After a long night in the forest wandering around she turns back to her home. Her dad was already at the shop they owned and her mom was in the back making dresses. When she entered the door, her eyes red of crying and her hair full of leaves, she did not even looked up at her. She walked up to her room and fall down on the bed. Crying more and more.
A soft knock on her door. ,, Go away� She says while having her face still in her pillow. ,, I don�t want to talk!� The door opens with a little noise. A young elf man looks inside and walks towards her. Then he sits down next to her on the bed. She looks up for a moment and then pushes her face back in her pillow. ,, Go away please Pan. I don�t want to talk about it.� The young man elf, which was called Pan, strokes her hair and takes some leaves out of it. ,, Elong.. your teacher was a good men. He will forever live in our hearts..� Elong looks up at Pan. Her eyes still red of the tears she had cried. Pan was her brother. He was a few years older then she and always felt the need to protect her. He did not looked very similar to Elong. In fact if you saw them together you never would have guessed that they were brother and sister. Pan had brown long hair. His eyes were green as the leaves on a summer morning and his lips weren�t red as cherries. His lips were redder more like roses. And when he talked he talked slow. Not because he had problem talking, but because he was thinking about every word he wanted to say. Elong was someone who always talked. She talked about everything and always said things first before she thought about it. Maybe this was one of her bad habits, but it made her what she was. And in silent, Pan admired her for that.
,, Pan.. It hurts.. it hurts to much!� Then she starts crying again. ,, I feel lost� So lost Pan.� Pan hugs her while she is lying on the bed whispering in her ear. ,, My dear sister. I will help you with this.. If you want I can listen to the beautiful songs you write. I don�t know much about it.. But I can always try.� She shakes her head a little bit. ,,you don�t need to Pan. It will not be the same. Please let me be alone for a few moments. I need to clear my mind.. Let me be..� Pan gets up again and nods. Then he walks towards the door, almost at the door he turns because he remembered that he needed to tell her some little thing before he leaves this room. ,, Oh Elong.. Dad was really mad.. at you again..�
Then he leaves the room.
The whole day Elong stayed at her room. Almost crying the whole time and sometimes Pan stood at the door. Listening to her crying and even felt a little sad himself. At dinner time her mother called her and her brother. They both went downstairs to the kitchen.
The home of Elong was a tree house. It had 3 floors. One was the basement. There were only clothes and a few other things that her father had stored there. On the first floor there was a kitchen, a living room and a little chamber where her mother sewing machine stood. There was a stair starting at this little chamber. It leads to the second floor. There were 3 bedrooms there. A big one for the parents, an other normal one for Pan and the smallest for Elong. Elong� s room had one bed and a closet. There she had some clothes in it, all different but with the same colors. Black and red. Those were her favorite colors. And when you looked very good there was also one box in the closet. It was hidden and contained something Elong loved very much.
Sitting at the dinner table in the kitchen Elong looked at the steaming bread she had on her plate. They eat her favorite food. Warm bread with nuts and honing. But tonight she was not hungry. She was pricking with her fork in the bread, and took a really small bite of it. Her brother pushed her a bit to eat more. But she just could not. Though she did not had eaten the whole day she felt not hungry. Her mother did not looked at her. She never cared about anything Elong did. What Elong was doing didn�t matter to her. As long she stayed out of trouble and listened to what she said.
The door slammed open. An elf man came in. His face was a bit red. Elong made herself a bit smaller. It was her dad. ,, Where is that lazy nothing good for daughter of mine?� He asked with a deep angry voice. Elong made herself smaller. Her dad came to her and smacked her in the face. ,, you little trouble maker! Did not we learn you some good things?� He slapped her again. Both of her cheeks were looking really red, and burned like hell. More tears, but now because of pain, came in her eyes. ,, What do you think you little bastard! That this is some kind of tavern you just can walk in when ever you want to?� He threw her plate with food on the ground. ,, I will make sure that the food you have eaten comes out again you little dell.� He made a fist and wanted to stomp her in her stomach. But Pan hold dad a bit back. ,, Please dad. Don�t do that.� Dad looked at Pan and calmed down a bit. And slapped with an open hand her face again. ,,Now go upstairs and be grateful that you still have your brother that protects you.� She ran upstairs, her face burning of pain and crying again. She throws herself on the bed and cried.
She could still hear her dad, being angry at her and talking with her mother about it. Her mother telling that she never liked THAT girl and why Elong never does anything normal. Talking about her like she was not their daughter. Then like always they started fighting. Her mom and dad arguing about things she never understood and never will. She heard some footsteps on the stairs coming up. Her door room opened a bit and Pan stepped inside. Sitting on the ground next to her bed he hugged her and stroked her hair. ,,Elong I wish I could help you more. I also know what is on your mind right now.� Elong looked up at him. ,,No you don�t know. You can never know how I feel right now. The pain. You know.. I don�t think they ever loved me. Not from the moment I was born, not even after that. And I really don�t know what I have done wrong. I don�t believe babies can do anything wrong with purpose.� Pan shakes his head. ,, No they cant. I can remember it still. You just cried a lot cause you wanted some love from your parents.� ,, And never got it.� ,,I think I need to leave this house Pan. I don�t find love here. And I sure don�t want to take anymore of these punches.� Pan looked shocked and then nods in agreement. ,,You are right. But were are you going to start then?� She rolled on her back looking at the ceiling. ,, you know Pan. I don�t know.. I just think I will go to Elysia. You know that place still? We have been there once.� ,, Ah yes. It is not that pretty as LeOr but I know that dad and mom will never look for you there. If they want to do that.�
Then they look both at each other and hugged. ,, I love you Pan. You are really I think one of the reasons I am still living.� A bit shocked Pan looks at Elong. ,, Don�t say such things. I will miss you very much. But you are strong. Stronger then you maybe think. I can feel that.� She smiled at him and he smiled back. ,,But if you ever wanted to come back Elong, you know that I will be there for you.� ,, I don�t think I can ever come back when I do this Pan. You know that also. But thanks for this.� next page