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chapter 20

Then what...? Well, I guess that you would like to hear three words and then the other ones and after that it would be big white wedding and baby coming and everybody would be happy. I�m sorry to tell you but that didn�t happen.

I left. He was sleeping there on the floor on all our clothes. Gently I pulled my shirt under his head and he didn�t wake up. And when I looked him lying there sleeping I tried to figure out what we had become.

I didn�t love him. Or, I did. But as a friend or even a brother. And now this. A less could have made me confused. Well, it had, but now I was overwhelmed. All the time sending those songs... It had been just fun. Nothing serious. And suddenly now all the things had a deeper meaning.

When walking outside I remembered every day from the beginning one and a half month earlier. Only thing I couldn�t remember was the night we spend in that bed together. But nothing happened, now I was even more sure of that. Because the feeling I had then... You just can�t pass that kind of euphoria.

But as a hopelessly romantic soul, all the time walking I wished I�d hear the car and AJ would come pick me up and drive me to the sunset. But in the end, he didn�t have any idea where I was. Probably he was still sleeping on the floor. I tried to guess how he�d feel when he�d wake up. And if he had planned all that thing until he came there. Or was is just the same second than I realized what was about to happen he decided to go the whole way. So many questions I wanted to ask. And all I�d had to do is turn back. And I kept walking.

I was making myself a cup of coffee when Brian hurried to fridge.
-Hey, you�re home? I thought Leighanne said last night that you were out.
-I was. I just got here, spent my night at the studio.
-Refreshing memories?
-Nah. More like making new, I smiled sadly.
-You look quite tired, if you don�t mind me saying.
-Well, one night chatting with Howie and another on the wooden floor... I haven�t got that much sleep.
-You should take it easy then.
-I will. What are you up today?
-I should be running already. We have some interviews about that new round. More than I hate those I hate to be late because then you can�t know what others have said already.
-So you all are there?
-Yeah.
I saw in my mind AJ sleeping on the floor and hoped he had woke up early enough.
-Luckily AJ called and reminded me. I�m sure I would have realized like at noon that I should be somewhere. Gotta run!
-Take it easy! I said when Brian was almost out of the room. My prayers were answered. AJ was (first word that came into my mind: alive) awake. My subconscious can�t control me!

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