| "Just Before I fall asleep and when i, really bored I... Lay down and think for awhile until I fall into a semihypnotic state of sub-conciousness, some call it daydreaming, some call it just fucking spacing out. But I feel like Im not here and it doesnt matter because Im sick of putting myself in boring situations and conversations, just every day basic sitcom happenings, some call it thinking but when Im in this particular stat of mind I forget to think and it becomes stricly observatory. I notice things very sensitively like if I fucus really hard I can see small transparent blotches of debris on the outer shell of my eyes. (or the conjunctiva). And can only follow it as my eye moves downward. Its like, watching film footage of amoeba or jelly like plankton inder a microscope. And when I close my eyes and look up to the sun the Bright Orange Redness radiates an intense picture of blood cells. And they are moving very rapidly and again I can only focus for so long before my eyes strain and I have to look away from the sun int a pillow and rub my eyes hard then I see tiny spheres of sparkling light which only stay for a second then as my eyes focus again amongst the water or tears from rubbing I open then look up to the sky away from the sun and forget about stupid fucking little squiggly things moving on the outer layer of my eyes or the close up blood cells in my eye lids and I stare at the sky with perrifial vision and not trying but just happening to make out all kinds of faces objects statues in the cloouds and I can do the same with the wood grain of the panelling on my wall. Once I saw Jesus on a tortilla shell." - Kurt Cobain |