Sat 14 Jul 2001 10:01 AM

Just woke up sweating and trembling. My nightmares are back.

These are the nightmares that I use to have when I was a kid and still the same now. It just keeps on coming back and don't want to leave me alone.

Bad nightmare which almost get me killed when I was young. Don't want to describe it. It still makes me tremble.

Sat 14 Jul 2001 04:00 PM

Just played music continuously just to forget the nightmare, which is still fresh to my mind.

Here are some lines from the song "'Til I Found You" by Filipino group Freestyle. Famous in the country for the song "Bakit Ngayon Ka Lang," which up to now I still don't know how to translate it in English, and "Too Slow," which I think about the favorite three word of people. Yes, about sex. That's what I understand about the lyrics. My sis, some of her friends and also including me love this group. My sis love their song "Before I Let You Go." It says "before I let you go, I want to say I only you." Sweet isn't it? OK back to the lyrics of the song I said a while ago. Here it is:

I was alone ago
Without a love to call my own
I was afraid and thought that it wasn't meant for me.
I didn't need anybody else
No one was right I told myself
And I believe that was how it would be.

I use to think that I was fine
that I was doin OK
I didn't know that I was blind
I just ride on along my way
I didn't know what I've been missin....

...I never had somebody I would think about...

I had been badly hurt before
Ever since then I would ignore
And had any chance for love
I thought it was a lie
I learn to rely on myself
I thought I was doin well
...then I just can't deny

I use to think that I was fine
that I was doin alright
I will go on along my things
Everyday and everynight
...I love you with all my mind

And I never knew how good how love could feel...'TIL I FOUND YOU
And I never thought that love could be so real... 'TIL I FOUND YOU

Nice song (I cut some parts hehe). Really. It suits me, especially on the first part. Believe me it's really a nice song by a really good group. Too bad I didn't go and watch their concert when I had the chance. I some other things that came in so I cancelled it. Hope they'll have their concert on Baguio so that I could watch them perform.

Sat 14 Jul 2001 07:00 PM

Time to relax for the exam is tomorrow. Hope I won't blackout, which I had on a major exam back in college. Just kept staring at the test paper and the wall coz I can't remember almost all of what I have reviewed. And I really failed on the exam.

So off to eat dinner, listen some music with my CDman and hope to drift into a good sleep. I need one.