| Ah Heng's Diary |
| Date: 1st January 2002 (First entry) It is the start of a new year... A look back at last year has proved to yeild nothing really great. Apart from graduating from my Honors course, it seems that the future looks a bit bleak. With no galfriend and nothing to my name yet, this new year is a year to start everything anew. Forget about past achievements and forget about past pains. A man can start anything with his hands if he wishes to. This year is going to be a good year. Plans: Get a successful job if possible. Earn money to invest first. Work on the business part-time and get the proposal going. When office is ready, quit job and move in. Get a galfriend if possible during this year. Try to find one by numbers. Everything seems difficult but since the recession also hides chances in the future, it might be possible that the above can be achieved. This first entry shall serve as a reminder that my resolutions are my first priority. |
| Date: 1st February One month has passed since the last entry and I've got nothing to be proud of too. Time flies past like nothing. Send a few resumes and as expected, no response. Have been playing pool for the past few weeks and must admit that I enjoyed myself alot. Went to Sunset Bay two weeks ago with Hongda and bring back alot of memories of the past. Well, the bikini-clad gals do look really nice. :-) Went cheong with the 'pros' and discovered what is meant by approaching gals. Will apply my approaching skills next time. Have beeen playing Valkyrie Profile lately and discovered that all realms have their own problems. Life is simply that. There is no satisfaction whatsoever except for this Exact Moment. Life goes on and the Earth revolves around. Consider setting up a Philosophical Page. |
| Date: 9th February Come to think of it, one year has passed since I went to the place where the last hope is placed. Yet there is only disappointment... again. As expected too. And the final one liao. From then on, there is nothing more that I can say. Today marks the first anniversary of this disappointment. Come to think of it, everything has already changed and the feeling is no more. Laughing at myself is suffice to mark my stupidity in the past years. These are the sad moments of life... This year brings a new beginning. Although only subtly, I can clearly feel that the Dao is surely changing and the situation is going to be very different in the future. A trip with the pros to Mdm Wong II yesterday is enough to change the whole path of life. And I know that is true. The very essence of life is to be chosen... and not decided by mere hope. THAT is life man!... (Hee hee... bet you dun understand what I mean) |
| Date: 14th February Tomolo, in fact today is Valentine's Day. Every year is the same. There is much to learn from the mails. This year I have decided to do it... but it seems very difficult to say the least for each case. What's more with more and more being completely eliminated from the list? 3 times of eating is enuff... so why more? Vow that this will not happen again - things must be done at all time and not specifically. It is always a pain to do anything... Well, the pain does seem to subside this year then. This is because I read my mails well, took action and most importantly, understand much much more about them this time round. With knowledge and practice, my chances of success in this long battle is much higher now. The final conflict is near and elimination is higher still. No point remaining the same as everything seems as if nothing has happened. Elimination slightly increases the chance ... so why not?? And I really don't wish to waste time and effort on worthless idiots. Well well. Seems like you dunno what I am muttering eh? Ha ha! That's because you don't know me enough lah! Nevetheless, happy Valentine's Day!! Hmm... All things go as I have planned 2 years ago... they are indeed within the reaches of my hands. |
| Date: 21st February It seems that there is MASSIVE elimination taking place. There is a good function and yet there is none to take up. Hence I have no choice but to eliminate all of them. They deserve it. List is almost empty and needs to be built up again. Today called up Benghwa and it is so good to hear his voice again! It seems that everyone has his or her own way of living and none is superior than the other. Life is nothing but life itself. Decide that I will return to school on Fri? |
| Date: 1st March My Birthday. What a day... one of the most enjoyable birthdays that I have had for some time. Mei and Bi gave me their cards and Bi bought me a cute bear to hang on my room's door. Mum cooked shark's fin for us and it was delicious. Night time go out with Hongda and Hongfa to cheong Mdm Wong. Well, a day well spent. Going to another family dinner this Sunday. |
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