard to go back and adjust to who I was then, The world now, in all it's confusion is doing Internationally what i've done alone, changing for tomorrow, I won't lie, it's not all roses, my advice is to ressurrect the forties and fifties idea of what a family and community is, that is what will help us all survive the transition, together. In October 1999, I was sitting at my computer, waiting for a friend I chatted with from Israel when I felt a tingling and intense energy enter my body. It began in my toes and rose within my body untill it reached the top of my head. It was the most intense feeling i'd ever experienced and it didn't subside in any way shape or form, it remained constant. I then felt a Supreme presence soaking into me.I hadn't felt this presence since my drowning at eighteen but I instantly knew who it was. He smiled and said in a very loving and calm way, " I have come to awaken you to your piurpose, to what you have agreed to come back for. You will write and speak globally on what you know of self, purpose and home, do not convert, do not convince, light the spark, the work is theirs", He then went on to show me the future till 2012, then on till 2017. Some could be changed by our actions yet some couldn't like the Iraq Warm, it is a part of the scheme of things. I then saw the multiple terrorist attack on the USA Eastern Seaboard as well a other world tragedies to come such as the Seattle Quake at 6.8 on the Richter Scale which I predicted within four days of it's happening. I found myself suspended in space, above the earth with God always by my side, I could see long lines of golden thread coming from space and touching down on many points of the world, I was aware at that moment that others were being awakened as I was, all given different purposes to different degrees of involvement geographically, some in communities, others within countries and some globally. Then the visitation ended the same way it began, just as suddenly, he just faded from within me, the whole process was very gentle and loving, yet I felt overwhelmed as I regained myself. It was so intense and comfirming that I just sat humbled with tears in my eyes, . Needless to say, my world changed at that moment, nothing would nor could be the same for me ever again after that, my journey had already begun My family, wife and two lovely daughters, Gillian and Joanne, were beside me, comforting me. During the following days I felt as if I were in a daze, things began to happen that hadn't before, both in our home and within myself,. I became more aware of the world and people, more focused on what I saw and "felt:" Things appeared differently to me, such as my concept of what people said wasn't always what people meant and vice versa. Suddenly I had a deeper way of seeing life not just the surface. Even doing a simple task of grocery shopping, I had to read product names on shelves todistract myself from what I was picking up from othet shoppers. I also brought out a deck of cards, my daughters had bought for me prior to the visitation, I wasn't having much success with them at that point, suddenly I could read accurately overnight, I was able to read so well I was reading for other readers. I practiced on the Internet and became so well known, people were taking numbers for readings, all I needed was to ask for the gifts and they were given to me. I was on the net one day, when someone I didn't know from Israel came to me, she had recently lost her husband and wondered if I could channel him for her and her two teenaged daughters. I told her I hadn't channeled for anyone before but I would try. I went within and asked God and my Guides for this gift. I then opened myself to receive, suddenly I felt tingles, I knew immediately it was a signal that a soul had touched me, I still get this same response as a signal today. It comes from their energy mixing with mine. This soul was so excited to make contact that he literally "sat" in me which i'd never experienced before, I learned very quickly to take control of the contact prior to calling spirit, settin ground rules for them is a must for everyone concerned. Something else I learned was that whatever the message given, pass it on, we have to remember it doesn't have to make sense to the person giving the message, only to those receiving it, this is where Trust and Faith in what you do is a neccessity. In the following exchange, I told his wife "all I can see are oranges, I can smell them, taste them theyr'e all around me", she told me amidst much excitement that she had squeezed her husband fresh orange juice evey morning for the past year and a half while he battled his cancer, it was the highlite of his day. This confirmation as well as more that followed gave her the confrimation that life after death was a reality. I'd made my frist contact successfully. Channeling calls for strong Faith in accepting whatever is given, no matter what it is or how outlandish it seems.Remember, it's their message not your's, you don't have to understand it, just pass it on. The changes kept coming, my poor family knew what I'd experienced but had no idea what was happening to me nor how to help me, I was on a journey of discovery that all they could do was watch, we just followed it day by day. Then things took another sudden change. A lady, Angie came online one night saying she had been told by her deceased daughter Karen, to find me and let me know that she knew of my visitation, and my vision. She was from London England.and although she didn't know me nor my family she was totally informed of what was happening to us all, even to the point of knowing the things that had happened the day before in our home. She is an exceptional channeler and psyhic reader and now happily, a part of our family. She knew my daughter Gillian had experienced someone tapping on her wrist while typing on the computer keyboard the day before.She offered more and mentioned that Joanne, my youngest daughter had been waking up in the morning with tiny hair like scratches around her face and forearms, she told her this was from the Angelic children, Cherubs being sent to care for her..Along with all of this sudden influx of information came a clear understanding of what was happening to us all. Angie was able to help us to adapt to the changes sweeping over our lives. Angie became a family friend and came out to visit us the following year. She had lost her daughter Karen suddenly, in an accident outside her school years prior, she had kept a contact with her in spirit and found that Karen now meets children when they pass over, she had alos lost a son at birth and now, with one son left, was facing yet another challenge with his health. She had chosen some hard lessons for this life yet thats what old souls do. Just two months after my visitation, we were at my daughter's friends home for New Years, I was helping clear the table from the night's feast when I suddenly lost my balance for just a moment, as I held my head it felt as if a little mouse had turned itself around in it, I felt light headed, sat down and was alright in a few minutes. There daughter had noticed my imbalance and asked if I was feeling okay, now how does one explain such a feeling in a way not to not appear certifiable, I assured her that I was just fine, too much champagne. The following morning, I went to the beach and stood at the edge of the Pacific Ocean to welcome the first sunrise not only of the new year but also the new Millenium as it came over the islands. That same day, my friend from London called. I said, "you won't believe what happened to me last night", without a pause she said, "you felt like as if a mouse turned itself around in your head, left side".I was speechless, I asked, "how did you know that"? she just laughed and told me "don't worry they are just making adjustments for your learning and for receiving your gifts" It seemed this was now my life, something new everyday and nothing seems too wierd, it's been that way ever since my visitation, the learning is never over and I hope it never is. I never knew of changes with my abilities unitl they happened unless I actually asked for them ,In retrospect, i'm sure my soul knew what the plan was. Everything we do on this plane of existence is based on an preagreed path, chosen with soul family and Guides before we arrive here I hadn't contacted my inner "self" for such a long time the when the time came for me to address my purpose, I was still swallowed up in my five sensory world. The Five Sensory consists of all the funtions the body requires to communicate our surroundings to our inner self. the brain sorts them out and we function accordingly. The five senses consist of seeing, hearing, smelling, tasting and touching. The sense we lose touch with the most or in some cases don't ever recognize it's existence is our "Sixth Sense". The structure of a human being as such consists of different elements, the body, the brain and the soul. This being the case that would make the body the vehicle, the brain the onboard computor and the soul as the driver. Thus, the on board computor the brain, is very effective, it's designed to constantly monitor and make you question your decisions own decisions, the ones that come from the "gut", this is to test your Trust and Faith in "Self". For example, when beginning a trip the driver picks a route, this comes instinctively from your inner voice, one that is based on your "gut feeling". The computer then gives you the choice of five other routes you could take that may sound even more plausible than your first choice. If the driver falters and becomed confused, loses Faith in their own choice and goes with the computor, he may be taking a rouite that in fact, is wrong, the brain gives choices that aren't always right and in fact may be designed to take you to the wrong destination which, by the time we arrrive, that fact is obvious, letting us know just that. How many wrong choices we make indicates how many times we didn't find the faith within our own decisions. . When we find ourselves lost, stuck and off track, you can bet the driver's choice was the one not taken, the gut feeling is always from the soul, the first voice from the depth of whom we are is usally a safe bet. The only time this will backfire is if it's decided on for a less than spiritual reason. . After many years of letting the computer win, the driver finds him/herself in places they never wanted, nor needed to be, even revisiting old lessons they've taken and moved on from before. When the driver has finally had enough of these setbacks he takes back control of the vehicle from the Comutor, knowing the journeys seem to always end in old negative results, this is when they find life's lessons begin to be positive instead of negative. Your life becomes more directed when you refuse to listen to the confusion that originates from fear and uncertainty.Suddenly you're visiting new places, having new experiences, taking on new lessons and your life becomes positive. Just like that. There are many ways to access your inner self, Meditation is the way in, once you remove the unwarranted confusion of your daily life, you clear a channel to reach within and beyond yourself, with that the journey to discovery begins. To move forward one must take back control of self and deal with all the negative issues that we have accumulated along the way. Most of the baggage we carry isn't our own. We carry old judgements made on us by others standards and expectations that aren't even based on what we want for ourselves, such as, a parent who wanted to be a doctor, model, etc, they try to fulfill their dreams through the lives of their children, meaning well doesn't justify the results, often, a feeling of inadequacy and an inability to achieve what was "foreseen" for them. the reason we don't often achieve careers picke for us, is because we have no interest in them, thus, we don't apply ourselves. This then isn't our issue except for the releasing of the baggge. You will find thatonce baggage is released it naturally returns to it's rightful owner. Most people usually project in their controling manner a reflection of their own "self", Unable to deal with the wieght of their own self image, they transfer it to others, then deal with the issue from a distance, interesting isn't it. The process of living is a relatively siimple one, only made difficult by our over indulgence and over involvement in simple lessons, We sometimes involve ourselves in others lives, occasionally in a negative way, although it's done with good intentions we become the ones who then apply judgements and therfore baggage upon others because of how we feel 'they" should handle their lives or lessons. We also have to reflect upon how much "guidance" is warranted or in fact, has even been requested from us. Above all, respect others paths and space.Their right to make their own decsions, right or wrong. The fact that we learn as much, if not more from bad decisiions, says it all, in fact we can't NOT learn, as long as we stay connected to our sixth sense and not repeat any. It's improper to invite yourself into the space of another, unless perhaps to test the waters and ask if they would like some input. if it's no, we need to respect that and allow others their own space to learn, allow them to make mistakes.The lessons hardest learned are often those best kept. Imagine, with my gifts, if I were to walk up to someone in a store and advise them on their problems? I offer my insights and only those asked for. Those who wish to read my books or come to my seminars, they do so by free will, I don't invade their space, I invited them into mine..There is nothing more aggravating than to have someone not listen to your refusal of help. if you push yourself and opinions down someones throat, they won't be there very long. Life is a constant rise and fall of emotional tides, one lesson follows another, No matter how hard they seem there is nothing we can't overcome if we are spiritually based, granted there will be times when all we can do is crawl away and recover, regain one's strength, the measure of success is not to remain hidden away from life but to again stand, ready for the next swell allow the pain to become your strength. We alone, decide whether we grow or become victims of life. I was camping on Vancouver Island in the summer of 2002, more of an enforced retreat by my guides, for the time I was there I was subjected to cold, rain, little food, little money and no people, I was placed in a vacuum. When I rode my bike to town no one saw me, I would pass people on the street, no contact at all, I was a non-person in the five sensory., it was as if I only existed within my own concept of self, interestingly, when I began to reach out, say hello to people and became more open to life around me, that was when it turned around, the day it happened, I had five people in a two block area smile broadly and greet me. We get back that which we send out, examine your day. The reaching out with love is every individuals responsibility, not just the other persons. A week later, I was standing in a grove of sixty foot trees, so many answers and insights and answers surround us. The sun was shining brightly, lighting up the green crowns of these giants. I became aware of a Swiss Tourist standing a few feet to the right and behind me somewhat. Looking up, he said, "is there a bear there"? I said "no,,no bear". I continued looking up, his curiostiy became too much for him, again, he asked moving closer, to better see where I was looking, "then, what are you looking at, what do you see"? I asked,"what do you see"? "trees, just trees, what do you see"? I looked at him, with the patience of a monk, "well" I said, " I see our life's journey, we begin our growth from seed, then, along with many others, we strive to achieve growth and direction, as we progress within this cycle of living, some branches become broken, some twisted, some stunted, this is the same as our pains, lost loves, dissappointments, things that leave a mark within us, things that tear at our base, the broken branches, the ones near the trunk, are our deepest losses, such as death, betrayals, things that cut us the deepest, these branches create our greatest strengths, a knot, much stronger than the tree itself is formed, created when we heal, making the tree stronger in it's path upward" looking around, he asked of the trees that lay, broken and dead beneath the others, "waving his hand in a dismissing manor he asked, "what of these that failed what good are they to life"? I told him, "to me they are the suicides or the ones who have died so others may live, some gave of themslves so others would succeed, the lesson gained here, is in how they show us their strengths as weaknesses, suicides are only souls who were given the free wlll to try to achieve more than the age of their souls could accomplish, in some ways they were brave to attempt such a challenge, suicides have a place in heaven as do the trees here, met by a myriad of healing Angels they are sheltered and healed, not caste out, punshed nor left to wander time forever, God is all loving all forgiving, uncondtional love, we cannot fail in God's eyes but fail in our own eyes constantly", I asked if he were still with me, he eagerly shook his head, a definite yes. Looking up I said " now see the tops, the trunks are barren below yet above, is the wonderful brilliance and greenery of success, reaching the light, and brimming with the success of it's achievement,,the celebration of all, when we pass over, and give to those who follow, the the benefit of our example and our knowledge of direction to strengthen their path, these trees my friend, are you and I and everyone around us", he looked up then at me and with his eyes full of emotion said, "my friend, you come from a far, far different place within than I, in just five minutes, you've shown me spiritually, what i've sought to understand all of my life, I'm seventy five years old and I"ve always looked beyond the answer, it was right in front of me all this time, thankyou, I've just been on a cruise to Alaska but this has to be the highlight of my trip", he shook my hand and left. I watched him walk away, shaking his head, heavy in thought, By sharing my thoughts I had helped this man's journey come to a realization of self and purpose before it ended, giving me such a wonderful feeling.inside, I knew there and then why I was here Think life over, don't overthink life. In reality, we all know the answers we seek, people every year flock to places such as Tibet, India, for Spiriual answers. TIbet I can understand, yet India? this has always amazed me, this is a country, that beats, stones and burns young women for having poor dowries, has a class system that labels souls as "untouchables" arranged marriages based on financial and social position not love, this is not an atmosphere condusive to spiritual enlightenment. I have Indian friends on the Internet ask me how to Meditate. The first time I heard this, I couldn't believe it, the majority of Indians, the working class, don't know how to, as one said "it's simply sold to the Westerners who come here to find it. it's not for us", What we always do is look elsewhere for the answer, the only reasonng I can see for this, is that our history in the Ameriicas is far shorter that other parts of the world, therefore we lack a spiritual base outside of organized religiion.the churches haven't the answers, centuries later, it's still a mess and becoming a bigger one, the collapse of the churches as we know them today, was shown to me in my visitation, 2012, I was told the largest abusers in the church administrations of the world will fall first, taking longer because of their size, the Catholic Church is a prime example, their end as a controller through fear, is over, the recent Catholic Youth meet in Toronto recently was an indication of just that, just another step towards their year of demise. I was on a radio talk show recently in Ontario, I used an example there of where the churches are today, I said, " when Jesus walked this earth, he went out and spread the word, passed the message of Love, he had nothing, wore sandals, poor clothes, he preached love of self, your neighbour and God, the Church of the day said to Rome, " this man's a threat, he must be gone", shortly thereafter to the loss of the world, he was gone, now, IF he were to walk again, what would the church say this time? "we are the way, we are the answer, he;s a Cult leader", he would be gone again. True there are Cult leaders, here is how you can tell. If someone tells you, they are the answer, they are the way and thay unless you follow him God won't accept you, then run. The Catholic Church doesn't accept divorced people, gays, the list goes on, it sounds more like a private country club more than a place to find the unconditional Love that God has for all his children. .We all have the ability to find God, its within our very own souls, we are of God, particles of his being, not with a cult leader nor with a controlling church, they both have the same financial goals. Fall in and follow like a sheep?, no thankyou, if im in a flock it's God flock im in, i'll walk with God within my own light and his, not someon else. Now that i've stirred that rat's nest up, lets do some followup for those who wish to walk their own paths, with free will, as I've noteed already, most people carry the guilts and baggage of others, you have to address all of those issues, list them if needed on a sheet of paper, it helps to extermalize them, gets them out, then go within, beyond the emotions and anger that cloud the issues, to really identify under what conditions they arrived at your doorstep, now look at the person or persons who delivered them, is what they have judged you as being, merely a reflection of themselves? If so, then return the baggage to it's rightful owner, my guess is, that will eliminate two thirds of your list. When you release the baggage, do it directly to the Universe verbally, somewhere no one can see nor hear you, release it without restriction. then again on paper, write it out covering all points from the beging also noting which baggage is ours and dealing with that also, finding forgiveness with self is also an important issue here. If some souls have passed over or moved, the issues can still be resolved, there is no seperation with time and/or place. At the end of this process, take your paper with all that baggage on it and burn it at a beach,,in a fireplace at home, or wherever you won' t be arrested for he huge fire you've buiilt, watch the words dissappear into space with the fire and smoke, to be neautralized and returned to Positvie energy, now replace all that empty space, with a positve outlook, let it fill with the light of love and healing. I suggested this to a friend and her daughter a few years ago, by the time they had found all the things to burn, their list and personals from the old issues, they were worried about the police being called to the beach with a fire report, they had bags of things to burn.. This method has been used many times with good results, The responsibility to move ahead is ours and only ours. I can show you how to do it but the work is ultimately yours, release the old and allow the new, "heal"..