My life has been filled with disappointment and hate
And in this most my friends and family did participate
The long hard nights filled with anger and guilt
Tearing apart everything we had built.
Holes in the house walls just a few days old
The memory's still fresh of my mom as she folds
Pretending nothing has happened everything is fine
As her boyfriend's in the other room doing a line
Friends now enemies and family oh so distant
You can see how easy it is to resist it
The love and kindness from family or a friend
I know they won't be there in the end
It won't really matter how hard we try
Because in the end the truth is nothing but a lie
To trust only yourself is the best way
To get on with things in your everyday
We try so hard to be accepted
But in the end we're only rejected
Our families call us anti-social because we keep to ourselves
Closed in our rooms reading books from our shelves
When really we just don't want to fight
And that's what'll happen if we talk to them that night
We try not to cause problems and just stay out of the way
Because we were always told we were the cause of the fight that day
Somehow I'm not quite sure but it never fails
We are the ones who trouble trails
Everywhere we go trouble is found
It seems a life of anger and hate is where we are bound
Life isn't easy and no one ever claimed it was
But no one ever said it would be this much of a fuss.
Dedicated to Parents
Laying on the bed waiting for you
My heartbeating fast, I'm not sure what to do
You stand in the doorway staring at me
I wonder what you're thinking and what that look and your eyes might be
I quiver with longing as your hands glide across my skin
You're feeling every inch of me before I take you in
Your kiss so soft and touch so teasing
The very thought of me with you is pleasing
You slide in gently and I moan with delight
Everything about this moment seems so right
Moving slowly you can feel me shake
Watching my face and feeling each move i make
I look into your eyes as another one comes
My body shakes before it briefly goes numb
Each explosion comes with seconds inbetween
I welcome them all like a heroin feind
The movements get faster as you reach your peak
You cum inside me then ourbodies go weak
Every movement well timed to make me cum
When we are finished my body's thoroughly numb
Layin next to you our bodies intertwined
Cherishing this moment that I've so longingly pined
Now that it's over we will fall asleep
Feeling these feelings of our love so deep
Dedicated to CJ
Leave me alone just let me be
Why won't you stay away from me?
One day you care one day you don't
Why do you say you'll do something when you know you won't?
Please just leave and let me live
My life I had been ready to give
But you know it and I must admit
That when you leave that's gonna be it
I miss you already even though you're still here
But I have cried my last tear
I have accepted the fact, that you're leaving town
I will not plea for you to stick around
It's all I can do to keep from losing control
With my happiness ripped away I'm no longer whole
D:D
I'm sitting here confused not sure what to do
I want to leave this place but my thoughts return to you.
My life is so much better since you've entered it, but slowly my past comes back to haunt me bit by bit.
It's causes me problems no one else comprehends,
I have no one who can relate with me, not even my friends.
I love you dear so very much,
I miss your embrace and your touch.
I hope that my faults aren't the ruin of of us,
What could be, what is, or what was.
Each day that goes by leaves me more confused,
I feel batter, tied up, and abused.
I take things so literal and so point blank,
I put you on the spot and make you walk the plank. I know you mean no harm and wish me the best, But my life's really hectic and ur not like the rest. I'm not use to someone caring like you do,
and I'm worried what'll happen if I move in with you.
I'm sorry I'm jealous and I get out of hand, but I love you and you'll always by my man.
D:D
Breathing heavily, awaiting your touch
Caressing you body, I love you so much
We've delayed our lust for too long
Now we give in, not worried about right or wrong
I look in your eyes, the want you can see
I've longed for this night, as you've longed for me
Turn on the readio and turn down the lights
You kiss me softle and I give up my fight
You whisper you love me as I'm lowered to the floor
And I'm just worried you'll think I'm a whore
This thought flees as you pull me close
I can see in your eyes, you're not like most
The gentleness you use as you guide me over you
Surprisingly I'm calm...we both know what to do
Your lips move from passion to hunger and need
Your touch, once a gentle caress is now a want to please
Love gives into lust as passion does greed
Each of us taking vare of our own needs
Our bodies shake with pleasure and delight
Every move we make is timed just right
We move as one our bodies entertwined
So long have I waited to make you mine
Our motions more frequent and we're short of breath
We keep going until we have nothing left
We're hot and tired drained of power
The ecstasy we felt lasted over an hour
From dusk till dawn, I was in your embrace
At the mere thought my heart begins to race.
Not done..here's an alt. ending tho
I shake, I tremble, I moan with delight
You tell me you love me, then your girl turns on the light...
Fuck!
You use to say " I miss you"
You use to say " I care "
But now it seems as if the feelings aren't even there
You use to ask " May I see you"
You use to try and call
But now it feels as if, you don't care at all
You use to whisper sweet nothings lightly in my ear
But now "I miss you" is all I long to hear.