deardiary06

    "Hi Jared." Madison said sweetly into the telephone, "Oh, oh yeah I am ok yeah I understand...yeah sure no I will. Bye" Madison said her face falling with sadness. As she layed her head back down onto the couch the phone rang again.
     "Hello?" She answered, "Oh hi Eric. Sure I guess I am still going. What time are you picking me up? Fifteen minutes, ok see you then bye." Madison got up and ran into her bedroom searching through her closet for the perfect outfit. She put it on and ran back out into the hall.
     "Where are you going?" Jake asked holding his door open.
     "Oh suddenly you care." Madison said rolling her eyes at him.
     "No I still don't but you look like a total slut with that shirt. I can see everything. And that skirt is way too short." He answered back looking at her, wrinkiling his nose. Madison looked herself up and down in the mirror. Cute black skirt, yes a little short, but as she liked to call it 'sexy'. And the top definetly was low cut, but all the girls she was hanging out with now were wearing them like that. Suddenly as she was looking in the mirror a car honked it's horn. Madison grabbed her bag and walked gracefully out the front door.

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***October 14, 2000:
    Tonight I went over to Shellie's house with Eric. I saw Jared there. He brought some girl from another school. She was a lot prettier than me. But Eric was so flirty. He kept complimenting me and saying how much hotter I was than all the other girls there. I ended up in Shellie's parent's bedroom with him. I didn't get home until like three in the morning. But like always nobody noticed. At least my friends care how I am.

***October 15, 2000:
    Today I went on a date with Justin. He took me out to chinese food and then to the movies. We fooled around for almost the whole movie. He is pretty cute. But I think he is like Eric's best friend, oh well it doesn't matter. I saw dad today after school. He had to get some documents off the computer. He didn't even come looking for me. He went straight to the office and then left again. Not even a hello. I saw mom last night. She came home with a pizza. She dropped it on the table, and disappeared into the hall. Not a word was said. My brothers hardly ever acknowledge me unless it's to put me down. But I have to say that I haven't really been home much anway. I am always at a party, or out with a guy. When I am there it seems like I am the center of attention, unlike home.

***October 17, 2000:
    Sorry I missed a night in here. I ended up spending the night at this guy's apartment that I met yesterday. We were all at Kimmy's house when he came over. Totally gorgeous. Bleached blonde, muscular, tall, and a really good kisser. He took me back to his place and brought me home this morning. I remember a while back when I though sex was dirty. But now I know how wrong I was. It's not dirty, it's more like a pass-time, like watching tv or playing basketball. But much more entertaining. And with these guys, they make me feel attractive, they make me feel desireable. Which is more than I can say for my so called family. At home I feel unwanted.

***November 20, 2000:
    I haven't written in a while but I haven't been home in a while either. I have been out on a date almost every night and most of them end up being over nighters. I have been out with Jason, Derrick, Chris, Rob, another blonde (I forget his name), and a few others I am forgetting. I met this guy named Ted at a restaurant and he asked me out tonight. He said he is going to take me out for a dinner and drinks! He is twenty-three and really hot! I have all these hot guys asking me out, buying me gifts and telling me how beautiful I am, but I still feel sad. Although I have a lot of fun when I am out and partying, it seems like when I get home all I can do is cry. It is really weird. I should be really happy. But I'm not. Maybe Ted will be my prince charming. You never know, I have a good feeling about him.