Troy

TROY... my little brother.

POEMS BY TROY

TROY HAS WRITTEN TONS OF POEMS. EACH ONE I THINK WORTH PUTTING HERE. ENJOY HIS TALENT

ITS OBVIOUS YOU LEFT BEHIND, A PART OF YOU, YOU CALL A MIND. A FRIEND AT FIRST I THOUGHT YOU WERE. NOW I THINK YOU NEED A CURE. BLIND AT FIRST BUT CAME TO SEE, WHAT YOU REALLY ARE TO ME, A VIRUS HIDING IN SHEEPSKIN, AND THIS IS WHAT YOU'VE ALWAYS BEEN.

STANDING STRONGER THAN A ROCK
ALL TRUE FEELINGS WE MUST BLOCK
OUR WEAKEST FLAWS OUR STRONGEST POINT
THE HARDEST BENDS ON THE WEAKEST JOINT
HOW WE SURVIVE IS CALLED OUR GAME
FOR ONES LIKE US ITS ALL THE SAME
BUILDING WALLS TO HIGH TO CLIMB
EXPRESSING THOUGHTS IN SIMPLE RHYMES
WE DO NOT WALK THAT SIMPLE PATH
WE BLAZE THE TRAILS WITH OUT OWN WRATH
THE LESS THE SOUL THE LESS THE MAN
SO SELF CREATION BECOMES THE PLAN
BUT IN THE END WE ALL WILL SEE
WHATS TO COME OF YOU AND ME

THROUGH THE HAZE OF GUILT AND GREED
THERE IS A QUEST FOR LOVE AND NEED
WHY WE CHOOSE TO RUN AND HIDE
IS ANSWERED BY THE PAIN INSIDE
WE DO NOT KNOW WHAT BRINGS THIS PAIN
DISGUST & FEAR MANIFEST IN VAIN
WE SOMETIMES CAUSE OUR LONELY HELL
LIES AND SECRETS TO HARD TO TELL
WE MUST TRUST BEFORE WE GROW
THROUGH OUR GROWTH OUR LOVE WILL SHOW
WITHOUT SELF GROWTH, ALL WILL FAIL
BOUND IN SOMETHING WORSE THAN JAIL
AND SO YOU KNOW WHATHAS TO BE
I CANT TRUST YOU, TILL I TRUST ME.

TOBACCO BLUES
LISTEN HERE, AND I AINT JOKIN
SEND THE MONEY BEFORE MY LEGS ARE BROKEN.
AND PLEASE SEND IT WITH OUT HASTE
BEFORE THEY PUNCH ME IN MY FACE
IT ALL STARTED CAUSE OF A SMOKIN ITCH
AND NOW I'M ABOUT TO BE SOMEONES BITCH
THE REASON PRISON AINT SO FUN
IS CAUSE THERES NO WHERE YOU CAN RUN
FUN AND JOKE I SET A SIDE
I'M NOT READY TO BE A BRIDE
SO THE MONEY I'LL HOPE YOU'LL SEND
BEFORE ITS MY HEAD THEY'LL HAVE TO MEND
THIS REALLY AINT A JOKE YOU KNOW
SEND FIFTEEN DOLLARS TO THE ADDRESS BELOW
ONE THINGS FOR SURE AND I AINT JOKIN
I SWEAR TO GOD THAT IM THROUGH SMOKIN

TODAY WHILE GOING FROM ROOM TO ROOM, I THOUGHT OF THIS LITTLE CYBER TUNE:
IM HAPPY HAPPY I GOT LAID, AND IN MY HOUSE IS WHERE I STAYED. SIX OR SEVEN WAYS WE HUMPED, OUR DIRTY PARTS WE BUMPED AND BUMPED. AND HAPPY HAPPY I�LL STILL BE, IF THEIR FACE I NEVER SEE.

WHAT SEEMS LIKE ONLY YESTERDAY, YOU STOLE MY LONELY HEART AWAY. AND AT THAT TIME I DID NOT KNOW, HOW MUCH OUR LOVE WOULD ONLY GROW. THROUGH THE GOOD TIMES, AND TIMES I LIED, YOU WERE ALWAYS THERE BY MY SIDE. BUT YOU FELL FOR A BROKEN SOUL, AND AFTER TIME IT TOOK ITS TOLL. CRAZY IN LOVE, AND IN MY HEAD, I NEVER THOUGHT OF THINGS I SAID. IT SEEMS YOUR LOVE IS ALL BUT GONE, AND I�M THE ONE WHO DID THE WRONG. WHEN YOU LOOK BACK AT WHAT WE HAD, DON�T THINK OF THINGS THAT MAKE YOU SAD. REMEMBER ONLY ONE TRUE THING, ALL THE LOVE YOUR SOUL DID BRING. AND MAYBE IN ANOTHER LIFE, YOU WILL COME TO BE MY WIFE.

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IT SEEMS THE END IS FINALLY HERE, THE LOVE WE SHARED I�LL HOLD SO DEAR. NEVER IN THIS LIFE I�VE HAD A LOSS THAT MADE ME HURT SO BAD. WE LOVED SO MUCH BUT DID NOT TRY, TO STAY TOGETHER TILL WE DIED. I�M SORRY THAT I DID NOT SHOW, THE LOVE I HAD YOU�LL NEVER KNOW. YOU�LL NEVER KNOW THE PAIN I FEEL, FROM THE FATE I�VE ALL BUT SEALED. I�LL NEVER LOVE AS MUCH AS I , WILL FEEL FOR YOU UNTIL I DIE.

WE LIVE LOVE AND ASK NOT WHY. TO FIND ANOTHER WE NEED
NOT TRY. WE CAME TOGETHER FOR AN UNKNOWN GOAL, OUR HEARTS WERE MENDED BY LOVING SOULS. AND IN MY HEART THERE IS A LOVE, ONE THAT�S SENT FROM UP ABOVE. THAT NOT ONE SINGLE WORD CAN SHOW, HOW MUCH MORE MY LOVE WILL GROW. AND JUST AS SKYS ARE CRYSTAL BLUE, SO IS ALL MY LOVE FOR YOU.

MERRY CHRISTMAS MOM AND DAD, FOR GOD HAS MADE ME VERY GLAD.
THERE IS NOTHING TO HOLD ME DOWN, NOTHING MAKES ME SAD OR FROWN. ITS ALL BECAUSE HE�S IN MY HEART, THAT WE WILL NEVER BE APART. SO AT THIS TIME GIVE TO YOU, A LOVE THAT IS STRONG AND TRUE. HE FORGAVE ME OF MY SINS, AND TO YOU I MAKE AMENDS. A FAMILY WE�VE BECOME AGAIN, PRAISE TO JESUS, MY BEST FRIEND.

WORDS ARE LIKE THE TOOLS, THAT EXPRESS WHAT WE THINK,
THE THOUGHTS THAT WE HAVE CAN BE LOST IN A BLINK.
SOMETIMES OUR WORDS SAY MORE THAN THEY MEAN,
AND THE SECRETS THEY HIDE IS OFTEN NOT SEEN.
SO WHEN YOU READ WORDS PUT DOWN WITH CARE,
THE THOUGHT ONE HAD WROTE, YOU TOO WILL THEN SHARE.
SO LOOK AT THOSE WORDS AS A PUZZLE TO MAKE.
AND THE IDEAS ONE HAD, WILL SOON BE ONES YOU CAN TAKE.

In this life we might not see
what was really meant to be.
But if you listen, what might be found
a message sent without a sound.
What it says is hard to hear,
but dont be scared, its not to fear.
Once in a life yime God may place,
the one true love right in your face.
So what might seem as bright as gold,
has another story to be told.
And the one whos meant for only you,
sits alone waiting for a que.
To be the man he has to be,
the one true love she has to see.

Sometimes in the darkness light is found.
Sometimes in silence there is sound.
Where there is pain theres sometimes hope.
In tragedy we sometimes seem to cope.
The answers are not always seen
but we can find them if we dream.
We can always overcome
if we choose not to run.
There always is a better way,
God will listen if you pray.

I miss my family oh so much.
Their faces how I long to touch.
I regret mistakes I have made,
all the debts I havent paid.
Many times I've felt insane,
and in those times I brought much pain.
I pray to god for a brand new start,
and then he and I will never part.
I want a life without the sin.
I want my familys love again!

Troy has made some bad choices in his life as you will be able to tell by the poems he has written. I wish him all the best.

To my dearest mom and dad
please dont fret and dont be sad
   Im sorry for the roads Ive took
like chillin chapters from a horror book
   I know that you are not to blame
Im the one who caused the pain
   I am so lonely and so sad
and that is why I do so bad
   I know that somewhere deep inside
Is that boy who gave you pride
I only wish that I could find
That joy that gives you peace of mind
   but please dont waste these golden years
On things I do that cause you fear
   I am so sorry for what Ive done
Like a con..not near a son
   I pray to god you live to see
Peace and love reside in me.

Despite the hazards we may find- even if we're maimed and blind-
If the carpet is pulled right from our feet- our goals we set we still must meet-
We might question why its us- why theres no one we can trust-
Karma could be whats to blame- or maybe it is just a game-
That we've been placed and not by choice- where we cant vote- we have no voice-
And although we try to do whats right- each move we make is made a fight.

What is really going on? Have all the partiers up and gone?
How more boring can this get? Id rather go and take a shit.
Whats it take to join this club? Should I go and sink a Nazi sub?
Or maybe win a Nobel prize, maybe lie about cock size?
High school could compare to this, something I will never miss.
The guy/girl groups can make me sick, maybe I should start a clique.
Is desperate what you think I am? Just because you have a clam?
Hope that builds some self esteem, cuz you r living a wet dream.

I miss you brother...so bad.

What He Holds Dear
Troys Words

Im Trying not to loose my way, but what a struggle everyday.
So turned around from where I came,
and I'm the only one to blame.
The tears I shed, they cant be seen,
behind the mask of a heartless fiend.
Why do I choose the rocky path,
when where it leads is God's harsh wrath?
Is there a point when the pain will stop,
and all the fear I learn to drop?
I pray that joy will soon be mine,
and what brings pain is left in time.
Until my life has ceased to hurt,
there will be days with death I flirt.
What really has to happen here,
Is giving up what I hold dear.

Hope I Have One
Troys Words

I right my life, finding myself.
I trust only me, I trust, no one else.
Finding my path, with no eyes to see.
Trusting no friends, I trust only me.
Hiding from fires, that burn me so bad.
I have only friends, that just make me sad.
I just get older, with a sad painful past.
And yet have I found a friendship that lasts.
Long lost friendships, and old lonely
friends. I hope I have one...
before my life ends.