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:: Sunday, December 30, 2001 ::
just in case you were wondering.........the below poem is about the heart. i'm sort of in the middle of doing a drawing ( i call it a drawing because i'm not sure what medium i'm going to use ) based on the poem. actually the idea for the drawing came before the poem did, and i sort of worked around the image in my head. you may never see the drawing, because it very well may not live up to the expectations i have for it. so there you have it. Just in case you were wondering that is.... :o)
~Heathyrre~
written by Heathyrre Marie at 5:51 PM
:: Saturday, December 29, 2001 ::
PIERCED
"that which man does not understand, he seeks to destroy"
Pulsing and throbbing, motions that speak violence bring life. Questions riising about the purity of it all, doubts and regrets affecting every shadow.
Fast or slow? How can somthing so deep within be so essential? So easliy affected and wounded, its there to be protected, is it fragile?
It in itself maintians life. Fragile, yes.
Once taken it is easily bruised, or pierced, taken for granted and ultimatly becomes a target.What was once a gift has now become a scabby wound.
Unknowingly, and unintentionaly, yet unavoidant.
Like a bubble, bag, or a balloon, it holds tension for a time. But when the needle pushes, surface tension is no longer sufficent. You've been pierced.
It at first cuts to your very soul, bringing emotions. Hate? mabey. Sorrow more than not.
A scab, a scar? They run deep and sometimes they don't heal.
But its stronger than you think.
~Heather Henderson~
written by Heathyrre Marie at 12:08 PM
:: Friday, December 28, 2001 ::
!!! REESE ROPER !!!
left to right.... Isaiah, Reese, Rob, Woody, and Myself (Heathyrre)
now.... reese roper is cute.
Five Iron Frenzy
written by Heathyrre Marie at 10:04 PM
I don't have time to post my cool thing today. mabey tommorow.
written by Heathyrre Marie at 9:12 PM
:: Thursday, December 27, 2001 ::
i'll post somthing really cool tommorow.
written by Heathyrre Marie at 7:52 PM
Christmas has come and gone, and i didn't even know it was here. It was a wierd Christmas, but it was good. I hardly knew it was even here, and then I woke up to my little sisters talking about the new presents under out Christmas tree, and as I lay there, I thought "what happned? How did I get here so fast?". Time seems to go by faster as you get older. Its not fair. I wanna be 4 again, but oh well. Its all good. Heh heh, its a good thing we don't get what we *think* we want, because when you really stop to think about it, its not what you want at all. ha.... wow, i'm having so much fun... :o)
~Heathyrre~
written by Heathyrre Marie at 7:52 PM
:: Tuesday, December 25, 2001 ::
Well, well, well. Who's the master gamer? who? heh. I would have to say its ME. :o) Can you beat 2,443 tetris lines? CAN YOU!?! Match that! i really don't believe anyone can. Yes my friends, i am the master gamer, and shall remain thus, until a worthy opponiant has bested my skills.
Merry Christmas by the way. :o)
~Heathyrre~
written by Heathyrre Marie at 5:01 PM
:: Sunday, December 23, 2001 ::
well. we arn't going to watch lord of the rings again today. but hopfully it will happen some time next week, like thursday or friday or somthing. i'll have to talk to hannah more about that. but it will happen mind you. :o) alright. happy sunday all, keep it real and stuff.
~Heathyrre~
written by Heathyrre Marie at 1:42 PM
:: Saturday, December 22, 2001 ::
yay! new stuff. :o) As april said below, i now have photography on my photography page, and art to. i have a REAL picture of me on the about me page, and i'm getting retro characteres!!! yay!!!
~Heathyrre~
written by Heathyrre Marie at 11:29 AM
:: Friday, December 21, 2001 ::
ok, i slightly updated this page, making a few improvments on the blogger interface and i also fixed the links to the photography pages. they *should* be working now. what a glorious, lonely friday night. great. just great.
written by ::{ april }:: at 10:32 PM
Christmas is here already. How'd that happen?
written by Heathyrre Marie at 7:38 PM
:: Thursday, December 20, 2001 ::
i * finally* finished getting my page all together. check out the new layout... four corners down...
written by ::{ april }:: at 2:03 PM
wow. i just took a "discover your fragrance" quiz. don't ask me why. i probably wouldn't be able to awnser you. heh. Anyway, here's what i got back.
"Green Scents
Green, natural scents, with notes from the leaves and stems of plants combined with flowers like hyacinth or tea rose, reflect your down-to-earth attitude. Whether you're spending quality time with family or hiking around the lake in jeans and a T-shirt, light floral fragrances with a hint of woody richness perfectly suit your lifestyle. When the sun goes down, simple pleasures abound, and you eagerly look forward to crisp fall evenings when you can wrap yourself in a wool blanket with a warm cup of tea."
actually i find that last part rather amusing, seeing as how i hate warm tea. eww, warm tea.
written by Heathyrre Marie at 11:24 AM
i can't even play the guitar if i wanted. my high e is still broke. i am currently in a state of musical deprivation. it would sure fill a void if i could play my guitar right now.
*sigh*
written by Heathyrre Marie at 11:04 AM
i wanna play the bass some more, that was really fun.
written by Heathyrre Marie at 10:58 AM
hey, its all good in the hood. I don't wanna be all nit pickey about it. and hey, if i sounded pretty cheesed off in my last posting, it really didn't have anything to do with that. in fact i re-read my last posting this morning and i was actually a bit suprised at the vengfullness of it. so, sorry about that one. heh.
so i get props eh? thats one i havn't heard yet. usually its just snaps. but hey, now i have props and snaps. heh heh.
it was a little wierd driving around visalia yesterday alone, and knowing i was being totally legal. it was kinda strange knowing i have a license like everyone else. I kinda liked being illegal. Oh well, it was a good wierd. It'll take some getting used to, but i'm very happy i have my license now. now if i could only land a job.......... :o)
~Heathyrre~
written by Heathyrre Marie at 9:16 AM
:: Wednesday, December 19, 2001 ::
Didn't happen...Hey Heathyrre, props to you for getting your license! Um, the reason I didn't invite you to the Lord of the rings thing was because I e-mail april way before we were sure it was happening. She e-mailed me back and said she couldn't go cuz she didn't have any money. I was gonna find out if you wanted to go but then we found out that they weren't playing the show at midnight in visalia like we thought they were. Turns out it was only playing in Fresno. That's why I didnt' invite you. It never happened. I'll try to call you anyway next time though and let you know next time. Sorry for not clearing that up sooner. Props on your license though, props on your license. -Zay out
written by Zay (Sorry, you dont get my last name) at 9:10 AM
:: Tuesday, December 18, 2001 ::
good stuff, good job april. and thank you, yes, i did get my drivers license today. i am fully legal now. But be wary young minors, this does not make life any easier. i want to go see lord of the rings at mindnight. but i wasn't invited, and don't have any money. oh well, i'll save two bucks and see it in the morning at a matinee showing.
My life is a strange one. i'm slightly wierded out right now, for reasons which i don't wish to discuss here. people can really suck sometimes, ya know? sheesh. they really really can. and i have yet to meet someone who really cares. because lets face it, no one really does. One would like to think they care, and they can tell themselves they do. but when it comes right down to the line, and they have to show it, they would rather not be put out enough to do so.
the day i find out that someone other than Jesus Christ really cares, i will be truly amazed. The human race is so selfish.
~Heathyrre~
written by Heathyrre Marie at 8:51 PM
finished the page layout. looks good. im almost finished fixing up the links on the photography page. should be done by bed time. snaps for heather she got her *drivers lisence today. horray for you heather, good going.
yay.
written by ::{ april }:: at 7:39 PM
testing... testing... im right in the middle of some page layout changes... im adding the photo's...
written by ::{ april }:: at 4:24 PM
:: Monday, December 17, 2001 ::
I just finished filling out my aplication to Calvin Crest. Its stamped and ready to go. wow. i'm really excited about that. now everyone needs to encourage APRIL to fill out her aplication, or else she's going to be sitting around ALL next summer feeling sorry for herself and remembering when she used to CCA. Please, don't let her become all washed up. heh.
Also, i'm taking my drivers test tommorow. I swear, if i fail, or if some kind of freak thing happens like last time, i'm just going to burst out crying right in front of my driver test person. seriously. i would do it to. gosh, i really hope i pass.
NO MORE SCHOOL!!!!! It is done my friends. Until January 14th. heh heh heh. yep, till then, no more school. yay!!!
Okay. I'm going to sleep now. wish me luck.
~Heathyrre~
written by Heathyrre Marie at 8:58 PM
ugh. i have to dress up today. and i'm not really in the mood.
written by Heathyrre Marie at 8:41 AM
:: Sunday, December 16, 2001 ::
i'm kind of sad today.
written by Heathyrre Marie at 1:49 PM
:: Saturday, December 15, 2001 ::
Mmm cookies... cookies make a me happy... Mmm yummy cookies...
written by ::{ april }:: at 10:21 PM
"o brother where art thou" was, i believe, a hit yesterday. We'll definatily do it again soon. good movie, good friends, good times.
Well, well, well. Isaiah, your tuning job was no doubt a good one, and the song which was played with it was played very well indeed. however, i now no longer own a high E string, as while i was tuning it back, it happened to snap. *gr*. no more high E for Heathyrre...... *sniff*
i'm going to go make more cookies. when Christmas comes, i make lots of cookies.
So, peace out, and keep it real for our Dad.
~Heathyrre~
written by Heathyrre Marie at 10:13 AM
:: Wednesday, December 12, 2001 ::
doobie doobie doo... *watches the penguin walk across the room*
beware of the penguin.....
written by ::{ april }:: at 8:42 PM
. hey thanks. :o)
ya know, i think people should say more nice things to each other. random things. because you never really know whats going on inside them, and it really really may help them alot. i know from experience that when your feeling really rotten, and no one really knows about it, but they just happen to say somthing nice and uplifting to or about you, it really does a 360 on your day. think about it. seriously.
~Heathyrre~
written by Heathyrre Marie at 7:44 PM
:: Tuesday, December 11, 2001 ::
Peace be with you!May peace and happiness flood your soul and every part of you as of this very moment. -Zay out
written by Zay (Sorry, you dont get my last name) at 12:44 PM
wOw. could things get worse? probably, which is why i draw no conclusions on the severe derangement of this day until it has come to a close. RIGHT NOW i'm supposed to be taking my long anticipated drivers test. The car, however, that i arranged to use, which belongs to my brother and sister in law, is currently parked in the hospital parking lot where my sister in law left is about two hours ago to help a spanish lady give birth ( thats her job ). I think she went into labor on purpose just to ruin my day. thus i have not a car to take my test with. I have shed my tears over the issue, and am planning to move on. *sigh* the cold hard facts of life are ringing around my ears like a jail cell. I'm beggining to think that i won't ever get my licence. Whats funny is that, when i was 14, i planned on saving for my own drivers ed, and getting my licence when i was 16. haha, i was a silly kid. four years later, i can't even get it when i'm legal. Not only that, i have been legal for almost a year. And there's no licence to be seen. geez, what kind of looser am i going to turn out to be? I can't get my licence, i'm probably going to have to have my mommy drive me to college next semester, i have absolutly no idea how i'm going to pay for school in the spring, and i can't get a job ANYWHERE!!! My world is crumbling down around me, and i'm hoplessly sinking into it. its like a dark sticky mud crushing me so i can't breathe. And today is my turn to do the dishes. okay, enough dramatics. yes, i'm terribly dissapointed, and the anguish of failing previously has fallen over me anew, but the world won't stop for me, and eventually i WILL get my licence. I'm going out today to apply at a few more places for a job. And i'm doing my absolute best to get financial aid for next semester. So there is hope in every situation.
Oh yeah though. Sorry, i forgot, none of you really care about that kinda stuff. On to happy things....
sorry, i can't think of any happy things right now. i'm going to go wallow in my dissapointment for a bit. then i'll read my bible, and all will be right with the world once more. look for a happier post later either today or tommorow.
Oh and here's the icing on the cake. My mom just told me no job hunting today. she dosn't want to go out. I'm going to go cry now.
written by Heathyrre Marie at 10:25 AM
:: Monday, December 10, 2001 ::
almost anyway.
written by Heathyrre Marie at 8:28 PM
life especially sucks when your the only one posting on your blog.
written by Heathyrre Marie at 8:25 PM
i am more irritated than words can possibly express. i can't decide if its irritation or anger.... mabey a bit of both. i'm also annoyed. but the wierd thing is that i'm still happy. on occasion my friends....... life sucks. on occasion it does. ~Heathyrre~
written by Heathyrre Marie at 4:14 PM
:: Sunday, December 09, 2001 ::
Yay!!! Snapps!!! *victory dance* HA! More snaps than you... cha cha cha.... Yay!!! pissed off look down to perfection!!! ( which at times actually CAN be a curse, because half the time i'm not doing it on purpose ) Oh well, at least i'm good at SOMTHING!!!
written by Heathyrre Marie at 2:37 PM
:: Saturday, December 08, 2001 ::
time to give out some *snaps*......... isaiah gets *snaps* becuase he bought us coffee drinks last night and hung out for a really long time and just because he is a cool person in general.....
heather gets *snaps* becuase she baby sat tonight instead of going to that (semi-boring) christimas sign language play at cos and becuase she is really cool becuase she has that "pissed off look" down to perfection.....
rob gets *snaps* simply becuase he rocks. rob needs no other reason to get snaps. he rocks. thats it. also becuase he is really funny. and becuase he has a man-skin jacket. ohhh yes, rob gets lots 'O snaps.....
i get *snaps* because.... hmm.... well i just do.
all of you guys rock.
written by ::{ april }:: at 11:44 PM
oookkkaaaayy.... your a strange one you are april. today is a silly day of nothingness. Well, i'll probably do somthing worth while, but right now it just feels kinda silly. I'm going to play chess with my mom. heh, yeah. that'll be good. And mabye dust the living room or somthing. I'll definatly be doing some guitar, I have been messin' around with a few songs, which i suppose is good practice, but i really don't think they sound like their supposed to. oh well, it'll come, i pray to God that it'll come. I probably don't play enough. I play for an hour or two every couple of days. Thats not to bad i don't think. I should probably be more committed. hmm. yeah. i'm going to become more committed. wait and see. heh. :o)
I'm suffering from tetris withdraw. *sigh*
~Heathyrre~
written by Heathyrre Marie at 11:22 AM
:: Thursday, December 06, 2001 ::
i like perpetual apathy. i feel like screaming untill my head explodes. then you can have all my stuff. well, most of it anyway. joel gets a few things.
written by ::{ april }:: at 7:30 PM
Hmm. Still frustrated with the guitar. But things are much better, its amazing what getting out of the book of Exodus can do for you. I finished it last night, and decided i REALLY needed some new testament. That and seeing my nephew makes a lot of things right in the world. Heh, he's a great kid. Can't wait till the next one comes in March. I looked through about thirty cd's today for photoshop, and only found the info file. I think were just gonna have to pirate us a new copy. :o) Yes, i think so. I'll letchyall know when it happens. I'll bug my dad about it later.
Well, tommorow is the LAST Friday i have to go to C.O.S. until mid january. I'm very excited about my final on Thursday. I can't wait to ace it. And believe you me, i will. I'll be a legal first aider before the new year, and an EMT before next summer. Heh heh heh.
Alright, now that i'm back to "me" and my state of "perpetual apathy" has ceased, i'm going to go make a quilt. A Canadian star quilt. Wow, i was just thinking. Perpetual apathy sure isn't what it used to be. Or maybe i wasn't really experiencing perpetual apathy. Yes, that has to be it. If i was then i would still be suffering, because it would be perpetual. I was in sort of a lazy state of apathy. Yeah. there ya go.
Now that i have analyzed myself, i'm going to go get to that quilt.
~Heathyrre~
written by Heathyrre Marie at 3:41 PM
:: Wednesday, December 05, 2001 ::
Well. Things arn't much better today. I still feel like screaming until my head explodes. I need some inspiration. I have lapsed into a state of perpetual apathy. *sigh*. now your saying "i could really couldn't care less heathyrre, about your stinking state of perpetual apathy, here's a quarter, call someone who cares". Alright. Fine. Be that way.
On to subjects that don't involve to much of myself.
I'm still having trouble finding photoshop 6. It really sucks, because i have some very cool pictures to put up, and its kind of frusterating that i can't get them on here. I have tommorow off. I'll do what i can.
I registered for school next semester. Now all i need is a car to get there in. And a job to pay for the gasoline, books, and registraion fees. I'll get there....... somehow......
grr. i can't wait until the freedom of friday arrives.
~Heathyrre~
written by Heathyrre Marie at 7:12 PM
:: Tuesday, December 04, 2001 ::
I am really frusterated with this guitar. I can play it, but I also can't at the same time. I read the tab, and then try to play it, but even though i'm playing it just how its written, it dosn't sound anything like its supposed to. !!!!!!!!!! I WISH I HAD A SOUNDPROOF ROOM TO SCREAM IN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm going to cry. I seriously am.
written by Heathyrre Marie at 3:43 PM
I hate absolutly everyone. I am being extremly pessimistic right now. I hate everyone. I am a rock, I am an island.
leave me alone.
by the way isaiah, very cool poem. Its one of the best ones. It was somewhat of a pick-me-up for me.
written by Heathyrre Marie at 2:31 PM
:: Monday, December 03, 2001 ::
well. there are some slight complications with my photo's-n-stuff. I need to re-install photoshop 6 on our computer in order to make them "web ready", and we can't seem to find photoshop 6 anywhere. So. Theyre mostly all scanned, and i'll be starting the long process of trying to find the program tommorow. Oh well. they'll be up soon. At least i finally have them scanned. :o) further updates later... have to do some other stuff now.
~Heathyrre~
written by Heathyrre Marie at 6:26 PM
:: Saturday, December 01, 2001 ::
"I feel that i have a good deal to bearup under. It's all very well to read about sorrows and imagine yourself living through them heroically, but it's not so nice when you really come to have them, is it?" quote courtisy of my dear friend Hannah, and LM Montgomery.
i really need to stop playing mental chess. *sigh*. No one will play with me anymore though. I think its because they know they can't win anymore. heh. :o)
~Heathyrre~
written by Heathyrre Marie at 4:20 PM
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