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Sometimes I wonder how I think
And whether or not I'm missing a link
the things I do seem so off course
Is my life being controlled from some unknown source?
Days go by when I curl up and cry
locked in my room radio blasting and I don't even know why
These feelings I have I don't understand
Some days I wish someone would just take me by my hand
walk me through life so I can close my mind
give me a chance to see what I need to find
my mind is in a foggy daze
I can't seem to find my way out of this never ending maze
Some days I'm fine others I'm not
I can't seem to appreciate all that I've got
My feelings are one edge I'm ready to jump
I feel so emotionally exhausted my body has sunk
Can't someone listen just for a while
I'm sick of hearing, "you've just got to smile"
I want to be free from all my worries and guilt
Free before my heart is so damaged it wilts
Copyright �2003 Genevieve Louise Rich
If you took the time to think things through,
You would see my feelings rarely are not blue.
My mind is complex not simple at all,
I put up to many boundaries and walls.
To get inside me all you have to do is try,
You can't just shut me out and cry.
I feel like an outcast in my own home,
Crying up in my room I feel so all alone.
My life is an empty hole,
And my heart feels so heavy and full.
I wanted to talk I was ready to share,
I wanted you to hold me and tell me you cared.
I know I said some things that were wrong,
But I want you to know I'm sorry and will be for very long.
Tonight I really want to die,
My heart hurts so bad all I can do is cry.
I have no one to talk to now,
Thoughts are running through my head about taking my final bow.
You say you love me but it doesn't show,
Your hurtful words hit me like a powerful blow.
All I can say to sum up how I feel,
Is death has never looked so real.
So please don't shut me out and not tell me a thing,
You don't know what's going through my mind you don't know a thing.
Copyright �2003 Genevieve Louise Rich
Fear is something deep within me it holds me down inside,
Like chains are on my ankles and straps are on my sides,
I want to be so daring but it really isn't me,
How can I get these chains off so everyone can see?
The chains have broken loose now, my life is so off course,
What happened to me lately? I need to find the source,
My mind is on a rampage, I'm torn between two lives,
My days seem so unreal, just the thought gives me hives.
The chains have gone back on now, there is no middle ground,
What I once had thought was lost, I have finally found,
Yet I�m once again afraid, of things that I shouldn�t be,
can�t someone help me find, a place where I can see?
Chaos slowly comes back, I really don�t know why,
Am I doing this to myself? I think I�m going to cry,
My life is at a halt, I feel like I've been shunned,
The chains keep coming loser and the straps have come undone.
Copyright �2003 Genevieve Louise Rich
Lock me up throw away the key,
Darkness all around me not able to see.
I got myself here I am the only on to blame,
All I have inside me is guilt and shame.
Do you still love me I can't really tell?
Inside I'm screaming outside so ready to yell.
How much longer will I feel this way?
Please don't tell me I know what you're going to say.
All I want is everything to be right,
I'm done I'm sick of all these fights.
Please just hold me tell me you care,
Is that really so much for you to share?
Copyright �2003 Genevieve Louise Rich
I close my burning blood shot eyes,
My heart is slowly swelling,
My mind forever dwelling,
Arms are like boulders and I don't know why,
Shallow tears scream out, yet I still can't cry,
Mouth so dry like the desert ground, should I keep telling?
My tired mind is quietly yelling,
The pain inside me grows so large I let out a long awaited sigh,
Lethargically the clouds clear from head,
Arms are balloons floating in the air,
Every salty tear I shed
Is another thing inside me I finally share?
The glistening sun streams into my room and settles on my bed
The warm rays dry my tears and let me know someone cares
Copyright �2003 Genevieve Louise Rich
I'm like a flower pretty but weak,
Push me I fall, there go my feet.
I'm delicate inside but hide it so well,
I need to be more open like a loud ringing bell.
I'm like the weather I'm always changing inside,
Would you still listen to me if I tied to confide?
Outside I'm tuff like the bark on a tree,
But inside I'm weak all I want is to be free,
Free to unravel like a ball of yarn,
Weep openly and not worry how I may have caused you harm.
Your like an evergreen you stand strong on your feet,
Inside your brave open and sweet.
Why can't I be more like you?
I could be the one who may get pushed but stands strong and wont move.
Copyright �2003 Genevieve Louise Rich
One day the stars will fall from the sky
Beauty that is here will forever die
Passion will perpetually cease to exists
But somehow gods love will persist
From ocean to ocean sorrow will be
Taking everybody's ability to see
The smoke that covers the sky above
Will terminate all the children's love
The house that you call home today
Will be nothing more than a price to pay
For without warmth inside that place
It is nothing more than a empty case
People will work days will go on
Yet all emotion will forever be gone
Blatant faces fill the streets
No one hides there simple feats
A world without tender thoughts
Will eventually waste away and rot
Copyright �2003 Genevieve Louise Rich
Her eyes were swollen, full with tears,
Slowly shedding all her fears,
Body shaking with emotion,
Tears are salty like the ocean,
Blue surrounds her every bone,
She suddenly feels so alone,
Heart is deep like a well,
Emotions covered by a granite shell,
Try and hold her, she will run,
She takes the bullets from the gun,
Even though she feels so low,
She knows she can handle every blow,
With each problem that comes her way,
She knows that with him she'll get through each day.
Copyright �2003 Genevieve Louise Rich
