Therapy
I long for your healing embrace
You're the only one I need
Your touch lingers on my skin
Necessities don't matter, all I crave is you
My mind, your hands and your face
I replay moments lost in time and in space
My eyes were open but I wouldn't see

You left without a breeze or a breath
I denied losing you
I didn't go and find you
I let myself fall deeper in regret

I am gaining weight cuz I have no one to stay thin for
I am sleeping late cuz I have no one to wake up to
I am hating myself and the world, and it's not healthy
I love you
I miss you
I'll hold you
I'll kiss you
Just as long as you can love me once more please

And I am gaining weight cuz I have no one to stay thin for
I am sleeping late cuz I have no one to wake up to
I am hating myself and the world, and it's not healthy
I love you
I miss you
I'll hold you
I'll kiss you
If only you could love me once more, please. Please?

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Glass Angel - For Gil Glass
My dad called me the other day
He told me you had passed away
and after he cried I asked, "Are you okay?"
He said he saw you on your last day.

Went to a prayer service
40 more were there
and people were crying
and he was waving his hands in the air
because after he left
and went out on the street
he saw tiny snowflakes
whirring around his feet
and he realized that

A thousand white angels had come down to take you home
Coming down from her throne to take back one of their own
and a thousand white angels that everybody saw
were taking their own justice and left us all in awe

Your body was battling disease
and even after the chemotherapy
You just wanted to be free
and a friend had a vision
she was holding your hand
and sitting beside you was a familiar man
you used to call him daddy when you were young
and now he's helping you become...

one of those white angels circling 'round my father's feet
just to bring the world joy like it felt when you were smiling

and a thousand white angels had come down to take you home
coming down from her throne to take back one of their own
and a thousand white angels that everybody saw
were taking their own justice and left us all in awe

My white winged angel
beautiful and unique
circling 'round my father's feet
Now you're one of those
My white winged angel

And a thousand glass angels had come down to take you home
coming down from her throne to take back one of their own
and a thousand glass angels that everybody saw
were taking their own justice and left us all in awe

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Words of Farewell

I always saw who you could be
that look of a decent person
one who cared for me
shining in your eyes that glimmer I fell for
only to be let down in the end

you were never who you should've been
and I was never your willing slave as you believed
I was only hoping to bring out your better self
but instead I started losing mine

you don't know how hard I've had to try
and I don't know what I'm saying
but I think it's goodbye

Don't expect me to stay now
there's only so much abuse I can take
I've wasted away trying to help you
and become a callous shell that I now hate

and you don't know how hard I've had to try
and I don't know what I'm saying
but I think it's goodbye

I would've done anything for you
as a friend, or more, if you'd wished it
but for you, I was only means to an end
and I never liked being anyone's fool.

so take your games to someone willing to play them
you've pushed me off the merry-go-round one too many times today
my heart is as battered as my body now
and I don't want anymore pain

you don't know how hard I've tried
and I don't know what I'm saying anymore
but I think it's goodbye
I think it's goodbye

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The Quarry

There's a long way down from this pedestal you've placed me on.
I look down to find you, but you've run to the quarry to get some more stones.
You somehow feel the need to build me up higher...
and I don't think I should be here on my own.

You've run to the quarry to get some more limestone
You've run to the quarry to gather more shale
You've run to the quarry and left me behind you
There's something about this that just isn't fair
It isn't fair...

There's a long way down from this pedestal you've placed me on.
I look down to find you, but you've run to the quarry to get some more stones.
You somehow feel the need to build me up higher...
and I don't think I should be here on my own.

You've run to the quarry and left me behind you
there's something about this that just isn't fair
You've run to the quarry and left me behind you
Oh and how I wish - Oh how I wish I was there...

There's a long way down from this pedestal you've placed me on.
I look down to find you, but you've run to the quarry to get some more stones.
You somehow feel the need to build me up higher...
and I don't think I should be here on my own.

And we've (yes, we've) run to the quarry and we're picking up stones
We've run to the quarry, I'm no longer alone!
You'll hold my hand and I'll hold yours
Know that I'll love you forever more...

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Nailed For Realism

They used to burn women like me
for thinking on their own
and they murdered men for religion
in the name of God

and I've been crucified for my wrongs
but who's to say what's right when it hasn't been defined?
and who are you
to nail me to this cross when you too have sinned?

People walk free for murder
and their hostages jailed for less
for "aiding" in the crimes

One judge ruled, "takes two to tango" in a rape case
But would he know?

and I've been crucified for my wrongs
but who's to say what's right when it hasn't been defined?
and who are you
to nail me to this cross when you too have sinned?

Our politicians are corrupt
claiming that patriotism is only for whites
and the people care more when the president sleeps around on his wife
instead of the masses starving and sick at their doors

and I've been crucified for my wrongs
but who's to say what's right when it hasn't been defined?
and who are you
to nail me to this cross when you too have sinned?

and how can my crimes compare to these?
yet, I'm the one hanging here...
and how do my crimes compare to yours?
yet, I'm the one hanging here...

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Modern Day Chivalry

I missed you on the bus
I missed talking to you this weekend
and I am confused
I am diffused
Like a time bomb was strapped to my heart
and you've successfully cut the red wire

Now I lay confused
Eventhough people say you'll throw me flat on my back
knees to the sky
I somewhat want that
Maybe it's your eyes
Well, you're kind of sweeping me off my feet

And I am confused
I'm diffused
But I did miss talking to you this weekend
and I did miss you on the bus
so therefore be flattered
be honored
be fucking flattered

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It's For Myself

I want to learn how to play piano so I can write a decent song
But right now, as I'm singing, the notes sound all wrong
and I wish I had a band
and a venue in which to play
Tonight, it's for myself that I say...

I'm just a poet who has some musical talent
Just a singer with no songs to sing
and I watch all the people performing
and I see them smiling
and I wish I could be like them

They write amazing lyrics that really inspire
and when I listen, I'm on fire
and I sit at the bench and remember what I can play
One-Four Six Four-One-Five Six Five-One
But the progressions seem like they've all been done

I'm just a poet who has some musical talent
Just a singer with no songs to sing
and I watch all the people performing
and I see them smiling
and I wish I could be like them

And my heart belongs on a stage with my body surrounding it
and my band would be the best with music that's astounding
and someone would cry because we touched their soul
yes, that would be our goal.

But right now, I want to learn how to play piano so I can write a decent song
and right now, as I'm singing, the notes sound all wrong
and I wish I had a band
and a venue in which to play
Tonight, it's for myself that I sing...
...just a singer with no songs to sing...
...and I wanna be smiling...I wanna be smiling...

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My Sexuality

Don't pity me, I don't want it
I don't want you to say "aw, it's just a phase"
I don't think this is a cry for attention
Cuz you don't see the tears running down my face

and I choose not to be defined
and I choose to leave my options open
Sorry you don't like unlined
I am trying not to be broken

This is a feeling I'm having right now
Just trying to stay safe
This is not something I can control
Cuz if I could I would just shut up...and wait.

and I choose not to be defined
and I choose to leave my options open
Sorry you don't like unlined
I am trying not to be broken

I'm so tired of trying to stay together
So I'll sleep
Goodnight...

and I choose not to be defined
and I choose to leave my options open
Sorry you don't like unlined
I am trying not to be broken

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Advice to Rid Yourself of a Boogieman

Little child, Little boy
You don't have to hide anymore
Little child, Little girl
You don't have to run away
Little child, Little children
The boogieman has moved away
And you can all come out now
And you can all play
No more tears from evil games
And he won't hurt you anymore
Goodbye...
He used to say "this is our secret"
and he never told his wife
He told her "it's all okay"
and she thought it was anyway
and one day he was gone...
and one day, they were no longer afraid
And I won't cry and I won't run away
the boogieman won't come out to play with me
And I won't cry, no, I won't cry
and we won't take his shit anymore
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, you bastard...

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Not Okay

You think you're all set
You think you're all ready
and you know who you are
and your heart is beating steady
then one day you're sitting infront of a screen
the tears are falling and you hurriedly wipe them clean

Cuz it's not okay to fall
no, it's not okay to fall
no, it's not okay to fall... in love

You realize you're 100 miles away
You realize you're here to stay
You pick up the phone
and no one's home

Cuz it's not okay to fall
no, it's not okay to fall
no, it's not okay to fall... in love

And I have tried to distance myself
And I have tried to hide
And I have tried to distance myself
But I can't lie...

Cuz it's not okay to fall
no, it's not okay to fall
no, it's not okay to fall... in love

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Diving into You

If being in water is why your heart beats
and being in love is like being in water
I want to dive into your world and swim with you
I wanna see your love unfold
I wanna see your love unfold...
When I'm with you, It's always a movie
bright azure skies, hardly any grey
When I'm with you, every thing's perfect
No scripts, no lines, no stage

If saying "I love you" cuts like a knife
Rips out your soul
Makes you unwhole
Let me in to fill the place
Take the empty space
reclaim your face
Cuz it's nothing without your eyes
It's worth nothing if you can't see the skies
Blue like the ocean
white foamy waves
It's almost like being in love

If being in water is why your heart beats
and being in love is like being in water
oh dive into me...dive in with me
fill me inside...
fill me behind my eyes...
so when we sleep...
you'll see me...
you'll be me...
and we'll dream together...

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