Hmm.. where to start? Well last night was definitely an interesting one to say the least. I worked until about 8:30 and then got home went out with Brooke and James to get something to eat and who texts me? Mike. So he asked me to come over with Samantha and stupid me goes over to his house and hang out with him and his friend, Mike. It took us almost an hour to get to his house because they were doing roadwork on the LIE, not good. So we were just watching movies all night and before I knew it it was 5AM so we ended up sleeping there, even though I didn't get too much sleep to be quite honest - not smart on my part but whatever it was worth it. Things between us are so complicated - it was the first time we've hung out for that long and with other people since we broke up and it was kind of awakard at first but then we kissed and things just got better from there. I still like him, but I'm working on it. I don't know what to do anymore I just need to get away from the whole situation and then things will get better I hope. I don't really want to go on a whole thing about him and why I still like him so I'll just end it there. So anyway I got home from his house around 2:45 this afternoon and took a shower and went out with Liz and Stasi. We went out to the mall, out to dinner, and then to some kid Chris's house - which wasn't too exciting. After a few games of beer pong we left and came home because Stasi's sick with mono and it was pretty boring over there.

On a brighter note I started to do some of my dorm room shopping and here's a little preview of what I've got so far - just the basics (comforter, sheets, towels, etc) - you get the idea. This fall I'll be transferring to SUNY Oneonta and majoring in Childhood Education (grades 1-6). The past year I went to Suffolk Community College, it wasn't all too bad but community college isn't really for me. I want to get the real college experience and staying at home seeing the same people I went to in high school with wasn't doing it for me. I can't even tell you how excited I am to go away to school it's going to be so much fun. It's going to be sad leaving everyone behind but I need to do what's best for me, I know that sounds selfish but after what happened last year I really deserve it. Never again will I let someone else hold me back from something I want to do. Speaking of which, Gary is mad at me for "choosing" to go away next semester. As much as I still care about him I can't do that to myself again. Waiting around for him isn't going to get me anywhere - we've been broken up for over a year now and I don't see us getting back together anytime soon - even though I know that's what he wants. I'm just not ready for that I don't know if I'll ever be able to completetly trust him again - he's a great guy and an amazing friend but for right now that's all I need from him. Nothing more, nothing less.

As far as site wise I've added a few pages in the Jessica and Site sections. I'm working on it and it's going to take me quite some time but since I have all summer it won't be an issue. Working isn't taking up too much time since I get hardly any hours as it is. I wish I could find another job - but no one's going to hire me for just two months. My life is so stressful - I need money!!! Alright well I'm done for now. Bye guys!

Hey - you may remember me from my website, also titled fadedt0uch but the server keeps going down and it's just a pain so I decided to just open up an account on here until I can find a host. The sites pretty empty right now but I'm working on it. I'll update and let you guys know more once I start piecing back together my site! This may take a while ...