About

This is a not-too-short introduction about myself. So please bear with me. My name is Ong Kah Kien. People don't usually call me Kah Kien, but Jia1jian1, which is the Hanyu Pinyin of my chinese name. Problem is, most people can't get the sound right and usually end up calling me Jia1jian3(plus-minus) or Jia1jian4(more cheap). They don't sound so nice lah, so let's stick to Kah Kien, or you can call me Eudaemon(yoo-de-mon).

I am not a very serious person and like to fool around a lot. My sense of humour can be very infectious to those around me. I just cannot stop smiling and being happy, even when there is nothing much to be cheerful about. Most of the time, you will find me cracking jokes about anything at all. Life is very boring, and if you can laugh at it, then why not? But I can be serious at times too, especially when there's work to be done. I am quite lazy but someone has to do the job and I don't like to procrasinate.

I am very reticent and don't like to talk much, especially with strangers. I prefer to listen (like Prudential) and not voice my views. Because when I speak, I am very aware of the feelings of those around me. Everyone is entitled to their own views and thoughts, and I do not wish to influence or challenge theirs. Maybe that's why I write so much instead. There is a saying that 'Those who know a lot, talk little. Those who know little, talk a lot'. Hmm... But a fool has little to say too. So judge for yourselves.

I am a perfectionist and idealist. When I do things, I like to plan beforehand and anticipate the problems, because I do not like unpleasant surprises. I also like to start early, because I always end up spending a lot of time polishing up the final product, even when I tell myself that it is only an unimportant project. I think the main reason I strive to do the best possible is to give due credit to my abilities. But I only demand from myself. To others, I am far more forgiving and tolerant.

I am independent. I do not like crowds and I find working in groups unefficient. Everyone has their own style and opinions, and as I said, I do not wish to force others to accept my ideas, and neither do I like to compromise my plans. I prefer doing things alone and later compiling the final work. Let everyone excel at what they do best. I also don't like to carry the burden of others (like Squall...) nor let others shoulder mine. I solve my own problems.

I am a nostalgic person. Life is very cruel. It is bad enough already, but it still seems to get worse with each day. Sometimes, you cannot help but look back into the past and wish that you could turn back the clock and relive those memories again.

I am paranoid and neurotic. I have many fears and worries. They are not unfounded ones, but I don't think that I should reveal them and scare you. I hope to be able to live a carefree and happy life, but there are many things in life which are beyond my control, and I can only take things as they come.Maybe it's time to see a psychiatrist...

carpe diem...

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