| Hurt How could you do nothing when u see me fall . how could you love me but i feel like youve left me why do you let me feel despair and hopelessness why do you let me crumble everytime i stand , why do you make me so weak why am i so numb to the pain now ? why is this normal this isnt how it should be i dont need to feel this way i know you love me but i feel so alone another bad day gone by im wasting this life , these bestdays of my life and you let me be sad , depressed , hurt and confused. Is it even your fault am i wrong or am i right why cant you talk to me , tell me why ?let your deepest secrets be known to me why do i have to go to the enemy for answers . do you leave me because i brought this on myself? i just want to feel your love again , some one to talk to . i know you wont ever be too busy i know you wont ever turn away . i know all it takes is one step for me to see your face . but i cant lift my face to you now you know how i feel , this is me crying out to you , please answer me tonight . i cant feel this way forever , but ive fallen so far . can i ever come back up again. The crown i wear is old and tarnished , a dull gold nothing one of your children wears .. but iv'e thrown it in the dirt so many times . So many times i dont want to know you . ill swallow my pride , say im sorry ..... but how long till i change , can i change ? |
| this weight bearing down on me , so much i cant see the light at the end , no more i come back to a house not a home if home is where the heart is i have no home lies lies lies i cant beleive anyone cant trust you fuck you my life is nothing to you you tell me not to have one you say die . kill yourself you know nothing of reality death is closer than my next breath god questioned its all coming down around you ill never beleive youll never see me in the real light expressionless face no name face im going insane inane ,mundane. life ,flows by im dying inside im dying inside im nothing im nothing im fucked and im coughing i drink to pain and wake up in pain i close my eyes filled with tears but it doesnt go away your screams down the hall are so loud you dont hear my screaming my soul black as pitch black as the vile i bleed in a ditch and you dont see you dont feel . bleeding is living blood spilled is the key but i dont know just how long i have left all this hurt and hopelessness ive kept inside stuffed down i wont come ballin out help me hurt me save me leave me |
| A perfect mould that ill never fit into maybe thats why you never look at me well sorry im different to what your used to well fuck you , im me dont try to change me A perfect image of beauty but look again ansd tell me are u beautiful insider you wear superficiallity like a suit or armour when will you realise theres nothing left in those shallow waters. |
| i see you every morning you light up th darkest shade of grey but im starting to wonder if it will always be this way You make me feel so loved inside When your arms wrap round me you kiss my forhead , your smell surrounds me And at night when its cold and all i can hear is screaming i think of how ill see you in the morning And a smile changes my shadow in the dark But do i fill your world to ? i love you but love is mutual or dead. i suppose ill know when you say its over but until then ill love your hugs and you kisses even more |
| You dont know it now everything i felt, weight lifted im becoming myself ,veil of apathy and depressed comes off Now that he's gone its just you and me and my faiths creeping back knife in the draw instead of in my hand The waste felt in me something he didnt see But now he's gone Im Free The silence is usually to much to bear but this time its golden The wine is much sweeter My face glows much brighter Im where the grass is much greener The music doesnt have the drowning sound i used to hear Im free |
| i keep falling falling back into you i keep falling back into you taken by the feeling ripped apart by the hurt you push me down to be first left wasted with this after taste remorse and regret fills my head i feel nothing but waste bleeding is believeing but i believe its just a lie pushed into conformity your just one in a crowd dont be scared to look inside .............and find nothing there |
| wasted for you im watching im waiting everything is a blur ive torn myself apart for you again if only you could see these scars, the pain that keeps me sane all these feelings for hate in me all these things wished to be to know you , to know me love is pain love is lust love keeps no record of wrongs but you have a list in your room pull me out of this i just cant take it suffer in silence im dying pushing me up , dragging me downits all the same to you but you hear no sound i guess i dont car anymore my eyes turn from blue to grey i fall and pray fall on my knees fall on my face ill find my place |
| Now your gone |
| smile in the dark |
| untitled |
| despair, run over |
| fall |
| perfect |
| hurt |
| the constant whirrings of my mind ... |