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chapter 12

I didn’t know exactly who’s move is was but sure I didn’t have to wait that long. Few days later Brian asked me in the dinner table:
-So, are you ready to share the latest turns of your story with us?
-Sure. Right now?
-Nah. Nick, Howie and Kevin are coming over tomorrow night, so if that’s cool with you we could gather to the living room and you could update us.
-Sure. I don’t know if you like the way things are going.
-It doesn’t matter where you leave if the place you get is the same.
-OK. OK. Are you sure you’re not ill or something?
-No, why’s that?
-Just the way you talk.
-Hum. I meant that if it ends happily, we don’t care.
-I don’t know about that end.
-Sure you do. You just don’t tell us. And that’s OK. Just try to finish it before our tour.
-When are you leaving?
-In couple of weeks.
-Well, it should be done by that.
-Good.
-So AJ’s not coming?
-No. He had some business to take care of.
So like bad excuse but I didn’t want to care about that.
-Really? Well, I have to read it to him later.
-Yeah, something like that...

So next evening I sat on the couch and read my story once again. I was in the chapter where the man wonders why no-one sits next to him in the bus. The reason is that the lady had missed the bus and once again a chance to meet her Mr. Right.
Somewhere in the middle I noticed that there was a light on a telephone, even if the headset wasn’t up. But I didn’t think about it more then.
-So that’s all for now, I said.
-You sure make us crazy! Kevin said.
I smiled at him.
-Why don’t they meet if it’s their destiny? Howie asked.
-Well, I think right now there are two powers fighting with each other. First is destiny and second is coincidence.
-OK. But it still doesn’t make sense.
-It will, soon enough, I promised. -There’s not much left.
I had written like a maniac for those days. I didn’t know where it was all coming from but I enjoyed it as long as I could.

-OK boys, I’ll see you tomorrow.
Brian went to escort guests out and I stayed on the couch. Just then I looked the phone again and there was no light anymore. I went to look it a little closer. There was button next to the little lamp. It said Line1. I lifted the handset but line was dead. I pushed some buttons and I could hear how the number was dialed. I waited for a few seconds.
-Yeah?
I didn’t say anything.
-Yes? Who’s speaking?
Now I was sure who it was so I laid the handset down. At the same time I heard the door and climbed quickly back to the couch as Brian walked in. Phone started to ring. I tried to look calm and Brian went to answer.
-Hello? Hi. What? What are you talking about?
Brian glanced at me but I was making notes on my texts. Or I tried to make notes at the same time I was listening.
-Remember, I called you earlier so you could... No. Yeah. In here. So you understand. No, I don’t think so. You’re making this too big once again. So, call the company. No, I’m not saying that you’re crazy... Listen AJ. OK. You do that and we’ll talk later. Are you coming tomorrow? OK OK. Don’t! Gee, AJ. OK. I’ll be there around noon. No I hate you too. Bye.
Brian ended the call and turned at me.
-So what’s up with AJ?
-Nothing. He just wanted to make sure that I had our appointment right.
-Did you?
-Noup. I thought he’d be coming here but I’m going there instead.
-Are you still working on that song?
-Yeah.
-It’s becoming better.
-Hope so. Listen, I’m gonna go out for a while. Do you manage?
-Yeah, don’t worry about me.
-Anyway Leighanne should be coming home any minute. Well, you never know about those fundraisings.
-Brian, I’m a big girl! I can take care of myself.
-Just checking. I’ll be back in hour or so if you can tell Leighanne.
-Sure. Have fun!

Brian left and I was there wondering about AJ. Why didn’t he want me to know that he had been listening us trough the speaker? At any rate he had given me so much inspiration. Like when I used to live there I asked him various questions to find out what is the purpose behind actions. And actually he had given me the inspiration that made me write so much during there last few days. ”All by myself” had made me to think about loneliness and how we take that in this world which still, when there are more singles than ever, is so much about couples and marriage and happy family with two kids and a big car. And how people judge other by their marital status. I remembered how I used to joke about that no-one would ever stand me because I’m so annoying. But the truth behind that was always; will I ever find anyone to love me as I am?
So as writing about two singles and their constantly failing relationships, it gave me a whole new aspect at my story.

He had given me the inspirations and I owed him a note. So I went up to my room to search for the CD and then to music room and recorded one song after the former songs on the CD.
I heard Leighanne driving in the yard so I went downstairs to meet her.
-Hey. Why is this house so quiet? I thought we’d have guests tonight.
-They left already. Brian went also out. He should be back in less than an hour.
I watched Leighanne taking her coat off and going to kitchen and to the fridge.
-Can you believe that they invite us there and talk two hours and they don’t give you anything to eat?
-They want to make you feel like starving children.
-In a fundraising for a anorectic teenagers? I don’t get their methods. Hey, what’s with you? You seem little fuzzed.
-I am little fuzzed. But it will pass. Anyway, Brian is going at AJ’s tomorrow instead of being here.
-Have you talked with him lately?
-Brian?
-No, Leighanne laughed. -AJ.
-No, not really. We have been sending songs for each other. I don’t know what for but it feels like a way to communicate.
-That sounds weird.
-So like AJ?
-And you. So is that going to AJ?
Leighanne nodded at the direction of the table where the CD was laying on.
-Yeah. And I don’t know how I can get Brian to give it to AJ without making him any suspicious because he has already brought one to me and one from me to AJ.
-Just give it to me and I handle it.
I must have looked thoughtful because Leighanne continued:
-I wont listen what’s on it.
I handed the CD over her.
-Thanks. Don’t worry, things have a habit to sort out.
-I know. But... boys will be leaving in two weeks?
-Yeah. So? Leighanne looked at me. -The ground is starting to burn under your feet?
I sneered.
-I’m so grateful for the time I’ve been here and the stability it has brought to my life...
-But it’s not you home.
-Not that. America is not my home, and even if I feel homesick sometimes, I’m still not ready to go there. I just need to go.
-Have you already thought where? You know you could travel with the boys.
-No I couldn’t. And it’s not the same. I need to be on my own again.
-I can understand you. I don’t know where you get all that courage. Just promise me that you’ll stay here as long as the boys does.
-I promise.
And how was I supposed to know how roughly I was going to brake that promise? But to my credit you have to count that I had no idea what was coming on my way.

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