| Today is Sunday it�s my day off and I�m watching Joy and Dylan right now for a few hours until Annette gets here, then I�m off to Sherman to go to house church tonight. Last night Dad was over here. See about 2 months ago Dad tried to convince Cindy that it was Gods will for him to move in with her cause it would save them both money and he thought that the kids here needed a father figure and that he was that figure, go figure!!!! (Blah, blah, blah) But Cindy didn�t agree(of course) and didn�t want him to move in cause he�s dad for one, he dominates the scene too much, and he talks to much about scheming what he�s going to do. So she told him that and said it wouldn�t be a good Idea for him to move in, even though he was �facing the fear of living on the street�. When that happened Cindy had said that the only person she would consider having for a roommate would be me. And she went on to say that that would be cool. So last week I asked if she really meant that and if it was still a possibility. She says yes and now I�m here. And it�s pretty hard staying ehre because of all of our schedules and my long drive. Steph, when I go to sleep I have to do it with all the lights on, the t.v. going, and cindy smoking a cigarette over my head(did I mention that already?) ? She�s go 2 couches and they come together at one point, this is also the point where I lay my head and she sits at the other side, so when she blows her smoke, it goes directly over my head. It�s wonderful�.really (blah, blah, blah) So, as I was saying last night Dad was over, and I didn�t know how upset he would be with me staying here and him not. But come to find out he never said anything to Cindy about it before except he asked why I didn�t come stay with him because Durant was closer and it was more convenient and all that. I had thought of that before, but I automatically decided not to because, well, I didn�t want to be around him that much. But now after being here for only 5 days dad�s house is looking quit alluring. So he mentioned that the offer was still there so I took it. So now that I�m here at Cindy�s, I�m going to go ahead and move again and I�m going to stay with dad, again, for a bit. He�s working nights buffing the floors at the hospital and then he sleeps in the day, in the evening he works at Victory life as a volunteer still. And then he goes back to work, that�s only 4 days out of the week that he has that full of a schedule, but I think it will work out ok. Honestly I�m really anxious now to get my own place so I can do a house church thing too. I talked to Gary the other day and I�m going back to house church. They�ve got 2 groups going and I think there getting ready for a third. I�ll be going to Larrys on Sunday night and then hopefully I�ll have my own place in about 2 months time and I�ll start one too for younger peoples. Every since we left community, or ever since I stepped down really, I�ve been un-committed. I�ve been skeptical of all I was into cause for some reason I didn�t think it�d work out� (go figure) On top of that I was pissed off. With all the controversy with community including theophostics, the authority thing, the way church should go and everything else. I�ve been in a defense mode where all this stuff has not worked and I don�t know what to think, I know that something is wrong but I can�t put my finger on it. Like our group always says we�ve been spoiled to the best of the best. I�ve read the history of the early church and the church of the early 19th century. Smith wiggleswork, Lester summerall, Kathryn Kullman, etc, etc. |
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