How
about you? Do you feel as though there is something wrong? You do not fit in
or there is damage of some kind because of your past?
I
will share what I found out or better still what I came to believe. If it
helps you fine, if you wish to dismiss it that’s ok too.
It
is about 2:00 am and I have been lying in my bed half awake half asleep and
many thoughts going in and out and bringing what I refer to as awareness.
When
I was a child I suffered (that’s what the clinicians told me) mental and
physical abuse and I would have to work on my inner child.
I
submit there is One life and that is Spirit. The work do be done by me is
acceptance that I was taught error and I perpetuate that error by dealing in
opposites. That is believing in good and evil.
Were my parents evil because of their human frailties being expressed
as they were. Because I experienced hunger or lived in institutions am I
supposed to blame someone for this experience? How long should I join with
those who want to keep their victim story going? I used to go to a support
group where the one with the best victim story got the most attention.
I
no longer believe this inner child thing. It sounds like fragmentation to me.
I am a Spiritual being living in a Spiritual universe governed by Spiritual
law. There is One life and I am an individual expression of that Life. Now
then, I do have free will and I can believe what I choose I can listen to
other humans tell me of my problems of sickness and limitation. So-called
dysfunction is a term made up by humans to keep me stuck (and maybe broke too)
and frightened like there other associates. If it is in a textbook is it true?
Humans wrote the textbook and made up the rules that go with them. The only
thing that can keep me stuck is what I believe to be true. If I continue to
start in the middle as my parents did I will never be free.
I
too taught my children the same errors I was taught. Such things as God would
punish me for my shortcomings. God is watching and He will “getcha”
It
just does not add up, an all Loving Creator is going to destroy It’s
creation. A so- called Father of us all is going to threaten me with
everlasting damnation? What kind of God is that?
Have
a look at this for a moment please. There is only One Power and Presence in
the universe. Some of the aspects of this Power (God) are love, peace, joy,
serenity,
“Forgive
yourself William,” was the message in the meditation. "For what" I
asked? “For believing in two Powers and dealing in opposites. Forgive
yourself for believing that you can be punished for your shortcomings. Have
you not punished yourself long enough by your shortcomings? I created you of
Myself therefore I live in you as you are. You are not your behavior, nor what
you have or what you do. You are my child and as you raise your awareness you
will become more like me as I intended you to be. Let go of fragmentation and
separation from me. I am always with you because I am you. I am all that I
have created seen and unseen. Judge not by appearance but come to me for the
answers. I have given you all you need for a happy effortless life experience
on the plane you are on now. Trust Me not those that would lead you away from
me with ideas of separation and fragmentation.
I
love you because I am you and it is impossible for you to separate yourself
from my love. There is nothing to prove to me or anyone else”. Now rest in
those ideas was the message.
Is
this the healing balm I need or do I need to remind myself of the past?
If
I spend as much time in meditation as I do watching the news, which will serve
me best?
I
know this is a long message. Take a minute. Be patient. How is your life
going? It could be effortless. I know.
“Just You”
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