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Chapter 84
"Now tell me," I say when we sit down on the couch.
"Okay. I wasn't sure if I should tell you, but you always seem to know what's going on with me, so I thought I'd better tell you in time."
"Okay," I nod.
"I love you. I've always loved you and I will always keep on loving you. But I'm not as crazy in love as I used to be. I'm trying to get over you. I'm going clubbing and going to parties again. Meet other people, other girls. Sometimes it's hard, and than I can only compare those girls to you. But I'm trying to get over you. I'm doing what seems the best for you. It's not fair if you would have to choose between Dunk and me. You've been with Dunk for so long, and you seemed the perfect couple. It didn't even mater that you live so far away. I know you love Dunk. And I know you love me. And I know that you don't wanna choose for Dunk as long as I'm in love with you. You'd rather hurt yourself by staying single than to choose for Dunk and hurt me. Maybe that's why I love you so much. But you will hurt all three of us by not choosing! By letting everything the way it is now. I believe� I believe if there's anybody that you're meant to be with, than it's Dunk. He loves you so much, it even hurts to see it. To see that he can't tell you. He doesn't love you just because you're carrying his baby. But he loves you more than he ever did because you're carrying his baby. Maybe it doesn't make sense what I say, but I see it every day. He's head over heels in love with you. We've been together for only a short time. We broke up because of the confusion when you found out that you are pregnant. But I strongly believe that if you wouldn't have been pregnant, it wouldn't have lasted long either. We're not meant to be together. All I can wish for is that we'll stay best friends for ever. But a couple we'll never be again. It hurts. It hurts deeply and badly. But I know it's true. It's what my heart tells me. I know Dunk's meant to be with you. I just hope you're meant to be with Dunk too. It hurts not to have you as my lover. But it also hurts to see Dunk sad and longing for your love."
His voice breaks down. He's trying not to cry. There was so much fire in his eyes when he was talking! Now he's looking down at my hands, which he's holding tight.
"Lee," I whisper with tears in my voice. He looks up at me and I hug him. I can feel the tears streaming down his face. I can't hold back my tears either.
"Don't� don't� c� cry for me," he softly says in my ear.
I look into his eyes. "I love you. I want us to be best friends, like we were. I want to be that close again, so we can tell eachother everything. But above all, I want you to be happy!"
"Thank you," he gives me a weak smile.
"Tell me what I should do to make it easier for you. Stay away a couple of weeks?" I say and wipe the tears from his face.
"No!" he calls out. "I want you to be with me, share everything with me."
I smile at him. We give eachother a kiss on the lips.
"Your mascara is running," he smiles sweetly.
"I bet I look like a ghost," I grin.
"Not exactly."
"Than what?"
"More like a vampire," he grins and ducks away when I try to punch his arm. I grab him by the shoulders and softly bite him in his neck.
"Be careful what you call me," I grin.
"Who says I don't like vampires?" he says and pulls me closer. I rest my head on his shoulder. He gives a deep sigh.
"What would I do without you?" I softly ask and look up at him. He gives me a really cute smile and kisses my on my forehead.
"I'd better wash my vampire-look away," I say and get up.
"No need to ask you if you want a drink and some snacks, innit?" he grins. I poke out my tongue and go to the bathroom.
The rest of the evening we spend talking, and me eating of course. We go to bed not very late, Lee seems exhausted. In bed he wraps his arms around me and lays his hands on my belly.
"You're gonna have the most beautiful baby ever," he whispers just before we both fall asleep.
In the middle of the night I wake up. I'm wide awake, I don't know what woke me up. I go to the toilet and after that I go back to Lee. When I lie down next to him he opens his eyes. I smile and cuddle up against him. He wraps his arms around me. After a while I can hear from his breathing that he's also still awake. I look up at him and he starts to grin.
"Nice! Both wide awake in the middle of the night."
"Really stupid," I grin back.
"Tell me about your week. I haven't really talked to you for a long time," he says. We both sit up right in the cushions and he wraps his arm around my shoulders. "Oh, wait. Tell me about last weekend! I haven't heard anything about that either!" he calls out.
"Okay, I've already told it to Sy and Tia and Dunk," I start to grin badly. I tell him the whole story, about the dirty movie and the stripclub. He's laughing his @ss off.
"I wouldn't have expected that of a pregnant lady," he laughs.
"You know I'm not a lady," I grin cheekily.
Than he tells me about his party from last night. Ant snogged a girl, but Lee thinks he didn't take her home, because just before he left he saw him flirting with another girl. After that we tell eachother about work, family, the normal stuff.
"Okay, are we both up to date now?" I laugh.
"Yeah I think so. We should be able to go to sleep now," he laughs back. We both lie down and he turns off the lights.
"Sleep tight," I whisper.
"Sweet dreams honey," he whispers back. We give eachother a kiss and I lie comfortably in his arms.
"Oh no!" I moan when I feel the baby kicking.
"It's unbelievable," Lee grins and starts to stroke my belly softly. "When we're finally ready to go back to sleep that little one wakes up."
He disappears under the blankets and puts his hands on both sides of my naked belly. He starts to tell a bedtime story whispering to my bump.
"OMG! It worked," I whisper when the story's finished and he lies back next to me. The baby stopped kicking me so hard!
"You can come over to baby-sit when the baby doesn't want to sleep," I whisper in his ear.
"It would be an honor!" he whispers back. Soon we both fall asleep.
