Alex was ill last night. He was choking and crying and he was sick loads. I dunno what's wrong. Next door said it's just like chollic, or something, but I dunno what that is, weren�t gonna tell her I didn't know, so ill have to take him down the doctors and ask what to do.
   I told Kirsty this morning he was ill. She didn't care. My four month old baby could be dying and she doesn't give a shit. She went and changed the subject and started on about this old man in work and how nice he is and how sad it is cause he's got cancer and no family and stuff. I nodded and said 'aw bless' a few times and told her how I couldn't do her job cause of how sad it would be. Really I couldn't do her job cause a fucking hate old people. I wormed it back to Alex though. Told her she had to leave cause I had to take him to the doctor for an emergency appointment. She asked what was wrong, finally, like it was so hard to show some concern for her Godson. Not that it actually means anything to her, selfish bitch. I don't think she understands how important it is coz of how religious I am and that. And I said again how ill he was, and she just said, 'it's probably a cold or something'. But she wasn't there, when he was crying his guts up, she didn�t see the colour of his sick and how upset he was.
   After I got her out the house I rang Lisa, she's always good to talk to. Told her all about the Greg and Dave thing. She was really supportive and that. And she said she would try and come over and see me and Alex sometime soon. She said she couldn't come over this week cause of Uni and stuff but she'd come soon. Oh, and she knew what chollic was, told me to get him down the doctors to make sure. Maybe when she comes I can explain the Greg thing properly, then I'll have someone on my side. Kirsty wont talk about it with me, said she's 'heard enough'. Bitch. She said she doesn't think that Dave would lie about something that serious, and I'm trying to tell her nether would I. Rape is a big deal.
   Lisa rang back, said I should have reported it, but if none of my friends believe me then the police wont will they? Anyway, she said I should cause there's medical evidence and shit but I told her he didn't actually penetrate me at all, just jumped on me and moved about a bit, he was so drunk he actually thought he was fucking me, so it would be pointless.
   She started saying, 'so he didn't actually�' but she sort of trailed off like she couldn�t say it. Fucking fridge. Like she's never done it in her life. But I said, ' it doesn't change what he tried to do!' She said, 'so he only tried?' Only tried! That�s like saying 'oh, lets not lock her up shall we? She only tried to kill him.' I said, 'that's still an offence.' She said, 'I know, but it's different, you can't go around saying he did it when he didn't'. There's no difference as far as I'm concerned. He's a rapist. And I'm gonna let everyone know.