| Chapter 2 |
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| I watched Kate as we pulled up to the dock. I couldn't understand how my feelings for her had suddenly changed so dramatically. I hopped out and sat on a bench while Taylor and Isaac tied up and cleaned the boat. "Why have you been so quiet today? That's not like you. Are you alright?" She asked grabbing my hand. I loved the feeling of her touching me. I knew it was wrong, but I loved it. She had a boyfriend, and she was supposed to be like a sister to me. But instead, I had to go and fall in love with her. What made it even worse was that I didn't have enough guts to tell her, or to act on it. I nodded my head in response to her question, "Yeah...I'm fine." I said turning up the corners of my lips to force a smile. I had known this girl for 16 years and this same girl that I felt so comfortable around just the day before, I now was nervous with. "Come on Zac! What's wrong with you?!" She asked rubbing my hand. "Nothing...I am just tired." I said. "Okay cranky," she teased, pulling her body into mine and hugging me. On the car ride home, Kate voiced her suspicions toward Jensen. I wanted to tell her what I really thought of him, I could have bad-mouthed him the entire ride home. But, I knew that that would only upset her, so I kept my mouth shut and let Taylor and Isaac give their politically correct explanations of Jensen. That night I sat on the porch swing and stared out into the clear night sky. Kate walked up the front path and sat next to me. "Are you okay Kate? You know...about the whole Jensen thing?" I asked stumbling over my words. "Yeah..." She said unsurely, "I just, kinda miss him. I know that I probably shouldn't, but he is my boyfriend" She said leaning her head on the back of the porch swing. "You deserve better than him. He's an ass Kate. Don't you understand what an amazing person you are? Jensen didn't understand what he has." My words fell out of my mouth before I could stop them. I didn't want to upset her, but she deserved to know what I thought. "Me and Taylor wanted to invite you to go to the Grammy's with our family. You know to get your mind off things." I said, quickly trying to cover my ass. She wrapped her arms around me and kissed my cheek. "That's really sweet, thanks." We sat in the swing for almost an hour together. When she finally left, I raced inside and I sat at the piano where I poured my heart out: Every single time I see you I start to feel this way It makes me wonder if I'm ever gonna feel this way again There's a picture that's hanging in the back of my head I see it over and over I want to hold and love you in my arms and then I want to need you cause I need to be with you 'til the end Then I hear myself reply you've got to hold it in This time tonight If only I had the guts to feel this way And if only you'd look at me and want to stay And if only I'd take you in my arms and say I won't go cause I need you I sit here waiting, wondering, hoping that I'll make this right Cause all I think about is your hands Your face and all these lonely nights There's a feeling screaming in the back of my head Saying over and over... I want to hear you say It'll always be this way We'll be hand in hand for every night and every day I want to scream and shout Cause I'm losing any doubt And all I care about is you and me and us and now |