| Mar 25, 2003 "Cick Here" The world is such a small place. Its also a very big place. Meeting new people and making new friends is kinda on my mind. I've met acouple people not to long ago. They are really cool and just tottaly different from the friends that I have now. Don't get me wrong. I love my friends, but I just feel the need to make some new ones. Knowing something that is just too confusing to keep to your self is hard. I'm actually, for the first time, realy nervous about taking this math test tomorrow. It scares me. I know I'll do well enough to pass, but I don't think I'll do as well as I should. I have this huge amount of potential that is just tottaly untapped. It's something that I have never really seen. I've never aactually tried my hardest on anything. I think it's time to start doing that. I can get a 90% on a test with out studying. If I did study, that 90 should be a freekin 100%. I should have 100% on everything. I should have perfect scores and perfect everything. I shouldn't try my best, I should do my best. There's no excuse for me not to. There's nothing stopping me from doing so. I don't know why I don't. I know for sure I'm destined for greatness. I sound all arragant and shit, but I know it's true. My grandma's in the hospital. She gots a bad kidney infection. She's gonna be fine, but It's her mental state that I'm worried about. She's been calling every one, except family, virginia. Virginia is her neighbor. They really arn't friendds or anything. I dunno. It could be beginning of something bad, or it could be just nothing. I usualy get these feelings wheather things will work out or not. I'm not sure about this. I got Journals By Kurt Cobain. It's most of his journal entries from the 1980's to 1994, when he killed himself. At first, I kinda felt bad about reading this because these words are his private thoughts. But then I saw this line "Don't read my diary when Im gone. Ok, Im going to work now, when you wake up this morning, please read my diary. Look through my things and figure me out." Thats kinda how I feel about this online journal. I want people to figure me out. What you see is only the tip of the iceburg. |