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Emerging Courageous Online Magazine - Poetry

God, Help Me!

I've lost my passion for living.
God seems out of reach.
Down into the depths of despair I fall
Looking for that special peace.
Anxiety's churning inside me.
I feel so helpless, I just cry.
It looks like I'm following the wrong path;
Floundering, disoriented, worthless.
When will this feeling pass
That leaves me so drained and tired?
Yet I'm afraid to be left alone.
I force myself to seek the peace
That yoga has to offer.
Making myself go through the steps
Becoming more anxious when I don't get results.
I try listening to others at support groups
Sharing their tales of woe and success.
But how they reach their solutions
Seems too confusing for me to understand
And not what I need.
I don't want to have my friends
Give me attention through sympathy.
Though all I seem to do is
Recount my latest miseries.
I see in the past, a strong and willful person
Who fought for what is right.
Where have I lost this precious soul
Who cares for anyone else needing help?
"Come back to me, oh, my lost soul.
I wish to be whole again.
God, help me find my way...
I'm lost..."

Marilyn Dixon Pfanstiel
(c) 12-4-1994
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