Well, I just woke up from a tough day yesterday that started around 7:30 am and ended when I got home around 1:30 am. Just the way it works out sometimes. But it was nice to be in Lurray last night and just sit for a few minutes to gaze up at the clear night sky and see just how brilliant the night sky can be. Now I have to "get my ass in gear" and really be productive so that I can try to finish up some of these jobs that I have so much money invested in. I'm still thinking about what to do for my bday. I suspect that I'll probably just go to Nation to see the Covenant show. I don't know of anything else happenning that would interest me. I haven't really told anyone about it, so I suspect that hardly anyone will know about it, which actually suits me fine. (Not trying to sound bitter here) But I prefer to be appreciated by those that honestly care, rather than anyone who feels like making a big deal to embarrass me. (I can do that quite well on my own, thank you)
I have to run for now, but I'll write more later......
5/4/03
Interesting weekend... Went to Bound Friday night and discovered many intruiging things about different people, especially myself. Amongst those, were finding friends who looked to me for insight, advice, and/or compassion in dealing with things in their lives. This wasn't the exactly light-hearted convo, but I was proud to be looked up to in that regard, and hopefully it helped them too. I just don't understand why people continue to do things and stay in bad situations that are against their best interest. It would only make sense to me that if you weren't happy you'd move on rather than to continue being in a situation that makes you unhappy. But I'm certainly not to judge. I've been there myself. But at least I learned from it. Anyways... I also, watched a band that started out being a little bit off, but was actually pretty good. The band was pretty tight and had a kinda Primus sound. The singer seemed to have a Marilyn Manson type character, but his singing ability left a lot to be desired. But altogether they were surprisingly good. I also discovered something intruiging about someone else. My birthday is actually shared! It seems, however, that when I'm face to face, my mind races with all the things that I'd like to say, to the point that I become nervous and I know it shows. Maybe I'm just too... Well, my mind is just too full of "things I'll never say".... (as my mind wanders on the whims of fantasy)
Saturday I awoke early to go house hunting. I'm trying to find a place that Brian and I can have Logan. Logan is just a puppy but needs a bit of space. He turned 1 year old yesterday and is a 140 lb Newfoundland. He's georgeous, intelligent, and friendly. I couldn't see him being given up easily, so it's going to be a bit of a challenge to find a place that we can have him on such short notice. I went to check out some places in Old Town Alexandria and found that they were having an arts festival on the strip. So I went and checked out some of the incredible and talented artwork and got a henna design on my neck. I don't think that my skin absorbed it too well, but it looks pretty cool. At first it looked light, kinda like a hicky, but it's much darker today. After all day at that, I went to see Oddbox play at the State Theatre. That was pretty cool. There was a lot of good friends that I haven't seen in a long time. It was nice to catch up. I've missed the company of many of them. Plus, the performance sounded great! I hope to get a copy of the video soon. Then Brian and I went to a party where we ended up seeing some people that we haven't seen since highschool. That was kinda neat. I wasn't really in the mood to drink, so I only had one. But it was good. At the end of the night, I had this interesting debate/convo. Someone suggested that they had given up much of their identity to accommodate their partner. I can't believe that is the way to healthily love someone in a relationship. I think that individuality is what draws me to be interested in someone else. I think that as a couple grows together, they are both doing two things. They are both discovering and evolving who they are individually, and they are both interested in the evolution of their partner. That is what draws constant new interest in discovering their partner and themselves together. And that is a bond that grows together as love grows. That's something that both partners ought to encourage not only in themselves, but in their partners. This will not only encourage each other to grow, but you will always be exciting and new, not just to yourself, but to your partner. You will never just grow bored of one another. That's not to say that you have to love everything that they do, but that you encourage it and are always the primary interest/love of one another. And that can be an incredible thing. A love that will forever be exciting and new.....
5/8/03
Holy crap!!! I'm exhausted. But our team won the first round of the tournament last night! That's awesome! But it means I'll have to compete Friday evening... Anyways, it's a short day for me, so I get to take a nap before everything this afternoon and this evening. This sux though because I'm here trying to make a bday cd and I'm finding a bunch of them missing/misplaced... hmmm....well, i'm off!!! And Happy Bday to the bday girl!
5/9/03
I can't believe I have no hangover! Maybe I just haven't sobered up yet... Why exactly did I go on the drinking spree that I did? That was complete overkill. starting at 5:00 with 2 beers, 2 shooters, a rum adn coke, 2 151 shooters, 2 rum adn cokes, another shooter, a pitcher fo beer, another shooter, and then I have no idea what I drank fo rthe rest of the evening. And yes, it was in that order! I think that because of it, I was feeling particularly unsensored. It's a good thing that I didn't talk too much last night to certain people. That could've been incredibly embarrassing. So instead I went to the dance floor and did my impression of some drunk guy trying to dance....hehehe Anyways, I think it's about time to get some sleep.