new york, new york

chapter 33

I left. I couldn’t stay longer because I was crying too much. I had angry hits on my back when I tried to get out of there.
As I managed to get to the hall, I leaned on the wall. My mind was a one big knot.
-Please give it up for the drummer... I could hear Howie introducing the band.
And I thought that it had been set up. No one could ever just end up to the same city at the same time by accident in the country size of USA. But I couldn’t think clear. It all came back to the same thing: melody. I started crying harder and I knew I would have to leave there before the concert would end.

I rushed to the door. Hall was empty, some parents were standing there and waiting for their daughters.
-Hey, someone yelled. I didn’t turn. -Hey Anna, isn’t that you?
I looked back and saw Tom, the captain of the boat we had sailed on. He had a band on his arm to tell that he was one of the guards.
I didn’t stop. But I cursed it. I had been seen. And then I was out.

It was raining as I walked back to our apartment. I got wet but I didn’t mind because I had nowhere to go, I didn’t feel like going home, I couldn’t answer Peter’s question. I had forgot that they had a performance going. Usually I would have worried of the audience, would anyone come if Johnny was in town, but then I didn’t even remember.

”Is this a sign of his growing anxiety?” I could hear the sarcastic voice in my ears. How dared he to do that to me? It would have been so much easier just look forward instead of looking back to all our memories together. Why did he want to remind me of all that we had? And all we had was just one night, one passing by in the stairs and the last hug at the party. That was all. And at that time it really was all, all I could think about.

What did I do? What did I do wrong to get that kind of statement from them? First AJ singing about us, and then ”Count on me trough thick and thin, our friendship I’ll let never end”. But I did let it end. It just... I think there would have been day when I’d walk on their doors and just say hi, I’m back. But I can’t heal any wounds. Not even mine.

I didn’t want to see AJ. Even if he may have heard those three words too many times, I wouldn’t even be able to say them.

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