*** Five weeks Later ***
Lee and Duncan had patched up their differences since that night about five weeks ago. Obviously Duncan and I haven't spoken much since then, I turned down his surprise which was the apartment. Anyway, I was managing fine without him around me as the band was busy filming their video for their new single! Although Lee and Katy were trying to get us on good speaking terms but I refused. Katy and I had a falling-out over it, so I hadn't spoken to her for a couple of weeks now!
I was at work when I had got shooting pains in my stomach, which made me cry out in pain. Stacey and Emma were really concerned when they saw my face turn white as a ghost. I knew straightaway that I needed to go to hospital; I was rushed off to there. I had endless tests to see what the matter was but I think I know what had happened. While I was waiting for the doctor to come, Katy rushed in as Stacey had rung telling her about me. She had come straightaway from work after the phone call. I was quite calm which surprised her as she expected to see me in such a state. Not long after Katy arriving, the doctor finally appeared and unfortunately I had thought � I had lost the baby. I was still calm while Katy shed a few tears and gave me a hug "I'm sorry" just as Lee and Duncan came running in with the nurse. Dunk knew something had happened, so Katy dragged Lee out of the room to leave me tell Dunk the sad news. "Catherine, what happened?" "Duncan, there's no easy way of saying this but I'm sorry, we lost the baby" "What, say that again" "We lost the baby." Duncan sat down and cried, I still couldn't cry at all. "I'm sorry babe" "Me too but it happens" wiping his tears away. Dunk was looking into my eyes and said, "You're glad you not carrying my baby anymore, no wonder you didn't cry." I was horrified to hear him accusing me of not wanting the baby. Nothing was coming out of my mouth. "Come on, admit it." I finally came out with something, "How dare you accuse me of something like this? I'm more shocked that this is not the first time accusing me of something. How could you think of me that I'm a two-face bitch? You are blaming me for everything that went wrong with us. That's fine; I take the blame, shall I? Then, get out of my sight; I can't cope with this anymore." Duncan left the room in anger, I silently stared out the window. A few minutes later, Katy came in with Lee and Sarz. I didn't speak a single word while they were in the room; I just kept looking out the window. Duncan certainly knocked me for six. Eventually sometime later, they were leaving and Lee had said that he will pick me up tomorrow as I was to stay overnight in hospital. I finally cried after they left because I didn't want to do so in front of them. While I was still in hospital, I thought long and hard about my future in London.
Chapter 36
*** The Next Day ***
I was coming out of hospital today, so Lee was picking me up. He was coming for me at eleven, so I was ready by the time he arrived to collect me. He carried my overnight bag to the car outside. After coming in, the flat was nice and tidy, Katy was there also. I had some tea, and then I rang my family to tell them the news. I went to bed to get couple of hours' sleep; the two went out for a while.
I was woken from my sleep to the sound of the doorbell ringing; I got out of bed to answer the door. It was Dunk's mom Fiona, "Can I come in?" "Er, sure" "Catherine, I'm very sorry to hear what happened. Duncan is very upset and he won't even say your name to me. Any idea why?" I sat down and sighed, "You not going to like hearing this but Duncan accused me of not wanting the baby and that I was glad I wasn't carrying his baby anymore. Well, I bit his head off for saying all those things. He have no idea how much hurt he caused to me and I know he's hurting too" I began to cry. "I can't believe what that son of mine had said. I will give him a lecture when I get home. How could he to the woman he still loves very much" "No, don't make the situation worse than it already is. He just took it hard when I told him. I still love him too but I don't think I can forgive him for everything he said. I can't be around him anymore, no matter where or what" "Surely you don't meant that. He's just hurting inside, he needs time. Right, I better go as I got to go somewhere. You take care, Catherine." "Thanks for coming by, Fiona. It means a lot to me. You take care, too." I let Fiona out the door.
Two hours later, I was on the couch reading a book when the doorbell rang. I scowled and prayed it wasn't Duncan but it turned out to be Kian. I ran into his arms "Kian, I'm so glad to see you" "I'm sorry. Are you okay?" "Better after seeing you" "Do you want a cup of tea?" "Yea sure and make one for yourself." He went to the kitchen and came out 2 minutes later with the cups of tea. "Thanks" "Not a problem" "So how are you, Kian?" "I'm good. Busy with the band at the moment but all is good" "That's good to hear" "So, had he been round?" "Dunk, I haven't seen him since at the hospital. We had another fight. Fiona did call around earlier though" "Oh, I see" "Kian, can I tell you something in confidence?" "Yea, sure" "I'm thinking of moving back to Kerry. I can't hack it here in London anymore, not after everything that happened" "You what?" "I been thinking about it for a little while" "But what about your mates here � Katy and Sarz?" "I know that, I will never forget them. One thing for sure, I'm glad I came to London to meet them. I want to start afresh" "No, stay in London. It won't be the same going out clubbing without you" "I know, I certainly will miss the craic with ye lot too. You lot should come to Kerry for a visit whenever ye have a break from the band" "When are you leaving?" "I haven't decided yet, but it will be in the next few weeks" "Oh good, we got to have a leaving party for you" "Oh no, I want no party. Don't tell anyone about this conversation, keep it to yourself. I am going to tell them in my own time. If I ever find out that you tell anyone of them, you better watch your back" "Right, I keep my mouth zipped besides I don't want to get beaten up by ya" "You cheeky git" "Yay, got ya smiling" I laughed, "Thanks Kian. You are one wicked guy. I'm lucky to know you" "Aww, bless ya babe" hugging me. We talked non-stop about ourselves, our home counties Kerry and Sligo, future plans, etc. While talking to him, I got these strange feelings it felt like I knew him for years, let alone I only known for about 7 months. I shook off my feelings.
Hours later, we both must have fallen asleep when someone shouted, "OMFG." I sleepily rubbed my eyes "What?" I looked up and saw Lee and Dunk standing there. "What are you doing here?" "I fuckin knew it; it wasn't my baby was it?" "What the fuck are you on about?" I had forgotten Kian was in the room until I looked, he was besides me. "You two were draped in each other's arms. How long had it been going on for? Let me guess, since Shane's wedding." I laughed, "You must be joking, there's nothing going on between us, we are just friends and that is all. Oh, of course it was your child. I never slept with anyone else only you." Kian was feeling uncomfortable being caught in the middle with us two arguing. I shouted, "That's it, I had enough with all this sh!t." I grabbed my coat and coat and stormed out of the flat. I walked far away from the flat as possible; I searched for a hotel to stay for the night. Eventually, I found a hotel that had a room available. I told the receptionist that if anyone was looking for me, tells them my name is not listed here. I went up to my room; I was so enraged at Dunk. I heard my mobile ringing and it was Kian ringing but I rejected the call. It rang again and it was Lee, I turned off my mobile altogether. I watched some TV and fell asleep then.
Chapter 37
I woke up, had a quick shower and went downstairs for breakfast. I turned on my mobile, there were loads of messages from everyone, instead I rang Daniel as I wanted to discuss about a matter. It was arranged for an hour later which I will be heading to after breakfast.
A short later, I checked out of the hotel. I grabbed a taxi to Innocent Records. As I went inside, Stacey and Emma were surprised to see me back as they hadn't expected to see me for another few days but I told them that I was there to see Daniel. I told them that if any of the lads calls or come in not to say anything about me being here. They were curious why but I told them it a long story and will tell them sometime. I went off to meet Daniel and had a long chat, he agreed to let me go, he was sorry to see me leave Innocent Records as I was a good worker there according to Daniel. I had many great memories working with Stacey, Emma and everyone else. Stacey and Emma became my close friends, I went to the office to collect my things and said "Sorry" to the girls on my way out.
For the second time, I got a taxi back to the flat knowing that everyone will be there waiting for me to come home or hear from me. As soon I came in the door, Dunk ran me towards shouting "You stupid b!tch, you had us worried al night". Apparently, all the lads of Blue, Sarz, Katy and Mark were there in the sitting room. I replied, "Sorry". "Where did you go?" "I stayed at a hotel to clear my head" "God, I never been so worried in my life with the stunt you pulled" "Haha, like you care. I'm not dead but you make me want to kill myself". Dunk was shocked to hear what I said. "You can't be serious, Cat" said Katy and Sarz in unison. "Well, he did and still does. I'm leaving London before I do anything silly". The next thing, Sarz attacked Duncan screaming "You f****** petal, you driving my best friends away from me with all the hurt and pain you caused her. How could you? Cat and Katy of course helped me get through the tough times and you are pushing her away from everyone here". Sarz burst into tears, and so did I. I ran over and she had me and Mark comforting her. Katy was very quiet in the background with Lee besides her. Dunk spoke up "Sarah, I'm sorry. I know how close you are to Catherine and Katy too as friends. I'm sorry for messing up my relationship with Cat, I'm just hurting inside because I lost the girl of my dreams I dearly love with all my heart and it hurts like hell not being together as a couple. It's driving me mad. She will always be in my heart forever." I went into a daze; his words were ringing in my head. It took me ages to snap out of it. "Duncan, I still love you too but I just can't take any more pain. I'm sorry, I have no choice but to move back home because it hurts seeing you around. We have to move on with our lives, you will find someone. We can't change everything that happened" "I suppose you are right, Catherine. There's no point trying to turn back the clock. Remember I will never forget you for as long I live. You are still a special person in my life" "Me too, I will always think of you but as a friend though. Thank you for the good times we spent together" "You too, thank you for everything." After a while chatting to the others, I went to my room and went out to the balcony to think. Katy came in to check to see if I was okay. I told her "I'm fine, just needed some space" "I'm sorry, Cat. I can't believe you are moving away and I understand why" "I know, I will still come back to visit now and again and you better come to Kerry sometime. It would be great if Westlife and Blue and their wives/girlfriends came to Kerry sometime for a get-together. It would be fun, don't you think?" "Yea, that is a great idea. Of course, I will visit you in Kerry and I bring Sarz with me and we can have girlie nights out." I laughed, "Yea, it would be mad craic as long ye don't fall for a Kerry man. After all, ye are loved up with Lee and Mark. One thing for sure, I'm glad I came to London to meet you and Sarz. Thanks for the fun times we had together!" Katy shed a few tears and hugged me. "So, are you joining us?" "Actually, I need to go out for an hour. I want to see Kian and before you say anything, we are JUST friends. Will you let them know that I'm gone out and will be back later" "Yea, sure."
Half hour later, I rang Kian's doorbell. He finally opened the door not realising I had a shock in store. As soon he opened the door, I suddenly noticed he had a black eye. "Jaysus, what happened?" "Did you not know?" "Know what?" "Hmm, he hadn't the heart to tell you, your ex punched me after you ran out on us last night" "He WHAT? The bastard. I'm sorry" "There's no need to be sorry, he just jumped to conclusions" "Well, it's not the first time with us, is it? I mean Dunk and I just sorted out our differences earlier after telling them I was leaving London before coming here to see you. I can't believe he didn't tell me and that goes for Lee too, he was there as well" "Oh well, they didn't. Are you not going to come in?" "Oh yea." I came inside and went to the living room. "I can't believe Lee didn't tell me, he was my friend and I trusted him. It like he's on Duncan's side. Is it sore?" "Yea, it's sore. I deserved it anyway" "It's not fair that Dunk took it out on you over me. Why can't he act normal and keep his anger to himself? I'm sorry to see it happen to you" "Catherine, will you stop apologising. Oh I must get dressed" "Yea, sure." As he went off to get dressed, I couldn't help noticing his sexy body. All of a sudden, I was having dirty thoughts that I never noticed Kian coming into the room. "Catherine, you okay?" which snapped me out of my thoughts. "Sorry, did you say anything?" "I asked, are you okay?" "Oh yea, I'm fine" blushing. "What were you thinking about?" "Nothing important" "Right, I see" looking confused at me. "Would you like some pizza as I'm putting it on?" "Yea sure, I will."
We spent the next half hour eating, drinking and talking. I turned on the TV to see what films were on and 'Pearl Harbour' was just starting! "Oh my god, I got to watch this. I waited a long time to watch it until now! Do you mind?" "No, you can take over the living room. We can watch it together" "Thanks Kian." I sent a text to Katy letting her know that I be home in a couple of hours after the film finishes. Anyway, I got myself sitting comfortably on the couch with Kian. Over the next two hours, Kian was handing me tissues as I was crying buckets over the sad bits in the film. Just as the film was finishing, Kian suddenly kissed me on the lips which I returned. All of a sudden, I was wrong to return the kiss. "I'm sorry, I have to go" "Wait, please don't go. I liked you from the day at Shane's wedding" "Please, don't make this a lot more complicated. I can't handle it." I fled from the apartment. Before heading back to Lee's flat, I went for a walk in the park across the flat. Then my mobile started ringing, and it was Katy wondering am I on the way home? I told her I be home in a few minutes. I headed back to the flat and well, Duncan was still there. The second I entered, I lashed out at Dunk for hitting Kian and I gave out at Lee for not telling me. Lee tried to apologise but it wasn't enough as I trusted him. It was getting late in the night, so I went to bed in anger.
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