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chapter 19

As I got up to my room, I saw a CD on the table. It looked so innocent. And still the information on it would change a whole lot lives. I didn�t know that then so I just played it hoping it would calm me down. Or get me more furious. In anyway, last song I had recorded for him was �You Make Me Sick�.

But once again he amazed me. I forgot the shower, just sat on the bed listening the song over and over again.

�Girl relax, let's go slow
I ain't got nowhere to go
I'm just gonna concentrate on you
Girl are you ready, it's gonna be a long night
Throw your clothes on the floor
I'm gonna take my clothes off too
I made plans to be with you
Girl whatever you ask me you know I'll do�

This was above all sarcastic. Boys II Men and �I�ll Make Love To You�.

I looked around in my room and tried to decide when the CD had appeared to it. But to be honest, I had no idea. It could�ve been 2 hours ago. Or two days, since the day before Nick had dragged me out of bed in such a hurry so I didn�t remember even how I got out of the house and to the car. And then there was the fact that anyone could have brought it. AJ, Brian, Leighanne...

She had listened the album. I was sure of it. That�s why she asked if I was at AJ�s. I listened the lyrics once again.

But why hadn�t AJ said anything when we were at the boat? It suggested that he had brought it after that. But then Leighanne wouldn�t think that I had been with AJ all the time. So he had brought it two days earlier. I tried to remember anything of that day. But it had been just normal day. Nothing unusual. Except that Leighanne tried to persuade me to come to the gala and let her get me an outfit but I had rejected her suggestions consistently.

It was getting way too weird for me. So I took my cell phone and wrote a simple message and sent it. I turned my phone off, closed the door, took the CD out of player. Then I went to bed and put my alarm on.

I was so determined to find out what it was all about. I had slept five hours but didn�t feel any refreshed. I was walking a small circle down at the dance studio.

The message I had sent went to AJ and this is what it said: �Meet me at the dance studio 11 p.m.� So keep it simple stupid. He didn�t deserve any more explanations. I was desperate for one.

Walking made me nervous so I went out to the balcony. How ironic was that I was now in the same place I first time met those people? If I could have turned back the hands of time I don�t know if I would have done anything differently. But I was sure that my life wouldn�t be any lousier if I would have woken up earlier and left the studio and never meet boys face to face. It wouldn�t be similar, easier maybe.

I had just lighted my cigarette when I heard the door. I saw trough the window how AJ came in and looked around. Did he really think I wouldn�t come? I hadn�t been sure he�d show up. I turned to look out when he came to the balcony.

I glanced at him. He came to me, took the cigarette out of my hand. I turned to see him properly, he took one smoke and threw the cigarette away. As he blew the smoke on my face I realized that we wouldn�t talk.

He took my hand and walked me in. We stood there in the middle of the studio surrounded by millions of reflections. Still when I saw it I couldn�t believe it.

AJ was still holding my hand. With other hand he was caressing my hair. He looked me straight into my eyes and then I surrounded. He kissed me, I kissed him, we kissed. He searched me trough with his hands and his tongue and I was willingly founded. My fingers drew his tattoos over and over again until the routes were familiar to me. I felt the burn on my body, and the coolness he could bring to my aching mind. And I let it happen. I let him love me.

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